Hard

Becky's P.O.V



My heart was beating very fast as I tried to keep up with Alpha Rian while we walked through the twisting and turning corridors of the pack’s sanctuary.


There was a lot of confusion in my mind swirling around like a powerful storm. I struggled to understand how serious the situation was.


I remembered that Rian had mentioned something about a threat or danger and that word kept coming back to my mind almost like a dark shadow that wouldn’t go away.


“What exactly did he mean when he said ‘danger’?” I whispered softly to myself finding it difficult to match his long quick steps.


“Becky.” Rian said as he turned to look at me. “I really think it’s important that we have a discussion about this matter. Would you please accompany me into the council room? We can have a private conversation there away from everyone else.”


I gave a slow and uncertain nod before taking a step into the room. As I did so a feeling of unease began to wash over me making me a little anxious.


When the door closed behind us it made a heavy sound that felt significant as if it was shutting us off from everything happening outside.


I wrapped my arms around myself and my thoughts started to race as I wondered about what was going on.


What could be so important that we needed to have this conversation away from everyone else?


“Rian can you please tell me what is happening right now?” I could feel my voice shaking a little bit but I tried to stay strong and not let my fear show.


“You talked about some kind of danger before. I really need to know what exactly do you mean by danger?”


Rian leaned on the big oak table looking deep in thought.


“Becky you have something special—the strength of the white wolf. It’s a family legacy that is very powerful.”


I blinked my eyes in surprise and at that moment I felt my heart skip a beat. I stared at the person in front of me feeling confused.


“Could you please explain what you mean by that? I really don't understand what you're saying right now. Why are you saying that this is a threat?”


“Some people want to have control over that power because they want to use it for themselves and benefit personally”


Rian said speaking in a calm and steady voice much more steady than my own.


“For example there is a person named Jessy Bloodmoon. She visited us not too long ago and I have a feeling she might have had some suspicions about you.”


My breath suddenly became trapped in my throat as a wave of confusion washed over me. I thought to myself “Jessy? What could she possibly want from me?”


“Becky I need to talk to you about something important. There are reports that a person named Power is actively looking for people who have special abilities and you are one of those individuals. It's very important for you to be careful and pay attention to what she is doing. I am looking directly at you because I want you to understand how serious this is. As long as she is out there you could be in danger.”


I had the strong sensation that the walls of the room around me were getting closer and closer almost like they were squeezing me tightly.


The heavy feeling that came from Rian’s words rested in my stomach making me feel as if I was carrying a heavy stone.


I couldn't help but think “What can I possibly do about this situation? I honestly don’t even know how to manage or control this power that I have!”


Rian spoke softly as he explained “That is exactly the reason why I really want you to go through the training. It is very important for you to learn how to control and make use of your abilities. You cannot allow fear to completely stop you from moving forward. This is not the right time for that to happen.”


I bit my lip nervously and even though I nodded in agreement I still felt unsure and confused about everything that was happening.


“Okay I will start training” I said finally. After saying that I turned away from him. The weight of what we had just talked about felt really heavy on my shoulders. I realized that I needed some time and space to think things over and sort through my thoughts.


As I walked out of the council room I made my way to the training grounds. This was the place where I often went to think and sort out my mind when I had too many thoughts swirling around.


As I stepped onto the grass that had been worn down by many feet I could feel the heaviness of my thoughts starting to change into a strong desire to take action.


I positioned myself in a fighting stance and I could feel the tension building up in my arms and legs as I prepared myself.


I kept taking deep breaths and as I did I started to find a steady beat in my movements. I began to punch and kick the air that was right in front of me almost as if I was trying to fight against an invisible opponent.


I got so caught up in the rhythm of my actions that I felt like I was losing myself in the motion. I would think to myself “Attack then retreat and don’t forget to breathe.”


Every time I threw a punch or performed a kick I felt like I was pushing away some of that swirling anxiety that had been bothering me. But instead of feeling the excitement and adrenaline that I was hoping to experience feelings of doubt started to creep back into my mind.


I began to wonder deep down whether I would really be able to defend myself if I ever found myself in a dangerous situation.


“Hello my friend! Do you mind if I come over and sit with you?” Jake's cheerful voice interrupted my thoughts drawing my attention away.


I looked up and saw him running toward me his bright and infectious smile lighting up his face.


“Jake right now I really don’t feel like being distracted” I said doing my best to hold back a smile that was trying to show on my face and break through the serious look I was trying to keep.


He let out a soft laugh casually turning into a warm-up move that was quick and lively. “Who said that I was just a distraction? I prefer to think of myself as a support vessel helping out where I can! Also it seems like you could really benefit from some friendly sparring practice.”


I could sense a little warmth from his excitement and because of that I decided to soften my stance a bit.


I replied “Okay I’ll agree to this. However I want to make it clear that you should not anticipate me to take it easy on you at all.”


We started to spar together and it didn't take long before Jake who was being playful and teasing me got a few light punches back because of it…