Chapter 68

**Luna**

Oh, my goddess.

Holy muscles batman!

When I told Milo that I was going back to the nest to change I didn't know I would literally run into a shirtless Rowan. Not only shirtless but there was only a towel wrapped low on his waist. My mouth dries up as I let my eyes wander over his perfectly muscled physique.

He is taller than Declan but he isn't a bulky as him. However, he is just as well defined. His chest is still dewy from his shower and droplets of water have dropped from the ends of his hair and are currently traveling down his muscled chest. The sight makes me swallow hard but I can't seem to tear my eyes away. Is it weird that I want to lick those little drops up with my tongue?

Hold crap what is going on with me? That moment with Declan has clearly turned me into a thirsty Omega or something.

I need to stop staring!

I shake my head to get rid of the sudden cloud of lust flooding my mind.

With great effort and a little flush of shame, I lift my eyes to Rowan's face where I find him smirking. Embarrassment takes over quickly and I try to sidestep him and run to my nest but he moves to block me. I look back up at him and find that he was just as affected as me if the state of his pupils is any proof. They are blown wide and the sight of it along with the shift in his scent tells me he isn't put off by this encounter in the slightest.

He steps closer to me and his hand works its way up my arm until it reaches the back of my neck. His other hand tips my chin up further and it's the perfect position for him to elan down and slam his lips against mine. His lips suck and nip at mine like he has been hungering to do this for too long and can' control himself. The power of his hold on me and his deep scent makes my knees weak and the hand that had been holding my chin up drops to my waist to hold me up.

He pulls me flush against him and his chest rumbles against me as he deepens the kiss. Kissing him is like falling into deep water and sinking into the depths of the sea. I don't even notice when he starts to shuffle me down the hall and through the door to my nest. This is escalating quickly but I can't seem to be able to bring myself to care when he kisses me with such desperation and need.

He's desperate for me. Shouldn't it be the other way around?

For some reason that gives me a feel of power and a burst of confidence. I break the kiss and watch his expression carefully. His chest rises and falls as he takes me in for a brief second.

How far does he want this to go?

Because if I'm honest, I kind of have an urge to jump him right here. I glance past his shoulder to see the door to the nest I shut and that sparks the thought of taking advantage of this alone time. Memories of my time with Declan aflash through my mind and it ticks up the urges I'm having to the next level. My skin is starting to feel hot and tight. I want to be touched without the barrier of clothes so badly.

Rowan must be losing patience because he is kissing along my jaw and down my neck now and it's making this mental battle harder. This is too fast, and I just spent a cozy night with two of my Alphas and woke up in another's arms this morning. Am I being too selfish with their attention?

But I'm their Omega and I don't have to share them with anyone else, so it can't be that unusual to have all their attention on me. Right?

After being raised at Haven you would think all these doubts would have been addressed early on. What they taught us at Haven was very clinical and this felt like more than that. One thing they did tell us is that Alphas are there to fulfill any physical needs we need...

I keep reminding myself that it isn't uncommon for Omegas to bond so soon but somehow it still feels strange. Some visiting Omegas did say that their pack courted them for a week or so before bonding, but others didn't bother with that. All these conflicting stories made this decision so confusing. I am starting to get frustrated by all the overthinking I've been doing. I just want to give in and let my body tell me what I need.

For some reason, a conversation I had with Bailey comes to mind. She had jokingly said that she wouldn't wait longer than a day to bond with her Alphas. She said that no one is going to tell her what to do with her own pack. I love how sure she was about her future, and confident she always was.

I need to harness that courage and give in to my need to feel bonded to my pack and who better to do that with than their leader. Our leader. My Alpha.

It also seemed like it would be a little fun to see how crazy I could make him.

With a deep breath, I cling to my determination and pull away from him. He staggers a little but stands straight and watches me.

Don't overthink this. He wants you. I can do this.

I reach down to the hem of my shirt and slowly pull the fabric over my head. Rowan's eyes lower to take me in and I wait a minute to let him before I tuck my thumbs under the waistband of my skirt. With a tug, the fabric slips away and falls to the ground around my ankles. I slip out of the small heap of clothes and step closer to my Alpha. His eyes are still roaming over my mostly naked body and his chest is rising and falling harder as his breathing quickens. He still isn't touching me though and I see his hands tightening like he's trying to hold himself back.

Suddenly he seems to be trying to restrain himself and I wonder how much longer that control can last. The urge to touch him is becoming so intense now. I need to touch him; to feel his bare skin against mine. My body is getting too hot and the ache in my lower stomach is becoming almost painful.

I felt this way with Declan but not as intense as this. It feels twice as intense and I feel like if Rowan doesn't take me now that I might die. So I don't waste another second before reaching my hand out and resting my hand against his left peck. The muscles under my hand tense and I bring up my other hand to rest on his ribs. He still doesn't move so I let my hands explore him just a little more. When I look back up at his face his eyes are shut and his jaw is clenched.

I don't want him to hold back anymore.

My hand travels back up his chest until it reaches his face and I do what he did and rest it on the back of his neck. I tug to try and pull him closer to me and his eyes shoot open to meet mine. His eyes have a question in them and one nod from me seems to be all the permission he needs. His hands shoot out and pull me into him again and he takes my lips into another desperate kiss. This time when his tongue brushes along the seam of my mouth I open it to give him access. He doesn't hesitate to deepen the kiss and I am so desperate for more that I jump and wrap my legs around his waist.

His arms tuck under me to hold me up and I hold his face with both hands to keep him from breaking our kiss. This sudden movement seems to have dislodged his towel and I suddenly feel the full extent of his arousal through the thin fabric of my panties. I can't help but grind down on the feeling and he nips a little harder at my lip making me gasp. His lips move down my neck again but this time on the side where Declan had left his shallow mark. Still, it is sensitive enough that when Rowan sucks over the spot my body responds and my head drops to the side. My body feels nearly boneless at the feeling and when he does it again I feel myself go weak.

Rowan bends slightly until I feel the plush blankets of my nest against my bare back.

The smell of my others Alphas almost makes me lose my mind.

Oh wow!