Chapter Twenty Nine

Vidya:

Two more days passed by and Jay came home with Lasya. Both came to the room. I became happy seeing Jay. I tried to talk to him.

"I don’t have time to talk to you. I came here to collect a few documents from. So please don’t waste my time," Jay said.

Jay took the file and turned towards Lasya.

"Are you not coming?" Jay said to Lasya.

"You please go. I will come within five mins. I need to talk with Vidya," Lasya said.

"I will wait for you in the car," Jay said and left the room, without even glancing at me.

"Vidya, tomorrow is my engagement with Jay. I hope you remember my conditions. You should go away today itself from this home and Jay’s life," Lasya said.

"I remember that. I will surely leave today itself," I said and Lasya left.

I will surely leave today itself from this world. I can’t live without Jay. But I don't want to disturb you both.

I saw the knife on the fruits plate and took it. I was about to cut my hand at the vein but suddenly someone grabbed it from her hand. I looked and it's Jay. He slapped me.

"Jay," I said.

Suddenly I saw his hand which is bleeding as he caught the knife tightly. I was unable to bear seeing his hand bleeding.

"Jay, please leave the knife," I said.

Jay didn’t leave it and Lasya came there.

"Jay, leave the knife," Lasya said.

"I need to talk with my wife. Just go away, Lasya," Jay said.

His tone was so angry and Lasya left immediately. Jay looked at me and signaled me to lock the door. I locked it.

"Jay, if you are angry, kill me but please don’t hurt yourself. I can’t see you in pain. Leave the knife."

Jay caught it more tightly and screamed. I didn’t understand wat to do. I pleaded him in many ways but he didn’t leave the knife.

"I promise. I promise that I will never try to attempt suicide," I said.

"Promise me that you will never leave me or ask me to marry anyone else," Jay said.

"Promise. I promise. Leave the knife," I said with tears.

"Say it clearly," Jay said.

"I promise I will never leave you and will stay with you forever."

"Promise me that you will never ask me to get remarried," Jay said.

"I promise I will never ask you to remarry. Leave the knife, please. I can’t see you in pain," I said.

Jay left the knife and only then, I realised what Jay asked and I promised in hurry to make him leave the knife. I came out of my thoughts and tied bandage to his hand.

"Are you mad? Why did you do this? See how deeply your hand has injured."

I said crying, seeing his hand. I tied the bandage and then, Jay hugged me.

"You are just seeing the cut that happened to my hand. But can you imagine the wound that happened to my heart?" Jay said.

I looked at him.

"What? I didn't get you."

"How could you ask me to marry Lasya leaving you? Do you know how much does it hurt me?" Jay said.

"What?" I said, as Jay accepted to marry Lasya so happily.

"Do you think I really accepted to marry Lasya? I just acted to make you understand that you can’t live without me. It's true that I too can’t stay away from you. Lasya helped me to make you realise your feelings," Jay said.

"If everything is an action then why didn’t you even care for me when I was injured? You didn’t talk to me all these days," I said.

"I cared for you. I sent doctor to treat you. I came and saw you when you were asleep. Karunya too helped me. I didn’t talk to you because I am angry with you for asking me to marry Lasya and I want you to miss me. Only then, you will stop thinking about such useless things," Jay said.

I hugged him. I missed him so much. U thought Jay didn't love me.

"I am sorry. It's true. I can’t live without you. I love you so much."

"I love you too. I am staying with you not because of valuing this relationship but because I love you. Just answer my one question, Vidya. If the same happens to me, are you going to leave me and marry someone else?"

"No way. I love you. I won’t leave you for anything."

"Same applies to me too. Marriage is to unite two hearts but not two bodies. Love is Divine. It should never be mixed up with lust. Both are quite different.

Love is pure and never expects anything in return. I have love for you but not lust. I love your heart. Not just your outer beauty. Till now I never saw any girl in my circle who is as beautiful as you in heart.

