Chapter Thirty Six

Jay PoV:

I shouldn't have fueled her anger.

"Jay, what is this? She is your wife but she slapped you. Doesn't she have any respect for you?" Mom asked.

Respect? They are not understanding me. I want her love not her respect. I know how much my wife loves and respects me.

"Mom, it's my fault. I said something that hurts her. I will tell you everything later."

I went to our room. I knocked the door but she didn't open.

"Vidya, I am sorry. Please open the door," I said requesting her.

Vidya opened the door. I held her hand and took her with me. She didn't fight with me but sat calmly in my car. I took her to our college's principal. I asked her to stay outside and hear our conversation.

"Good evening, sir," I said.

"Good evening, Jay. How are you? Did you find your secret admirer?" Sir asked me.

I didn't reply.

"Jay, many times you called me to know about her. But without knowing her original name, I couldn't help you. Did you have her photo with you?"

"No sir, it's fine. I got out of it," I said wantedly.

"I know Jay, it's tough for you. I don't understand how could you love a person to this extent without seeing her. I hope you will meet her one day."

"I may not see her but saw her heart already. She is the only one who trusted me when I am nothing and encouraged me to achieve everything. Whatever I achieved today, my fame, money, success everything just because of her trust on me at that time. Thank you sir, I will meet you again," I bid bye to the prinicipal and started my car.

I went to her best friend's house. I requested her to hide. I rang the door bell and her friend opened the door.

"Jay? What a pleasant surprise! Please come in," her friend said and I went inside.

"Actually I came for...."

"Please Jay, don't ask again about your secret admirer. She moved on with life and now she is happy with her husband. She got married. Please forget her and move on.

You asked me many times about her. I never told her details because your entry into her life just makes her life a mess, but nothing else. She is happy now, let her be happy."

Her friend said. I smiled listening her words.

"But I came here to introduce my wife to you," I said putting fullstop to the lecture of her friend.

"Vidya, please come in," I said and Vidya came inside and her friend is in shock seeing her as my wife.

"Meet my wife, Vidya," I said.

"Jay, Vidya, this is something which I just can't believe. This is just a mindblowing surprise for me," her friend said hugging Vidya.

"You know what Vidya. This Jay asked me many times about you. But I didn't tell him as you are in love with Neel. Anyways God proved your love is true. I am so happy for you. But is it Jay who married you blackmailing uncle?"

Vidya nodded and then we said everything to her. From there we started and I took her to my office. I opened the car door and gave my hand to her to get out of the car. But Vidya got out from other side.

We went into the office.

"Vidya, do you know why did I bring you here?"

"Whatever it is you can't convince me, Jay," She replied firmly.

I gave her CDs of my album. She looked at me.

"Read the words on it at the top."

"Dedicated to my secret admirer Sita, for her belief on me and encouragement."

She read and looked at me.

"Enough Jay. This all can't prove that your love for me is true. How can you accept someone as your wife when you love me? You don't know who am I but you accepted me as your wife and loved me. Now why are you trying to prove that you love me as your secret admirer?"

I smiled and made her to sit on the couch and sat beside her. I held her hand lovingly placing a soft yet loving kiss.

"Vidya, it's not that I forgot my secret admirer as I accepted my wife. Life is never easy and it challenges us in many ways. I thought to know about my secret admirer but all my trials went in vain. I heard that she got married.

For me, feeling for the one who is someone's wife is against my morals. Though I loved her first, the moment she got married, I decided to wipe off all the feelings I have for her.

Vidya, I married you. You trusted me and came into my life holding my hand with many dreams. As my love ended up tragically, I can't transfer that pain to you who has no role with my past. Vidya, love never ends. It just transforms.Life too shouldn't end for love. I want my wife to be happy and my secret admirer too. It's just the choice I make that makes everyone happy. So I chose to give all the love to my wife remembering the inspiration given by secret admirer. My love on her transformed into a pure feeling called inspiration sprouted out from admiring her. Keeping my wife happy is my responsibility and giving her the same love given by her to me is my choice.

Life is what we make of it. The choices I make define my life. So, I created my happiness by loving my wife. Vidya, there is no guarantee that the couple will be happy though their love becomes successful through marriage. But, the couple will be definitely happy if there is love in their marriage. Every love may not have an happy ending but any marriage can be made happy by adding love to it.

Whatever I know I was wrong by leaving you without a word. I never thought that you will attempt suicide for me. Now I feel I should have met you and convinced you than just going away for the promise I made to my sister. I am sorry, Vidya. But the truth is I tried to know about you though I went away from you. Unfortunately I didn't get any information about you inspite of many trials," I said slowly but sincerely looking into her eyes.

Vidya didn't speak for sometime and I left the room giving space to her to think. After one hour, she came to me.

"Jay, you are a very good son, brother, husband and..." She paused and smiled looking at me.

"Lover too. Because you never forgot me and tried to find me. When you heard that I got married, you removed the feelings those you had for me for my happiness. You made everyone happy by sacrificing your happiness. We cannot call it as love if there's no understanding. Finding fault with each other shouldn't be done in love because accepting you as you are is true love. I accept you as you are because......"

Vidya stopped for a second and held my hand.

"I love you," She said kissing my hand.

"I love you too, Vidya," I said hugging her.

I felt happy as I got her love back. I know I don't have enough maturity to deal with the situation in the past and that made her life a hell and my love a lie. But now, she has enough maturity to accept me and my flaws and love me forever. As everything got settled between us, now it's time to find out those culprits who were the reason behind them death of my sister and brother in law. Whoever it is, I am not going to leave them easily. Before that, I should shift my family to a safe place.

Till now, this world saw a rock star in me and now the time came to show my true identity.