Chapter Seventeen

Vidya:

In the evening, Jay returned from the office. He was about to talk something but stopped and laid on the bed closing his eyes. Maybe because he found me studying. I went to him. His face looked so tired. I started massaging his forehead slowly. Jay opened his eyes.

"What are you doing, sweetheart?"

"I think you were so tired, so helping you to relax. Go and freshen up. I will bring coffee and something to eat. You will feel better," I said.

"I am ok. Continue your works, Vidya. Don't waste your time for me," Jay said.

"Are you angry with me?" I said.

"No, Vidya. Why do you think so?"

"Then why are you talking like that?"

"Vidya, you are so sweet today and I really like your love and care for me. But I don’t want it. Because I expect the same from you all the time. But you won’t be that way. It's well said that expectations always hurt. I don’t want to get hurt. So you please stop doing anything for me. I don’t want to get addicted to your love or care," Jay said and left from the room. I went to call him.

"Shwetha, can you please give me a cup of coffee?" Jay said, shocking me. I remembered me yelling at him saying that he should ask coffee to Shwetha instead of disturbing me.

"Sure, Jay. Do you want anything to eat?"

"Actually I am a bit hungry too. If you don't mind, prepare some snacks too," Jay said.

"I never mind, Jay. You are my friend. Can't I do atleast this for you?" Shwetha said, smiling at him and went to the kitchen. I went to the kitchen.

"Shwetha, I will prepare coffee and snacks for Jay. You can leave," I said.

"But Vidya, Jay may feel bad," Shwetha said.

"I will handle it," I said and Shwetha left the kitchen. I went to Jay and kept the coffee and snacks on the table infront of him.

"Shwetha, If you don’t have time, why didn’t you tell that to me? I think I am disturbing everyone in this house," Jay said.

"Jay, it's nothing like that. Vidya told that she wants to prepare coffee and food for you. After all she is your wife and she has every right over you," Shwetha said.

Jay looked at me seriously and left to our room. I went to him.

"Why did you ask Shwetha for a coffee? I am your wife. You should ask only me," I said.

Jay didn't speak and pretended as if he is sleeping.

"Jay, stop behaving as a kid."

Jay didn't react. I kissed on his forehead and he opened his eyes. I caught my ears in apologising manner to cool him.

"I am sorry for being rude on that day. I promise that I would never do it again. I will always love and care for you. I will never hurt you, Jay," I said sincerely.

"I don’t want your sorry," Jay said.

"I will do whatever you say. But please don’t behave like this," I said.

"Will you do anything I say?"

"Yes," I said.

"Then give me a kiss," Jay said, making me happy as I understood that his anger was gone.

Jay pulled me closer and I fell on him. He kissed me on the lips.

"I love you, Vidya. I don’t like asking Shwetha anything. I feel free only to ask you. I am sure you won’t allow her to prepare coffee for me. That's why I asked her."

"I know that and I am sure if I allow her to do that, you would get angry with me," I said.

"Vidya, I can understand if you are tired or busy with your study. But, you can tell that straightly to me. I always support you and your career. So, definitely I will not force you to do my works when you are tired. You are my wife and I respect you. You are not here just to do my works even though you are busy. Take your time and space. But when you have spoken that way, I felt as if I am pressurizing you to do my chores and that hurt me deeply," Jay said.

I understood how much Jay respects me and my feelings. I kissed him on the lips slowly and Jay looked at me with shock.

"Wow! You changed a lot, beautiful," Jay said.

"Don’t call me like that," I said pouting.

"Why?"

"I remember our old days of marriage where you used to tease me calling beautiful. I will be scared of you remembering those days."

"No. I never teased you calling as beautiful. I mean it. Even then and now. You look so beautiful to my eyes. Are you still scared of me even now?"

I nodded.

"But you know that I love you so much. Then what makes you afraid of me?"

"Your anger and love. As you love me so much you wil be easily angry at me."

"As far as I remember, I didn’t even scold you anytime until now. Your tears makes my anger go off completely. I don’t want you to get scared of me. So tell me what makes you fear for me?"

"Even if you raise your voice a bit, my eyes will be filled with tears," I said.

Jay smiled and kissed on my cheek.

"I won’t shout at you from now. Actually all these tensions are making me lose my temper so easily. But I will try not to shout at you even in anger and after all remember I am your friend. Be as free as you would be with your friends."

"It's ok. I understand and actually I love your anger too. Because when your anger goes off, you will be so sweet and loving and then, tries to console me in many ways. I love your trials to make me smile," I said.

"Shall we go out for a dinner today?"


I nodded. Jay got fresh up and I am getting ready. I remembered something and opened the cupboard. I took the gift given by Jay to convince me. I opened it and it's a beautiful chain with love symbol locket. I opened the locket and inside it, I saw our wedding photo. I kissed the photo. I married Jay to save my dad but today I am so happy for getting Jay as my husband. Jay took the chain from my hand and helped me to wear it. Then he hugged me from back, kissing on my cheek.

"Thank you. I love this gift," I said

"Never lose it because it's my first gift to you," Jay said.

"Sure, I will be very careful and never lose it. By the way, you didn’t tell anything about Kiran. Did you talk with doctor?"

"Actually as per our plan, I met one of the doctors treating your dad. As I know, he is sincere doctor, I requested him to help us. He told that your dad didn’t get any heart attack.

He also helped us to make our plan successful. He asked Kiran that your dad requires blood immediately and it's not available in the blood bank presently. We thought Kiran will refuse to donate blood as it may not match. But he donated the blood. The doctor sent it for the DNA test and it matched with your dad’s DNA. We failed to prove that he is not your brother Kiran and one more thing is he is going to join in his duties as IAS officer Kiran from tomorrow."

"I have already expected this. Let him join in the duty. That makes it easy to prove that he is not my brother."

"What?"

"Jay, don’t worry. Give me two days time and I will prove that he is not my brother. Till then just relax," I said.

"Ok. Vidya, tomorrow there is a party at my friend’s home. He invited us both. If you don’t have any problem and if you can manage your study schedule for a day, then I want you to come with me. But surely it's upto you.

"I will come for sure," I said.

After that, we went for the dinner. Jay took me for a long drive. I enjoyed the time with Jay. We returned home. I was about to sleep as I was so tired with the long drive.

"Vidya, I want to ask you something," Jay said. I looked at him.

"I hid something from you. If you come to know about it, I don’t know how would you react. But please promise me that you would never leave me."

"Jay, I promise that I would never leave you. May I know what's that or do you need some more time to say?"

"I need some more time."

"Tell me only when you feel to share with me," I said, patting on his hands.

"Good night. I really love you so much, Vidya."

"Good night. I know and I love you too."


I tried to sleep but my thinking about Jay didn't allow me to sleep. What is that Jay is hiding from me? Why is he so panic suddenly? Is he feeling insecure? But why?

"Don’t think much. I will tell you everything soon," Jay said.

"What? I mean how do you know that I am thinking about you?"

Jay caressed my hairs.

"I know about you, sweetheart."

"Don’t worry. I will let you know everything. Now it's late. Sleep now."


I nodded and held his hand tight. I slept on his chest hugging him. Jay caressed my hairs and kissed on my forehead. I felt Jay is worried.

"I won’t leave you. Don’t worry," I said.

"Didn’t you sleep?"

"You sleep first. Don’t think much," I said.

"Are you hiding from me about your past love?" I said.

"Yes but not just love," Jay said.

"Then?"

"I don’t want to say anything further for now. Please sleep."

I nodded and slowly we both dozed off.