You are so selfless and sacrificed our child for saving our nation. Who can do such a sacrifice? Everyone thinks about themselves and their family first. But you gave priority to the nation. I am really proud of you.

Your love is enough for me. Your smile makes me happy," Jay said.

"Why did you caught the knife like that. It might be very painful for you," I said, seeing deep cut on his palm.

"Why did you think to kill yourself? Don’t you know how much it hurts me?"

"I can’t live away without you. So, I thought to suicide."

"I too can’t live without you. So your stupidity made me angry. I got angry but I can’t say anything to you. So I injured myself," Jay said.

"Don’t do like this again. I can’t bear," I said.

My eyes filled with tears and Jay wiped my tears.

"Do you know something? I love to see your tears which you shed for me."

"What?"

"Yes. If we get tears, it means we are in problems. But if someone gets tears for us, it's love. I love to see your tears which are for me because of love."

"Whatever it is, please don’t avoid me. I can’t bear it. I want your love and care. By the way where did you stay all these days?"

Jay looked at me once.

"With Lasya."

"What? If everything is an action then why did you stay with her?"

I asked with anger and Jay laughed out loud.

"You asked me to marry her. But you can’t even bear me talking about any other girl or being friendly with anyone. You are so possessive. But I love it," Jay said.

"I am not possessive. I asked generally."

"Is it so? Ok then I will continue my friendship with Lasya."

"No. No need. If you want a friend, I am there for you. There is no need of befriending anyone else."

"You are jealous," Jay said.

"Yes. I am jealous. You are only mine forever," I said.

"Yes I am all your’s, sweetheart. I am so hungry and it has been a long time I didn’t have food prepared by you. Can you prepare something for me?"

"Sure. Tell me what you want to eat?"

"First bring me my favorite coffee and then, prepare lunch."

I nodded.

"Vidya, are you completely fine? Not weak, am I right? If you are weak then please don’t do anything," Jay said.

"I am fine, Jay and I will be happy if I prepare food for you. I will bring you coffee."

We both had lunch and lied on the bed. Jay caressed my hairs, staring at me.

"Jay, I want to meet the doctor," I said.

"Why? Are you not fine? That's why I told you not to do any work. You never listened to me."

"No, I am fine. I want to meet the doctor to ask if any treatment is possible for me," I said.

"It's not necessary now. First you take care of yourself. That's enough."

"Did you already ask the doctor about the treatment?"

Jay nodded.

"Did that doctor say that no treatment is available for me?"

"No. The doctor told that we have to wait at least for one year for the treatment."

I nodded. This one year Jay should stay away from me. I felt sad as I am unable to give him any happiness.

"Don’t be dull. I am sure you will become mother. Even if not, we can go for surrogacy or adopt a baby from our home. No need to worry about it," Jay said

"But you should stay away from me for one year," I said.

"It's not a prblm for me. I am even ready to be that throughout my life if my closeness hurts you. If you stay in front of my eyes smiling, that's enough for me. You know something. I am a bit selfish too in deciding not to remarry anyone," Jay said.

"Selfish? How?"

"In this whole world, only you can bear my anger and rudeness. If it's not you, then no one can bear me. I am sure if it's someone else, they would have left me long back. Many times I hurt you but you never blamed me for that and still loving me.

"I love you," I said, looking at his eyes. How could he love me so much? I am lucky to have such a great husband in my life.

"Really?" Jay said.

"Don’t you know?" I said.

"I know that you love me more than yourself."

I smiled. Jay took me close and kissed me on the lips. I closed me eyes. He kissed me softly and left me. We both have totally fell in love for one another. We are a happy couple now and Jay’s anger reduced day by day which made our relationship even more stronger and sweeter. I recovered completely from weakness and resumed my preparation for civil services. Days are passing by and the Independence Day approached. Still my parents are in coma and Suhana is trying hard to make Kiran remember the past.