82 - BESTFRIEND CRISIS

“I need to get out of here” I said immediately, standing up from the chair and ready to dash out of her office but she stopped me immediately.

“Aria – wait” she stepped in front of me immediately, grabbing my arm. The guilt was plastered boldly allover her face followed by the glossy look in her eyes which looked like her eyes getting clouded with tears and I rolled my eyes.

“You have got to be kidding me” I scoffed “I thought Shawn was just being jealous, I thought he was trying to sow a seed of doubt in my mind so I could go back to him but oh my God, it’s a full grown tree – ”

“Shit Shawn!” she smacked her forehead “You were not supposed to find out this way – ”

“Or at all?” I cut through. “You were never going to tell me, weren’t you?”

“I was going to tell you okay, I was going to tell you. I told Shawn about it on the night of the engagement party but I didn’t think he was going to tell you” her gestures screamed exasperation and she had a tone of urgency like she desperately needed me to believe her.

“Can you even listen to yourself – no Sam, can you bloody hear the words that are falling from your mouth? How could you fucking do that to me?!” I yelled pushing her away from me to get out of her office but she blocked my path again, the tears were falling from her eyes but I couldn’t look at her, I couldn’t look at her face without feeling the urge to smack her to the floor.

“You fucked him, didn’t you? Before all that shit you told me, you already fucked him before then” I asked again to be sure I wasn’t dreaming, and this whole thing wasn’t some sort of illusion from an opiod, no it was real, it was as real as the constrictions in my chest.

“Aria – listen to me, it’s not what you think”

“Then what do I think?! What do I fucking think Samantha!” I yelled louder not caring that my voice was now reverberating off the walls but I couldn’t help it, her betrayal cut so deep into my soul.

“When did it happen?” I asked quietly now, silently watching as her face fell, watching the conflictions rise within her as she figured a way to spew the words out of her mouth, but I stood before her with my hands
folded defiantly across her chest while I waited for her to speak.

“Answer me Sam” I managed to look straight at her, past her sobbing face and demand answer.

“The night – the night he broke up with you after you had the miscarriage”

I gasped.

My heart shattered and I nearly broke down to the floor. The memories were resurfacing in my brain, the dejected feeling I felt then rushing back to brain and holding me captive. It was at this moment that the tears stung my eyes, they were painful and it was hard to blink them away because they were already rolling down my cheeks in big fat drops

“You just – I was – what?” I couldn’t form my words “What the hell Sam!”

“I’m sorry Aria, I’m so sorry – I didn’t mean for it to happen but it just did and I’m so sorry. I should have told you a long time ago but I just couldn’t bring myself to do it”

“I had just – I had just lost my father and my child and you were out there sleeping with my boyfriend – of course he had dumped me that night so yea you had no moral obligation to uphold”

“No Aria, it’s not – ”

“You’re fucking snake, that was why you were so against me getting back together with him – ”

“No don’t put it all on me now, he came to me, he – ”

“He’s a fucking idiot but you were supposed to be my best friend Sam” I cried aloud “You owed me that at least because I would never do that to you”

“I’m sorry” she said but I only rolled my eyes at her

“I never want to see you again” I said proceeding to walk out of her office when she stopped me again but this time with her words.

“You’re going to stay with him, aren’t you? You’re still not going to see him for the bastard that he is?”

I turned around, her gaze was no longer pititful but had a hint of sinister to it “Why? So you could conveniently place yourself there, you know what Sam? I never imagined I would fight with you over a man, you always tried to seem like you were above that, like you would never let a man come between us but guess what, you were the ones that broke all the rules so maybe you should be the one sitting at the other side of your own table – you need the therapy” with that I whipped around and walked out of her office without even a glance back.

I held myself tight throught the ride down the elevator and when I stepped outside with the sun hitting my face I felt like I couldn’t hold it in anymore. I was somewhere in the corner of the parking lot when I fell apart, my whole body shook as I crouched to the floor with the tears flowing aggressively down my face. I couldn’t even figure out who my anger was directed to but I knew a large portion was at Sam. It broke me that she had done that and still smiled in my face all these years.

“Fuck!” I cried to myself and now almost ready to pick myself up from the floor when I felt a presence beside me. I thought it was Sam and I was ready to scream bloody murder for her to go away but when I looked up, I instantly ate my words, it was – Marvis.