CHAPTER TWENTY NINE

Jwala:

I skipped my dinner and confined to my room. I don't know why, but I want to be alone. I remembered Agni's behaviour before getting conceived. He is so rude but possessive too. Love is the reason behind his possessiveness. I know he had many affairs, but I never saw him feeling possessive towards them. That means he didn't think of me as a sl*t. Instead, he considered me as his girl.

He sent me to clients. But on the very first day, that fellow got a call and went off from there, and within five minutes Agni's driver came to pick me from there. That means Agni is right that he just did it to scare me but not to kill my self-respect. This hotel incident after marriage created doubt on him but when Agni didn't allow anyone to touch me before the wedding, why will he allow someone to attain me after the wedding. That idiot tried to force me. It may not be Agni who sent me there. It may be a trap by someone.

Especially if Agni's illness is genuine, he staying in the hospital all alone for three days was also right. If it's true, then he may not be the one who talked on the phone that day. Maybe someone sent a message to me from his mobile when he is unconscious. If he is innocent, I shouldn't allow him to be all alone when he needs me the most. I can't do it.

Love? Don’t I love him? Then why my heart broke knowing his betrayal? I accept that I need time to allow his touch. But, love doesn't mean only this. If I love Aadarsh, why will I act as if I fainted when he tried to put vermilion on my forehead? Why do I shed tears seeing Agni hand bleeding? Why his pain brings tears to me? Why his happiness and possessiveness make me smile? Why do I care for his love and sweet words? Why do I feel to kiss him when he is around me?

Why I feel empty now when I got the freedom to choose my life? Why do I feel to cry hugging him tight though he is the reason behind my every tear till now? Why do I want to see him smile and happy when he love my tears? Why do I want to fix his life when he spoiled my life?

I leaned back to wall crying. I slowly dozed off into sleep. I felt Agni holding my wrist and waking me up.

"How did you come here?"

"I had my ways" Agni smirked.

"Why did you come here?" I asked seriously.

"Because, you are my wife."

"Wife? No. How can you say that after suggesting me to choose that stupid Aadarsh on whom I had a crush in my childhood when I don't have any maturity?" I yelled at me.

He wiped my tears.

"I love your tears when you shed with love on me."

"But you already confirmed that I don't love you."

"But you proved me wrong with your tears. We shed tears only for the one whom we love. So now these tears showed that I had little space in your heart even after doing all that."

"No, I hate you," I said smiling to tease him.

"You love me," he said moving his finger from temple to chin.

"No, I hate you."

"You love me," he said moving fingers from chin to my cleavage.

"I hate you," I said and pulled him towards me.

He kissed my face and neck. He placed his lips on my cleavage giving a wet kiss.

"You hate me."

"No, I love you," I said, and he laughed loudly.

I hit him on the chest and hidden my face in his chest blushing.

"You know how to make me confess the truth."

"Of course I know about my baby well," he said kissing me on the forehead.

"I love you, I love you, I love you," I said, and suddenly with a jerk, I opened my eyes.

I am on my bed in a sitting position. I understood that I dreamt till now. Agni is not here. I smiled at my stupid and silly dream. Sometimes dreams come to make us realise our true feelings.

I went downstairs and called him through landline. I never knew until today that his mobile number was noted to me though I called him very rarely. He picked the call, and his voice made me feel butterflies in my stomach. What's happening to me? Why am I feeling like this today?

"Hello, who is this?"

"Hello," I said slowly.

"Jwala? Didn't you sleep yet, baby? It's too late. Are you fine?"

"I am fine, Agni," I said smiling.

I love his concern towards me. I smiled unknowingly.

"Jwala, is everything ok? Do you want me to come to you?"

"No no. I took the decision. I decided what to do, and I am sure it makes my life better than ever."

Of course, life will be better when I share my time with the one who loves me a lot, cares for me so much, understands even my silence and bears my anger and naughtiness. I am sure Agni treats me as the most important person in his life forever, and I will be happy as his wife. I will convince my parents too and will reveal about my marriage and child. I will bear their anger for breaking their trust. I can't cheat them more. It's better to accept my fault frankly.

"Ok fine, tell me your decision."

"Not now, tomorrow I will meet you in the morning and will tell you my decision," I said blushing.

"Ok fine, I will wait to know your decision," he said in a choked tone.

I think he misunderstood my thinking. Anyways tomorrow morning, I will surprise him. I will help him in fast recovery and to find the truth who created this mess in our life. I love you and trust you, Agni.

"Bye, Goodnight Jwala."

"Good night," I said and disconnected the call.

Next day I got ready in a saree and went to the hotel. I reached the hotel. I kept nuptial chain on saree to be visible to him and vermilion on my forehead remembering his words. I am sure seeing my attire; he will understand my decision. I went to his room and knocked it, but he didn't open it. As I know the password to unlock his room door, I opened it and went inside.

I searched for him. He is not in the room. Where is he? I sat on bed expecting him to return. I found a few papers on the rack and took them. I found a letter with my name.

"Hi, Jwala!

I can guess your decision. Aadarsh is the right choice for you. After all, you deserve someone better than me. I support your decision. All the best.

Jwala, by the time you come to the hotel room, I will be in the hospital for surgery. Being Agni, I can't bear the answer No. If you say your decision of choosing Aadarsh directly to me, I may not control my anger. I didn't want to hurt you anymore. So, I am leaving.

I kept divorce papers signed and documents of my property too. I will take of our business, but you are the owner forever.

One more thing is I didn't send you to the hotel room that day. If I get a chance, I will prove it after recovery. However, I don't think it's necessary now.

I never saw love in my life. But I know to give love. I am not as bad as you think. If we ever meet in life again, I want to see the smile on your face and not tears. I love your tears for me, but I never said I LOVE YOUR SMILE MORE THAN ANYTHING IN THIS WORLD. Keep smiling.

Bye,

Agni."

Everything went blur before my eyes due to tears. Why did you do this Agni? Why can't you wait for me to say my decision? Why did you think that I will choose Aadarsh?