Chapter 84

**Luna**


I am bonded to four of the pack now. Everything has happened faster than I expected, so it feels like my head is spinning trying to keep up, but it has also been amazing. The night Kai and I bonded, I also bonded with Declan. Our bonding was fast and rough, but just as amazing as the others. He looked as if he was in pain trying to hold back from bonding with me, and I didn’t like that. Also, his intensity has a strange effect on me, so there is that too.

It’s Sunday now, and we have been busy trying to get everything done. Unfortunately, some issues came up with the equipment the guys wanted to have set up for me, but I told them it didn’t matter. I don’t want them to worry since they have enough to worry about already. Annie, the assistant handling the tour details, has been stopping by often to update the guys on all progress regarding the tour.

They don’t seem happy about her being around, but I can’t understand why. She always greets me with a smile, but I suppose that isn’t enough to tell if someone is nice beyond being polite. Rowan has been so busy that we have hardly had a second alone together, and he has tried. I can tell he wants us to bond as well, but they’re always seems to be something going on. From what I had been told, Bennett was the one who is supposed to handle things regarding the tour and band, but they have asked Rowan to come instead.

Kai has been the one who spends the most time with me, and I love how hard he’s been practicing his sign language. In fact, all the guys have, and I get teary-eyed each time they try signing to me. I guess Milo has been pushing them to learn in case he isn’t around to translate. He is amazing! He has an incredible memory that I’m sure people dream about, and he told me that’s how he learned sign language so quickly.

He has also learned more about Omegas than ever learned while living in Haven. The guys were sweet enough to take me to a special store for Omegas where you reserve your time and don’t have to be around tons of other shoppers. It was amazing, and I could get a few more things to make my travel nest feel more like home. As the day has gotten closer, I have been feeling the unease of leaving my new home. The guys have sweetly promised I can bring anything from my nest that can fit in their trailers. It’s unnecessary since I could never ask them to give up so much of their own space, but it was a generous offer.

I could tell they wanted to argue, but I’m not the type of person who wants or expects people to make themselves uncomfortable for me. Instead, I suggested they each take something from the nest to keep in their trailer, so I would feel comfortable while staying with each of them. That led to a heated discussion about who would get the first night on tour. Now that the newness of me coming into the pack is fading and the guys are growing more comfortable, I am noticing things. The sleeping arrangements are bringing out the competitive side of them.

Milo has been translating a bit of the argument to me since he doesn’t want to get involved, but I am mostly just watching them fight. If I was a lesser person, I would probably find it entertaining since I can’t hear a word, but mostly I feel guilty. I don’t want to be the reason that they fight, but according to Milo, it isn’t uncommon. He says it’s best to let them work it out and eventually it will die down. He’s right because after about twenty minutes of heated discussion, the guys seem to come to an agreement. They turn to me with goofy smiles on their faces and I glance at each one of them in confusion.

*“What?”* I sign to them.

A few of them have learned quite a few sign words, so I know they understand me. Rowan glances to Milo and says something, but I keep my eyes on the others. It’s amusing to see them looking so pleased with themselves. When I move my attention back to Milo, he is shaking his head.

*“They want to rent a new trailer with a bigger bed so we can all share you*.” Milo explains.

No wonder he was shaking his head. That is a ridiculous idea. They want to get ride of the beautiful trailers and vans?

*“No! I like the ones we have now.*” I sign back.

I look at the others and shake my head. Their previously joyful expressions fall and I once gain feel guilty, but I can’t let them do that. That is a tremendous change to make last minute and I won’t add another thing on the already long list of things we need to focus on.

*“Tell them we can take turns. I stay with one of you each night.” *I sign to Milo.

He tells them my offer, and they seem to accept it.

*“I need to go with Bennett to pick up the custom piece for your nest. Will you be okay here without me?”* Milo signs to me and I smile.

He doesn’t like to leave me, but I don’t expect the guys to always be around. They can’t put a hold on things because of me, and I would never ask them to.

*“Go. I’m fine.”* I sign back.

His worried eyes search mine for any sign of doubt, but relent when I give him a small push. He stands and pulls my chair closer to him before dropping a lingering kiss to my lips. It instantly makes my body heat and I try very hard to tamp it down, but a brush of his hand along his mark only intensifies it. When he steps back, there is a satisfied smirk on his face.

“*Now you will think of me while I’m gone.*” I sign before he turns and strides away.

Bennett also stops to leave a sweet but quick kiss to my lips before following Milo out. At some point Declan and Kai had disappeared, leaving Rowan and me alone. There is uncertainty in his eyes as he watches me and I wonder if he is feeling left out since we are still unbonded. It’s not that I don’t want to bond with him, but he hasn’t tried or asked either. With the others, it seemed like it just happened, but with Rowan, I’m not sure what to think.

Maybe he isn’t ready yet. Or maybe he is waiting for me to let him know I want to be bonded to him as well. He is my Alpha, and although my heat is slowly passing, I still feel the need to let my last Alpha make me his. I have to give myself a quick pep talk to build enough courage to stand from my chair and walk over to him. We leave tomorrow and I want to be claimed completely before we do. I don’t want there is to be any doubt that I belong with this pack, and that they have accepted me. I will also feel a lot safer knowing that if anything were to happen to me for any reason, they would know.

More and more Omegas have gone missing, and it has been on my mind. What if it happens to me? So far, they have taken no Omegas that are already bound, so that’s something I have going for me. Being deaf, though, means I need to have as many advantages as possible. I don’t plan on ever leaving my pack, so I am more than happy to let them leave their mark on me. I have been feeling more like myself the more time I spend with them, and it feels amazing. There isn’t a pack out there that could fit me better, and I can only hope they feel the same about choosing me.

When I am finally standing in front of Rowan, I look up at him and wait. I don’t want to push him if he isn’t ready but I also want him to know that when he is, so am I. He doesn’t move but his eyes scan my face as if he is looking for some small sign I don’t want him, but he won’t find it. I knew I wanted him to claim me the first time he touched me. We stand looking at each other for several long second before I see his resolve crack. His arm lifts slowly and his hand reaches out to touch my cheek. I step closer to him and close the distance between us. As soon as his fingers brush my skin, he slides his hand behind my neck and pulls me into him for a desperate and long awaited kiss.

My body reacts instantly, begging him for more.