Chapter 92

**Luna**


An annoying beeping sound wakes me and I want to break whatever is making the sound.

"...some do not know that although our kind can no longer shift, there are still many attributes that were passed on to us from our shifter ancestors..." Someone says.

"So you're saying she is already a quarter way into her pregnancy? That seems too fast." A deep voice says and although I am not familiar with it, I feel as if I should know who it is.

"Yes. Omega pregnancies last from two to three months, just like our wolf ancestors did. Back then an Omega would remain in wolf form through her pregnancy, but now an Omega endures the quick gestation period in human form. Beta or Alpha pregnancies however are much longer." The woman's voice from before goes on.

Why is she talking about gestation?

"So when will the baby be due?" Another warm deep voice asks and I slowly crack my eyes open trying to see the face of the speaker.

"Well, it looks as if she is about two weeks along. Which would mean she is most likely due in six to eight weeks. We will have to do another ultrasound to measure the baby better, but no later than eight weeks. Congratulations." I blink away some of the fog in my vision to see a woman in a doctor's coat leave the room.

For a moment I glance around the room trying to take in my surroundings. I am obviously at the hospital but my memory from before I blacked out is fuzzy.

"I can't believe this. That means you or Bennett has to be the father. The two of you bonded with her first." The first man says.

"Does it matter who the father is? The baby will be part of our pack, it doesn't matter who the father is." Yet another voice says.

"Why is everyone talking about babies?" I finally say.

Four large male bodies turn in my direction with stunned looks. Milo steps forward and examines me for a moment before raising his hands to sign to me.

I shake my head. "I can hear you," I say.

"What? You can hear us? How?" Rowan steps up and my heart races as I hear his voice for the first time.

"My hearing came back last night..." Suddenly everything that happened last night comes rushing back.

Including the memory of hearing the song from the night of Bailey's death again. The pain hits me and I shrink back from the guys, but I'm already laying in a bed which means I have nowhere to go.

"Luna that's an amazing baby!" That comes from Kai and he steps up to grab my hand.

I pull it away before he can and clutch it to my chest.

"Yeah," I say softly and look away from them all.

Looking at them hurts too much.

"What's wrong?" Milo asks and I squeeze my eyes tight.

His voice is smooth, melodic, and beautiful. I want to enjoy this moment of hearing my guys for the first time but the pain from discovering who they are is making this moment bitter-sweet.

"Luna." This voice is the deepest of all of them and when I look up again my eyes meet Declan's. "What is going on?"

I need to tell them the truth. The truth is...I don't know if I can stay with them now that I know who they are. The truth is that seeing their faces will now only remind me of the worst night of my life.

"I..." I start but fear is making it so hard for me to get the rest of the words out.

I was so happy these past weeks and now...

"Love, you can tell us anything." Bennett's sweet British accent captures my attention.

My eyes meet my sweet Beta's and I feel my heartbreaking. I love him...even knowing who they all are. I love all of them. How can I love them and hate who they are all at the same time? How do I move forward with all this confusion warring inside of me?

"Please. Talk to us." Kai begs.

I nod. They deserve to know everything.

"I heard one of your songs last night when I was running away from those men." They all tense at my words, but I push on. "I recognized it."

"What do you mean?" Rowan asks.

God, I love the sound of his voice. It reminds me of the warmth and comfort I feel when he wraps his arms around me.

"The night Bailey and I were in the accident..." The words feel like lead in my stomach. "...we were sneaking out to see a band perform. She was playing their music in the car when we were hit. She was playing your music. One of the songs from last night was the last thing I heard that night."

They all watch me with various looks of sadness and hurt.

"As soon as I heard the song I froze. That's why the men got me. The song paralyzed me with horrible memories of that night. Things I had forgotten all hit me at once." I go on.

Silence fills the room and each of the guys watches me expectantly.

"It was horrible, and I don't know..." I can't say the words.

"You don't know if you can stay with us," Milo says finishing the thought for me.

I nod and my eyes start to sting from the rush of tears building up now. One of them releases a shaky breath while the others stay silent.

"I'm sorry," I whisper and allow the tears to fall.

"Hey. Don't cry, love. We understand. None of us would ever want to do anything that would hurt you." Bennett says and I feel the bed dip from his weight.

I look up at him and he is giving me a soft reassuring smile.

"You mean everything to us. We would never ask you to suffer because of us. Whatever you need, we will figure it out." He says.

When I glance at the others I see they so badly want to speak up but none of them do.

"You would be okay with me leaving the pack?" I ask.

I see the pain in his eyes but he nods.

"If that is what you need then yes." He replies but the hurt in his voice is hard to miss.

Again I look at each of the guys. They look hurt by my words, and I don't blame them. I hate saying these things, but I am hurting too. Even more than that, I'm scared of how much more it hurts to say I want to leave them. The thought of running away from the memories that they bring seemed so easy until I said the words aloud. Now, I'm not sure how I feel. I don't want to leave them but how can I survive being around them now?

"What about the baby?" Declan asks, his voice just above a whisper.

"What baby?" I ask.

I had heard them talking before but I was too distracted to ask about it.

"Our baby. Your pregnant." Milo says.

I'm what?

"What? I-I'm pregnant?" I ask in disbelief.

So when the doctor was speaking before, she was talking about me. I should have guessed but I was just waking up and my mind must not have made the connection.

Milo nods.

"If you don't want to keep it...we are in the hospital. We can have it taken care of before you are discharged." Declan adds but his face looks tight in anger.

What is he talking about?

"What? I don't want to get rid of my baby!" How could he say that?

"What do you want then? If you have this baby then we will forever be a part of your life. None of us would be okay with never seeing our kid. So what other choice is there? You want to leave us." Declan growls back and I flinch at the severity of his words.

"Hey come on man," Kai says to him but Declan shrugs off the hand on his shoulder and turns away.

"We will support you in whatever way we can Luna. I'm sure something can be arranged so that we can see the baby but you never have to see us. Maybe your mom could..." I cut Bennett off.

"Stop!" His mouth snaps shut.

My Bennett...my angel Beta is telling me that they will accept me walking away from them, taking their baby with me, and arranging visits for them where I will never have to see them again.

I drop my head back onto my pillow and close my eyes. I need a minute to think without their sad faces and Bennett's understanding words confusing me.

"Can you guys give me a minute?" I say keeping my eyes closed.

For some reason, I can't watch them go.

"Sure love. We'll be just outside. Call out if you need us." Bennett says and a few moments later I hear them file out.

Once I hear the sound of the door closing, I open my eyes and I cry.

I'm alone now and instead of relief, all I feel is loss.