Chapter 39

Cyn’s POV


Why am I sitting in a therapist’s office? You guessed it, I’m committing myself. My reaction to what happened between Alex and I yesterday has seriously messed up my brain. Ever since then, he’s left me alone. I’m worried though that he’ll come back for me even harder next time.
“What I’m going to recommend for you, Cynthia, is continued therapy sessions and we’re also going to prescribe some antidepressants along with something for bipolar disorder. Your moods tend to swing to very extreme highs and lows. You also engage in risky behavior and have difficulties controlling impulses. These are a couple of things that indicate you may have bipolar disorder.”
Bipolar disorder. What kind of werewolf has mental issues?
I wanted to scoff at the therapist but all I could do was give her my pharmacy information. I’m starting to feel very stressed and my mood has been declining lately. Maybe medicine can help me out.
I returned to the pack house and went to Helena’s room. The past few days, she’s been out of town with her family so I’ve had the room to myself.
*knock, knock, knock*
I looked at the door in confusion. I stood and opened it up only to find a single rose. No note or card with it. I picked up the flower and took it into the room. I placed it on the dresser and stared at it.
*bzzzzz*
My phone buzzed in my pocket, letting me know I got a text message. I pull out the phone to see a message from Tucker.

Tucker: you ok? You weren’t in school today
Me: no. I’m feeling sick
Tucker: do you want some soup
Me: that’s sweet but no
Tucker: if you insist
Me: I do
Tucker: :p
Me: :p

I tucked my phone away and smiled. My happiness was short lived though. I remembered how Josh reacted when I said I wanted both of them. I can’t imagine how Tucker is going to take it.
I pulled my phone back out to text Tucker again.

Me: when are you free
Tucker: I’m free now

Fuck. That’s sooner than I was expecting.

Me: ok. Where are you
Tucker: I’m outside

I ran to the window and was shocked to see him parked outside. I quickly checked my appearance in the mirror and then ran downstairs and out the door.
I’ve been avoiding talking to Tucker but it’s time to tell him I got my memories back.
I hopped in his car and he drove to his grandmother’s house. She was out playing bingo with some friends so we had the house to ourselves.
We were sitting on the bed when I broke the news.
“Tucker. I have my memories back.” I grinned at him. He smiled crookedly at me, “that’s wonderful baby, I’m happy for you.”
He looked into my eyes and his were alight with joy. “You’re amazing, you know that?”
“I wouldn’t say that.” I said truthfully.
“What’s the matter?” He asked finally.
“I slept with Alex.” I blurted out. His eyes widened in shock.
“Why?” He growled dangerously.
“I-I don’t know.” I stuttered. He gently grabbed my chin and pulled my face to where I had to look into his eyes. They were alight with hurt and anger.
“You let him touch what’s mine? Who else has touched what’s mine?” He asked.
“U-uh Josh.” I whispered. I could feel his rage building. His eyes darkened dangerously and he looked ready to murder.
“Why?” He finally said hoarsely.
“I love Josh, too.” I told him.
“I know that, I meant why Alex?” He asked.
“I don’t know, I felt like I couldn’t say no and after awhile, I didn’t want to say no. I know you must think I’m a slut. I think that about myself. However it only affirmed what I already knew. My heart belongs to both you and Josh. I want both of you. I already talked to him, he’s not very happy with me. But I want you to consider it. I want both of you to be my boyfriends.
The shock was evident on his face. “Cyn, baby. I want you exactly as you are. If that means I have to share you, I will. I’d do anything for your happiness.”
Tears welled up in my eyes when I realized what he said. “So you still want me?” I asked him.
“Silly woman, I’ll always want you. Nothing will change that.” He kissed me gently, all over my face and neck.
One hand snaked down to palm my breast while his other hand reached under the skirt of my dress to gently trace the line in my panties. With swift movement, he pulled my dress and bra off. He slid my panties down my legs sensually.
“I’ve missed you so much.” He whispered before he pressed his lips to mine. We kissed and moaned in each other’s embrace until he pinched my nipple, making me gasp.
He then grabbed my ass and squeezed it. He was pulling all kinds of responses from sensitive parts of my body.
“I need you.” I whispered breathlessly to him.
“I need you, too.” He answered with a crooked smile. He rubbed his erection against my wet slit, making me throb with need.
He expertly slid in while my back arched off the bed. “Fuck, I missed your tight cunt.” He growled as he started his thrusts. His wide cock stretched me to the point of pain but it hurt so good.
“Your pussy is greedily sucking in my cock. You’re such a good girl.” He praised while he continued thrusting into me. His pace increased as he pounded, I couldn’t help but writhe on his cock.
“It’s so good!” I cried as I creamed all over his dick. “I never want to stop feeding you my cock, you look so hot when I’m filling you up.”
I blushed, all the way down my chest and stomach. He grabbed my heavy tits and started sucking on a nipple. He flicked it with his tongue before giving it a gentle nip. I moaned as he played with my breasts, his cock never stopping for one minute.
“This pussy is mine to fuck whenever I want, right baby?” He groaned in my ear as his pace became erratic.
He stuck one of his fingers in my mouth to lick. I swirled my tongue around it until he pulled it out. “Come with me,” he moaned as he slides the finger I licked, into my asshole. I gasped from the intrusion but felt strangely aroused. It felt so taboo which only made me want it more.
My body squeezed his cock and finger while I pulsed in pleasure. He grunted the last of his seed into me before he finally withdraws his cock and finger.
“Fuck, I love you.” He said huskily.
“I love you too!” I exclaimed loudly, just happy that something is going right.
He chuckled before he helped me clean up.
“Thank you for being here for me. For not judging me.” I told him with sincerity.
“I’ll never judge you. Now let me guess, you want me to help you to win over Josh?” He asked. Damn, he knew me too well.
“How did you know?” I whined.
He just laughed, “I have to keep some things secret.”
We laid there for a few minutes before I broke the silence.
“Do you miss your wolf?” I asked him. He rubbed his face, “yes, all the time. But it was worth it because I have you.”
Tears welled up in my eyes, “I never did thank you, for getting the mark removed.”
“You don’t have to thank me, I’d do anything for you.” He said with a smile.
I don’t know how I ended up with someone so perfect. Now, if I can only get the other one to talk to me, maybe we can work something out.