CHAPTER SIXTY ONE

Jwala :

Agni can't understand me. How can I leave my baby?. Baby needs her mother. Baby can't understand why her mom went away from her but will notice that her mom had no time for her. She won't be close to me in the future. She will miss the mother's love.

As he left me with no choice, I started writing a statement of purpose. I wrote my dreams of life and career along with the objective that made me choose that particular Business School.

Next day, he took me shopping to buy things which I need to stay in the US. I stopped talking to him to which he smiled and started pampering me slowly.

"So my wife is angry with me? But why? Is it for forcing her to fulfil her dream or for not compelling her to give up on her dreams and stay at home as an unpaid servant of her family?" He said making me sit on his lap.

I didn't answer him. I know he is different and not wrong. He is thinking about me, but I am thinking about my baby.

"Jwala, do you trust me?" He asked

"Yes"

"Then forget everything and get ready to leave to the US."

"Agni"

"I am sure Jwala, you won't regret it. Today you may misunderstand me for forcing you to leave to the US, but I am sure after two years you will thank me for this.

Emotions and feelings are common to every human. But to be a winner, you must have control towards those emotions and feelings. Please Jwala, I am not ordering you but requesting you. At any point in life, you shouldn't feel that this marriage or our baby spoiled your career. If that thought comes into your mind, we can't be happy. Sacrifice is necessary only when required, but now it's not needed.

You had breastfed her for six months. I consulted a doctor, and she said breastfeeding for six months is enough for the baby to be healthy. Every day we both will talk to you on Skype. Whenever I get some time, I will visit you along with the baby. For these two years, be hard with yourself. But, whenever you feel you are missing us so much, tell me once and as soon as possible I will visit you" he said convincing me.

"Ok, I will do as you said," I said looking at my baby.

"It's ok sweety; I will take care of the baby. You are not repeating your mistake. You are leaving the baby with her father, not with any caretaker."

"Will you take care of her? She will cry if she is hungry, she can't even say" I said looking at her with teary eyes.

"Yes, I will take care of her"

"You shouldn't scold her if she didn't sleep soon at night time. Put her to sleep slowly by singing a lullaby or telling any short story. Sometimes she wakes up in the mid of the night due to hunger. Feed her with milk or juice immediately or she will cry whole night" I said, and he hugged me.

"Please don't cry, baby. It's ok. I will take care of our baby. Try to be strong."

"Ok but you have food on time. Don't neglect your diet focusing on business."

"Sure baby. I will take care of myself and baby too. You relax and focus on yourself and your studies. I love you" he said.

"Come on, now change your mood. Let's spend some time together with our baby these few days" he said, and I nodded.

After a few days, we went to the US. I attended the interview. I got the seat as Agni said. He took a flat for me there where neighbours are Indians, and especially where he had a friend there. He introduced me to his friend's family. His friend's wife became a good friend to me. He stayed there for a month until he felt that I got adjusted a little bit. Finally, the day came where he has to leave me.

"Be strong. Call me whenever you feel weak. Never trust anyone. Act as if you trust the people but don't trust them unless you feel they are true. Don't fall into problems because I can't come immediately to save you. Remember that I love you."

"I love you too. Please take care of yourself and our baby" I said kissing them both.

"Don't come to the airport. I can't leave if you cry. Bye, and take care."

"Bye, ok."

I didn't go to the airport, and Agni left with the baby. I cried a lot, and slowly I made myself busy with studies. After two days, I called Agni, but he didn't receive my call. I went to college and called him again after returning from college. But he didn't receive my call. I messaged him, but he didn't reply me. I called Vedika.

"Hello"

"Vedika didi, I am Jwala, is Agni fine?"

"Yes, he is fine. Why are you so panic? Didn't you talk to him?"

"Can you please connect the call to him?"

"Ya sure," she said.

"Agni, Jwala is on call. She wants to talk to you" I heard Vedika speaking.

"Tell her I am busy," I heard his words which brought tears to me.

"But why? I mean she wants to talk to you," Vedika said.

"Hello Jwala, what you want to speak to me? Aren't you busy with your studies? Did you go there to call me? Look, though you have time to waste, I am busy with my works. Stop calling me unless I call you" he said and disconnected the call.

I sat on the floor crying. Why is Agni angry with me? Why did he change all of a sudden? What did I do? He told me that I could call him anytime. I can never understand him. If I hate, he won't leave me until I love him. Now when I am in love with him and accepted the baby, he is back to his self.

I wiped my tears and called Vedika.

"Jwala, I think he is in tension, he will call you."

"It's ok. Keep it in speaker. I want to talk to him"

"Ok"

"I kept it in speaker."

"Mr Agni, If you are too busy to talk to me, then I am also too busy to talk to you. I won't call you and let me see how long you will stay without talking to me. Bye," I disconnected the call.

I didn't know his reason for avoiding me. But for two months, I got no calls from him. I didn't call him too. But, every day I talked to Vedika and baby through Skype.