Do not call

"Riya's point of view,"
I've been waiting for an opportunity to speak with Rachit for the past two weeks, but he's been avoiding me since then. He either changes his ways when he sees me in front of him or ignores me completely. I also tried contacting him and talking to him, but this time my phone number was on his "Do Not Call" list.
Wow, I used to think Rachit was mature, but now he needs to compete with me in everything, including stupidity. According to conventional wisdom, you should always connect with your opposite nature to adapt.
There are many issues that I am dealing with.
Rachit, you're going to become a father, and you do not know. I'm worried about what would happen if he refuses to accept this child, but why would he? But, even if he does this, I will give birth to this child and care for it.
However, I do not want my child to grow up without a father. Who knows better than I do how difficult it is to be a single mother? For as long as I can remember, I've watched my mother fill the roles of mother and father when we were born without my father.
Not at all. I will not allow my child to feel what I have suffered for not having a father. For the sake of my child, I'll have to talk to Rachit and tell him everything as soon as possible. But I don't like Rachit as much as I used to; in fact, seeing him now makes me anxious. But I have to put up with him for the sake of my child.
I was standing in front of the mirror, staring at my belly. My belly isn't quite that big yet, but I was picturing myself with a larger belly. If Rachit learns about our child, I'm not sure how his conduct will change, but all I want is for him to accept our child and for this child to get love from both parents. Of course, he is free to end our relationship, but he must marry me for the sake of this child.
The mobile's ringing sound brought my attention to the phone on the bed.
Harsh's call, oh no.
Harsh has unexpectedly called after a week. I'm terrified whenever I think about him, especially when I consider what will happen if he finds out. But I know he is incredibly sensitive to my situation and will forgive me.
Stupid, take the call or I will mark it as a missed call. Oh, absolutely. I was out of my mind when the phone rang.
"Hello Harsh, How are you?" I inquired, my tone becoming more natural.
"I'm alright, but why do I have the impression that you're not?"He inquired, his tone doubtful.
Oh shit, he seems to have figured it out.
"No, I am fine. What happened to me?" I'm doing my best to convince him I'm perfectly normal, but I'm not sure how he knows I'm not feeling well. Every time I'm in front of him and he can see my look. He must have figured out that I wasn't feeling well, but because he's thousands of kilometers away, how can he guess my state just by listening to my voice, especially when I'm trying to hide my difficulties rather than tell him about them? I'm trying. It's quite tough for me to comprehend.
"Is there something you're hiding from me? " he asked, his voice firm. His frown started spinning in front of my eyes, and I could imagine the concern lines on his face. I felt like telling him everything on the phone right now after asking him this question so many times, but something disconnected the line before I could say anything. Since then, I've been attempting to reach him on his phone, but it's always been unavailable.
If this child had been Harsh's instead of Rachit's, I'm sure it would have overjoyed him when he heard the news. I'm sure Harsh would have left everything and come to me when he heard the news. I'm not sure why I started remembering his affection and concern for me suddenly.
After learning about my condition, I'm hoping Rachit will also look after me. But how could I tell him? Answering this question was becoming more difficult for me than completing a complex product testing report.
My birthday is next week, so this is a good time to make a plan. I'm going to ask him for my birthday party, and I'll send him an official invitation that he won't be able to refuse, even if he tries.
Riya, you amaze me with your intelligence. My subconscious has praised me again after a long time; otherwise, my subconscious has no other job than to mock me and make me feel guilty.
I feel like I should take a break right now; I don't want to stress myself out after thinking for so long, and I don't want to let my baby cause any problems because of my strenuous life. So I turned off the lights in my room and set my phone for an early morning alarm. Instead of doing everything in a rush, I get up early in the morning and do yoga, as well as eat a proper amount of healthy breakfast, so that my baby can grow swiftly.
Is my baby going to be a boy or a girl? Harsh and I had a lot of discussions regarding family planning. He has always wanted our first child to be a girl who is angry and picky like me, but I have always wanted a cute boy like him. Everything between us was going so well until I ruined it.
But, since I can't reverse what's happened, instead of wallowing in regret, I should focus on my future. Rachit was never interested in discussing family matters with me; instead, he was preoccupied with either flirting with me or bickering with me. I understand he is more romantic than necessary, but I'm not sure how I'll spend the rest of my life with him.
What if my child becomes obstinate and enraged like Rachit? No way. Having a child with the same mood swings as Rachit would not be acceptable to me. When I think about this, I get afraid, but what if this happened in real life? Because the child is Rachit, he has Rachit's attributes. Thus, if you want the child to be Rachit and all of his qualities to be Harsh, how can this happen?
Harsh will not adopt this child if I ask him about it, so the question doesn't arise. Why would a man give his name to a child born to someone else? And this was after his partner had cheated on him. Harsh isn't too great to do something like that, and I can't imagine him suffocating for the rest of his life.
But why am I planning so far ahead of time when Rachit has heard nothing about this kid yet? I'm not sure why, but I can't stop picturing myself and Harsh with this kid. It feels forced to not have my family while seeing myself with Rachit. It is deeply entangled in my complicated life; I desired Rachit when I was with Harsh, and now that I don't have any other options, I'm forced to choose Rachit. Then I keep remembering Harsh.
However, not anymore. After I get to work tomorrow, I'll first talk to Rachit. I made my final decision, and sleep embraced me as soon as I closed my eyes.