Chapter 30

Cyn’s POV


I woke up in a cozy warmth. I inhaled the scent of Tucker and Josh and felt like everything was as it should be. I tried to stretch a bit and felt something hard on my butt. My eyes widened in realization. Josh’s heavy arm was holding me down while I tried to wiggle away towards Tucker when something hard brushed across my crotch from the front. I turned red as a tomato, stuck in between these two men with erections. All of a sudden I felt like I was hit in the head with a shovel. The sharp pain reverberated through my brain until it settled on what looked like another memory. Josh was driving me somewhere.

*He smiled down at me before looking serious.
He pulled to the side of the road and asked me. “Do you want to forget the kiss with Tucker?”
“Yes,” I answered.
He cupped my face and looked into my eyes before looking at my lips. He leaned forward and tilted his head until he finally brushed his lips with mine. I closed my eyes and enjoyed the feeling of his soft lips. Our mouths opened in unison and our tongues rubbed each other. I heard him groan while I felt myself tingling in my stomach. After a few minutes I pulled away, breathless.
“What was that for?” I whispered.
“Do you remember?” He asked me.
“Remember what?” I said.
He smiled at me, “exactly.”*

I opened my eyes with a gasp, Tucker was shaking me while Josh was holding onto my face. He searched my eyes, “are you okay Cyn?” I blinked several times before answering, “yes. I’ve just been slowly getting bits of my memory back, it’s just painful.”
“What did you remember?” Tucker asked me with wide eyes.
“Well when this happened last night, I remembered our first kiss,” I told Tucker and then looked at Josh. “This time I saw you and I kissing.” I felt Tucker tense as I spoke to Josh. Did he not know I had some sort of relation with Josh? What is my relationship with these two men?
Josh ran his knuckles across my cheekbone, “take your time remembering. Now baby, we have to get ready for school. We need to head back to my house so you can shower and change, okay?” I nodded at him while Tucker remained quiet. I feel like his feelings were really hurt with my confession.
“Are you okay?” I asked him. “YEP.” He said while popping the P and then he walked out of the room. I felt that wasn’t honest but didn’t want to push him.
Josh gave me a small smile and then threw on a shirt and pants. I blushed thinking about his *thing* rubbing against me. He must’ve known what I was thinking about because he winked at me. Turning as fast as I could, I ran to the bathroom to put on my clothes from last night before we went back. The dress I was wearing last night was quite short and I kept trying to pull it lower to cover more of my ass. My breasts were also popping out like nobody’s business.
Josh grabbed my hand and pulled me out of the house and to his car. We passed the redhead on our way out the door and she gave me a small wave. Josh looked to me while driving, “Mina is supposed to be working on a way to get all your memories back. From what she explained to me last night was that since her spell was focused on your neck, the vicinity to your brain basically gave it a shock, which is what caused the temporary amnesia.”
“When did you and Mina talk?” I asked, unaware that they had any contact. I thought he went straight to the bedroom.
“I couldn’t really sleep, I went downstairs for a bit in the middle of the night and Mina was in the living room. She explained that she was Tucker’s mate and had done a spell to remove the mark from your neck.”
“I see.” I didn’t know what else to say, I was still thinking about the kisses from the two pieces of my memory that I’ve gotten back. My face heated as I realized this is the same car that was in memory of me kissing Josh.
We soon arrived at his house and he guided me in. We didn’t run into anyone on the way to his room. He showed me the closet that had my clothes and his in it. He was telling the truth about us living together. I grabbed a black skirt and black crop top to wear, they looked pretty cute. I finished off the look with some wedges and waited on Josh. He came out of the restroom with his wet hair sticking to his forehead. I itched to wipe it away from his face. His arms were muscled, he had a six pack and an impressive bulge behind his towel.
“Like the view?” He smirked down at me. Shit, when did he get so close?
“No.” I whispered while he crowded my personal space. He leaned down so close to my face, I could feel his breath on my cheek. “Liar.” He murmured in my ear before he pressed a light kiss on my cheek. I immediately missed his closeness as soon as he pulled away.
I gulped and closed my eyes. How did I even choose between these two men? They’re both insanely hot and both set my body on fire.
Josh went into his closet and when he came back out, he was fully dressed in a pair of tight black jeans, a red shirt that stretched tight against his chest and black shoes. He offered me his elbow which I accepted.
We strolled downstairs and out of the house to head to school for the day.
The ride was quiet and calming which gave me a chance to try and sort out my thoughts. I was going to seek out the girl named Helena and get some advice from her about these men. Josh told me she was my best friend and we talked about everything with each other.
As soon as I exited the car I was attacked by a small, black haired blur. “Cyn! Tucker told me everything! We have so much to go over. Bye Joshua!” She called behind her as she moved me away and around to the back of the school. I’m assuming this is Helena.
“Don’t we have classes?” I asked her but she shushed me.
“Learning everything first is important, you need to know who you can and can’t trust. I’ve been worried about you girl. Let’s sit and go over everything.” She patted the spot on the grass next to her and I obliged.
Helena talked for at least a couple hours, I’m not sure how much of my classes I’ll even be able to get to but she was right, what she went over was important.
So to start, Alex is my mate but he marked me forcibly when I tried to reject him when I found him cheating on me. Next I was starting to get friendly with Josh but I cut things off when I found him in the middle of a tryst in the forest. Finally, I was with Tucker for awhile but he disappeared months ago and I’ve been depressed up until the past week when I finally accepted losing him. I thought that the conversation with Helena would help me figure out which man I was going to choose before I lost my memories, but all it did was complicate things further. She’s right that it’s in my best interest to stay single for now.