Chapter Thirty Five

Jay PoV:

I looked at Vidya who is in tears by now. Why did I behave so stupidly? She even attempted suicide for me. I am unable to speak to her. I left to my home. I am in my room seeing her photos in my mobile. Mom came to me.

"Jay, come and have your dinner"

"I decided to bring my wife back to our home"

"What do you mean? She is not a virgin and she loves someone else"

"Stop it maa. Just stop blaming her. You know well she is a virgin and she loves only me" I shouted

"Jay"

"Mom, don't lie to me. Don't you know she is my secret admirer who loved me a lot? Don't you know hymn may break even if she is a virgin? Why do you hate Vidya that much?"

"How do you know that she is your secret admirer?"

"That's not the issue now. Why did you people hide from me that she attempted suicide for me? When di loved Kiran, you accepted very easily but didn't accept my love for Vidya"

"Jay, you both were immature at that time, so we didn't accept your love. Suhana loved Kiran but they both were matured. So, we got them married. You are right, may be Vidya is a virgin. Hymn may break though she is a virgin. I accept that. Let's bring Vidya to our home"

"Bringing her home can't give her lost happiness mom. She faced a lot just because of loving me. Maa, I just don't understand why people treat girl wrong when she loves someone. Loving a person is never wrong"

"I understand Jay. I am sorry. Let's bring Vidya first to our home and covince her slowly" mom said.

After a week, I went to her home with my parents. Mom apologised her for suspecting her character. She agreed to return to our home. She is in room and whole day I didn't go to room scaring to talk to her. I never scared to talk to her anytime. But now I don't know why but I felt I can't look into her eyes. At evening, she went to kitchen from hall where I sat. I observed her looking at me but I bent my head.

"Vidya, do you want anything?" Mom asked her.

"No aunty, shall I help you in preparing dinner" she said

"It's ok Vidya, I will prepare. You just spend time with Jay" mom said to her.

"It's ok aunty. As a daughter in law, I can't make you work when I am here. I will prepare everything, please tell me what should I cook"

"Ok Vidya. Prepare poori, alu sabzi and boondi raita"

"Ok aunty"

But Vidya don't like poori and sabzi. She told that to me once. I went to kitchen.

"Mom, I don't want to eat poori"

She looked at me.

"But why Jay? You love poori from your childhood, right?"

"Ya mom but I didn't want to eat today"

"Fine, then tell yourself to your wife what you prefer to eat" mom said

"Vidya, prepare whatever you both want to eat. You can tell me directly if you don't like poori" mom said smiling at her but Vidya glared at me.

Mom went off leaving me with her.

"What do you want to eat?"

"Anything that you prepare with your beautiful hands" I said slowly.

I tried to touch her hand but she removed her hands.

"You can go, I can prepare the dinner by myself," Vidya said.

"I will help you. Don't you remember the days where we both used to cook food in our home," I said trying to remember the best days of our life.

"I remember both the best and worst days of my life," Vidya said looking into my eyes and I immediately bent my head with guilt.

"I had only few best moments of my life, Jay. Remaining were the worst and I hope you know who were the reason behind that," Vidya said.

"Jay, I am not naive or coward. However my family and you made me a coward deciding everything in my life. Many times I felt to escape from this torture and live an independent life. But, my love towards you and parents stopped me from taking such a drastic step. I compromised and slowly forgot the past. Even now, I am ready to be a good wife doing everything as per your wish and getting scared of you every time which is fun for you," she said chopping the vegetables in anger.

"Vidya, I never said it's fun to see you scared of me," I said.

I never saw this version of Vidya till now. My Vidya is always patient, kind, loving and soft spoken. Now I was seeing an angry and irritated Vidya. Mom and dad didn't have good opinion on her. What if they misunderstand her if she behaves like this? But I don't think Vidya will be rude to her inlaws. She is angry with me but not with them.

"Vidya, can't you forgive me? I did wrong but I am a teenager at that time. I can't take independent decisions. After that, I never loved anyone," I said.

"After marriage, you loved your wife. If your love is true, you should never accept me as your wife though you married me for revenge. Or did you cheat your wife saying you love her?" Vidya asked.

I didn't understand how to answer her. Both the questions were typical to answer.

"I loved you as my wife, Vidya. I didn't believe in teenage love. At that time, my family became more important than you.

Now, you became more important to me. That's why I fought with my parents to bring you back to our home. Though they said you are not a virgin, I trusted you. As a husband, I am perfect.

You are questioning my love but what if I question your love? You loved Neel and engaged to him. After marriage, you decided to stay with me. How can your love change from time to time? Did you really love Neel, me or your husband?" I said and Vidya slapped me.

Mom and dad were shocked to see her slapping me. Vidya left to our room crying and closed the door.

Shut, I messed up everything.