Unfulfilled desires

"Riya's point of view,"
Even though Harsh has been gone for a week, it feels like he's been gone for a lifetime. He had never left me alone before, and this was the first time he had gone so far away from me. I don't understand how he lived without me when it was so difficult for him to spend even a day without me.
Harsh's query to me the night before he left makes me wonder if he knows all about my and Rachit's relationship. Now that he's there, he's so preoccupied with work that he won't even answer my phone calls. He was always there for me when I needed him in the past. Perhaps, therefore, I was unaware of his value.
Rachit, who insisted on spending all of his time with me, has entirely changed his behavior for me. His flirty comments and loving words have suddenly transformed into disputes and arguments between us. Since Harsh left, I don't want to live in this place anymore.
Late at night, I often sit on my balcony and gaze at the stars in the sky. There are so many conflicting feelings going on in my head right now. I'm in desperate need of a friend who can show me the path. There is no one else in my life other than Harsh, who can read my heart without having to tell me. I was looking through my phone's contact list when I came across Ankur's number.
"Always keep me in mind, Riya; whenever you need me, I'll be there to help you." Ankur's words reverberated in my head. I dialed his number, but he does not answer the phone.
What more can I do to keep my emotions under control?
Alcohol?
No, no, no. I can't even imagine doing this.
'I'm standing in front of your house.' I was not as excited as I had been when I received Rachit's message on my phone, but I wondered what he wanted from me. Why is he here today, suddenly?
I invited him inside by opening the front door. Instead of checking in on how I was doing as he entered the house, he commented on how happy he was that Harsh wasn't there.
He held me in his arms and murmured, "Thank God Harsh isn't here."
"Have you arrived unexpectedly?" I inquired, letting go of his grip. Today, it suffocated me in his arms. What else can he expect from me after ignoring me for so long?
"Why? Can't I just come to you for no reason?" He remarked as he walked into my room without asking.
"Of course, you are welcome to visit, but knowing how you have been neglecting me lately, I doubt you will do so unless there is a good reason." I can't keep my bitterness hidden for long, and he should know that I'm not an idiot who doesn't understand why he's changed his behavior.
"Riya, don't be mad at me; I came to see you and you're bickering with me, as usual." He stated it as he lay in my bed.
Arguing? No, I am not.
Doesn't he spend the entire day in his cabin with Shilpi? Is it too late for me to tell him how I feel?
"What happened today that Shilpi left you alone?" When I look at Rachit, it's as if nothing has occurred.
"In the middle, where did Shilpi come from?" He inquired, his brows furrowed.
"She's been in our midst ever since she started working here." How could he act like this?
"So you're jealous of her, right?" He inquired as he sat on the bed, holding my hand.
"Jealous? Of course, that's why you chase her around all day to make me jealous." I inquired, my gaze fixed on his.
"No, I will do nothing like that. There's nothing wrong with that, though. She's just a member of my team with whom I must do official business."
Oh, no! In addition to being an emotional fool, I did not know that Rachit thought I was a dumb person. What do you think? Rachit, In your cabin, I don't know what goes on behind closed doors. While lying, he showed no signs of shame.
"You did the official work as you did with me." I inquired, feigning a laugh.
"Why have you sat with these stupid things, Riya? I want to spend time with you, and you're the only one who has never-ending complaints."
Complaints? Is he grumbling about my feelings and possessiveness?
"Let's get some sleep now; I'm getting tired." He took my hand in his and placed me on the bed, murmuring in my ear, "Riya, you do not know how much I have missed your soft body."
He said something about a soft body, didn't he? Will he come to me in need of my body? It stumped me how I should respond to him. I wanted to get him out of my body as soon as possible, but his passionate kiss slowed me down.
Although I was furious with him, I was enjoying his passionate kisses, and my body was reacting as usual by sensing his touch.
"Riya," he slid his hands over my thighs and whispered, "Do you know you have a perfect body?"
"Please don't play with my feelings like this. You know well that I need your help." My physical desires had fully overtaken me, and all I could think about was lust.
"Not so early today, though."After saying this, he picked me up in his arms and took me inside the bathroom.
I was taken aback by his actions and asked, "What are you doing?"
"You're not permitted to question anything," and he started soaking me and himself by turning on the bathroom's showerhead. He gripped my waist on both sides with both hands and began kissing my lips. On his own, my hands were clutching at his shoulders.
Whenever he approaches me so closely, my senses have been entirely zapped. I've entirely lost track of what's right and what's wrong. My lust overpowers me as soon as I get close to him. And all that's left are my unfulfilled desires, which only he can satisfy.