Storm

Becky's P.O.V


As I walked quickly down the long hallway my footsteps made loud sounds against the cold hard stone floor. Each step I took was fueled by a strong mix of anger and frustration that was swirling inside me like a violent storm.


I could hear muffled voices coming from the gathering of people below—there was laughter chatter and the joyful sounds of people having a good time.


These happy noises felt like sharp daggers hurting me and reminding me of the emotional storm that was building up inside me. Finally when I arrived at my room I opened the door with a forceful movement.


The hinges of the door squeaked loudly as if they were complaining about how quickly I had opened it. After stepping inside I slammed the door shut behind me with a loud bang.


“Ugh!” I exclaimed loudly in frustration as I lifted my foot and kicked a nearby chair. It lost its balance and fell over with a loud noise.


The sound of the wooden chair hitting the floor echoed around me and it reflected the chaotic storm of feelings that were swirling inside me.


“This is absolutely ridiculous!” I complained expressing just how annoyed I felt.


As I moved my fingers gently through my hair I couldn't shake off the uncomfortable feelings that were building up inside me.


I kept questioning myself and feeling frustrated. “Why on earth did I ever believe that I could help him recover? What made me think it was worth my time and effort to try at all?”


The room felt extremely uncomfortable almost like the walls were slowly closing in on me making me feel even more hopeless and trapped.


This feeling was so intense that it was as if I couldn't breathe properly. Overwhelmed by my frustration I suddenly took my pillow in my hands and threw it with all my might across the room.


It hit the wall and then fell sadly to the ground looking very much like my dreams and aspirations that had also fallen apart.


“Becky?”


I quickly turned around to see Jake standing in the doorway. He had his arms crossed over his chest and I could see that he looked worried.


There was a look of deep concern on his face. He asked me “What’s going on?”


“What is happening right now?!” I exclaimed feeling my voice get louder and louder.


“What I mean to say is that Jessy Bloodmoon has the audacity to show off as if she is engaged to Karl! Can you even believe that?”


Jake lifted one of his eyebrows and he felt his jaw tighten just a little bit. “Is that the reason you’re—”


“No! No it’s not just that” I said raising my voice and walking back and forth across the room like a trapped animal that couldn’t find a way out.


“I… I really tried to help Karl and it just didn’t work at all! I could feel it in my bones Jake. I could sense him fading away and I just wasn’t strong enough to save him! And then she just shows up without any effort and does… whatever she did and now he’s perfectly fine! There’s something—there’s something really strange and unusual about all of this!”


“Queerer?” Jake repeated and I could see his blue eyes looking deeply into my own. “What do you mean by that...?” he asked trying to understand better.


“I really don’t know Jake!” I yelled loudly raising my hands high in the air because I was feeling so frustrated.


“It’s as if I wasn’t even present! She just stepped in and took my spot without any hesitation. It’s so annoying and makes me really angry!”


Jake entered the room gently making sure to close the door softly behind him so that it wouldn’t make too much noise.


He looked at the person in the room and said with a calm and even tone “I understand that you really did everything you could to help him. You have always been supportive and present for him whenever he needed you. However I think it’s possible that he required something a little different this time around. Perhaps there was something that you were unable to give him that could have made a difference.”


I turned my body to the side and as I did I started to bite my lip because I felt like tears were about to fall down my cheeks. In a soft voice I said “But I really love him.”


“I understand what you're feeling.” he said in a soft and caring voice. “However it's important to realize that you cannot control every single thing that happens. There are moments in life when certain situations are beyond our control and we just have to accept that.”


“And what about Jessy?” I said with a sigh as I rubbed my temples with my fingers feeling a wave of frustration wash over me. “Do you really believe that this is just a random coincidence?”


“Honestly I have to admit that I really don’t know the answer to that question” Jake said as he took a step closer to his friend.


“But you really can’t allow her to affect you in this way. You are much stronger than you think you are and you should believe in your own strength.”


Just as I was about to say something a guard came up to me and interrupted. His voice was deep and precise as he spoke. “Miss Becky Alpha Karl is asking for you to come and see him.” he said.


“Are you seriously asking me that right now?” I said sharply feeling my irritation start to rise once more.


The guard nodded his head in acknowledgment briefly looking over at Jake for a moment before shifting his attention back to me. “Yes it is indeed very important and needs to be addressed quickly.” he said.


“That’s just wonderful.” I whispered quietly to myself as I moved around the guard and walked toward the door. “This is exactly what I don’t need at this moment.”


Jake stayed right behind me noticing the tension I was feeling. “Are you really sure that you want to go through with this?” he asked keeping up with the speed at which I was walking.


“I really have to do this” I said in a short and abrupt way as I struggled once again with the strong emotions swirling inside me.


As we got closer to the room where the Alpha was waiting I could feel my heart beating very fast.


There was a thick feeling in the air around us as if it were filled with important things that needed to be said but weren’t being spoken out loud.


Taking a big calming breath to steady myself I reached out and opened the door.


Inside the room the atmosphere felt very stuffy and uncomfortable. Karl was sitting at the end of the long table and he looked tired and worn out but he still managed to appear in charge and authoritative.


Next to him there was Jessy Bloodmoon who was kind of clinging to him like a leech. She had a confident and self-satisfied smile on her face that seemed to suggest she was enjoying the situation far too much.


“Becky” Karl said speaking calmly and warmly. However when he quickly looked over at Jessy the warmth in his voice seemed to disappear and it became cool. “I’m really happy that you are here.”


“Is she meant to be here right now?” I replied with a sharp tone narrowing my eyes at the person I was speaking to.


“I was under the impression that I had clearly expressed my feelings about her presence and I thought I made it very clear that I didn’t want her to be here at all.”