CHAPTER 42

OLIVIA'S POV
The next day came by in a blur and I did not do a lot of things with Julian as he was particularly active in pack duties.
When it was nighttime, my mind was doing that thing it usually did, rethinking my entire existence and formulating ideas of the things that I could have done better. In honesty, there were a few things that I could have done better, or maybe it was my mind playing tricks on me. I had quite an understanding mate and all but I could spot all of my flaws and I didn't want him to recognize that about me.
I wanted our relationship to work out but I feared my past would get between us.
"Olivia, just sleep," I told myself as I wrapped the duvet closely around my body.
"It's alright," I told myself.
My ears perked up when I heard a sound but I ignored it and went back to sleep but not until I heard the door to my room slam.
I gasped and was about to sit up when I felt something softly push me back into the bed and I did not hesitate because of the soothing presence it brought me.
A hand snaked around my neck before moving me towards him. I smiled as I was greeted with a mischievous grin plastered on Julian's face.
"Hello to you too,"
He smiled, "I was busy today and couldn't see you, I apologize."
I immediately shook my head, "It's fine-"
"-No, it isn't. I didn't even say good morning."
I looked at Julian's passionate face and sighed. "How would you like to make it up to me then?"
"Well.." Julian moved towards me and caressed my right cheek.
"I'll buy you something fancy!"
"Sure.." I gave him a look and he bit his lip before smiling at me.
"It's true." He scooted further close to me, "I.. already bought a dress?"
I blinked, "Why?"
"Well. I want you to attend a gathering with me."
My heart immediately thumped in my chest at the idea.
"Where's the gathering?"
"Night lantern pack is hosting the party, every reputable werewolf is invited."
I didn't know what to do with the information he just told me. It made my heart race and Julian picked up on it right away.
"What's wrong?" He asked.
I sat up on the bed and Julian sat up as well.
"I was Leo's woman." I looked at Julian and muttered in a low tone, "People will talk."
He grasped my fingers and interlaced our fingers. "Today, I want to ask for permission to mark you."
My mouth parted open at his words.
"What?"
I looked into his intense gaze. He wasn't joking.
"I want everyone to know you're mine but most importantly, I want to feel you. Even though we're somewhat close now, I still feel.. that you're not fully transparent with me."
A sigh escaped from my lips.
This was the time to tell him.. everything.
I truly wanted to be open to him.
I grabbed his hand and the fingers of his palm and squeezed them tightly.
"If I show you all my secrets, would you still be willing to stay with me?"
Julian grasped my fingers and exhaled as our eyes met. "Olivia, is that even a question?"
My heart pounded in my chest as he leaned into my face.
"I can carry all the weight of your burdens but if you don't want to give me all of them, we can share."
I cracked a smile at him. He was right.
I trusted him and with the times we spent together, I wanted to marry him. I wanted us to be fully connected without anything getting between us.
It was all on me to make a move.
I stood from the bed and Julian looked at me in surprise as I unfastened the rope keeping my satin nightdress together.
"Olivia," he looked surprised.
"Y-you don't have.."
I dropped the robe and he looked at me in awe before nervously swallowing the lump in his throat.
In his presence, I was bare. He was looking at me with so much wonder and I could only imagine the look of disgust in his eyes after he saw my back.
"Julian.." I whispered as I stared into his gorgeous eyes.
I turned, so my back was facing him.
When my Alpha had seen the scar on my back, he screamed and I was expecting the same reaction from Julian.
However, with the warm embrace on my back with protective arms wrapped around my waist, what I was expecting from Julian didn't occur.
Instead, he was embracing me, embracing my scars and this brought tears to my eyes.
"Thank you for holding out until I found you."
His hold on my body was firm and it made me safe and protected.
"From now on, I'll protect you." He whispered against my ear, "I'll never let anyone hurt you."
As much as I wanted to believe that, my mind was fighting me about it but I didn't bother to fight the notion, I needed Julian, I wanted him to take care of me. To take care of everything.
"Who did it?" He whispered against my neck and I shuddered, leaning into his touch as he trailed soft kisses from my neck to my back.
"Is it Leo?" Julian's lips stopped on my back.
"Make love to me, Julian." I pleaded, "I'll tell you everything tomorrow, so please, be patient with me."
My heart raced as Julian's teeth grazed the back of my neck.
"Fine." He broke away from the kiss and led me towards the bed.
I shivered as my back hit the bed.
"Does it hurt?" Julian asked.
I shook my head and shuddered as he spread my legs open.
I held my breath while he neared my heat...
This was my first time-
"Hmm," Julian hummed into my pussy as he swiped his tongue against my clitoris.
My breath hitched in my throat and I nearly choked from not breathing in enough oxygen.
It was as though I was losing my brain cells...
Julian blew softly on my pussy before giving it a long lick.
My heart thudded in my chest as I tried to keep still.
I gently took in deep breaths.
Until. I felt his teeth graze a sensitive spot.
"Oh," The moan spilled out of my mouth before I could stop it and it made me feel a bit awkward.
"Okay," Julian's deep voice vibrated against my pussy as he gave it a huge lick. "I want you to scream my name so that everyone knows I'm fucking you."
"Julian?"
I was surprised by how deep his voice had become or was his wolf in control?
I felt two fingers enter me accompanied by a long tongue sapping my cunt.
A cry escaped my lips and it soon turned into gibberish, accompanied by moans.
I was no longer thinking.
I wrapped my hands around Julian's face while pushing his face closer to my cunt while he ate me out.
"Oh! Oh! Ohhh!" I moaned breathlessly as his mouth and fingers went to work exploring the parts of myself I deemed forbidden.
I couldn't think.
Not with his face between my thighs.
The scenery was heavenly, his tongue in my core, sapping all the liquids my cunt had to offer.
"Hmm," I cried as his fingers became more aggressive as they played in my cunt. I was desperately trying to keep cool but...
A single tear rolled down my cheek as I looked in between my legs where Julian made me orgasm plenty of times.
I didn't want it to end...
After cumming in his mouth for the fourth time, Julian looked at me from between my thighs and smiled at me.
"You taste delicious, like heaven."
I just stared at him, not fully sane yet.
Julian ripped his shirt off his body along with his trousers and briefs.
I swallowed as I watched him strip, revealing his evenly muscular and toned body. His legs looked strong and the huge wonder between his legs scared the shits out of me.
Could I take it?
Julian laid on my bare body and planted a kiss on my lips. I kissed him passionately and I could taste myself in his mouth.
When we broke away from the kiss, we were looking at each other while Julian fisted his well erect cock which had precum leaking out.
I was breathing heavily while staring at him with parted lips.
"I'll be gentle..." He whispered and brushed his lips against mine causing me to close my eyes.
A sigh escaped from my lips as I felt him at the opening of my entrance.
"Oh," a cry escaped my lips as he got in halfway. It felt painful but the tingling sensation I was beginning to feel made me feel fascinated. However, sharp pain at the bottom of my stomach shut me up.
Julian was fully inside me and he was big. Too big.
"Does it hurt?" I looked up into Julian's comforting gaze and shook my head even though it did.
He entwined our fingers and whispered against my neck, "Trust me,"
Shivers shot up on my skin and I felt him move inside of me. He moved away from my neck and looked into my eyes.
It was a bit uncomfortable. Looking into the eyes of someone, bare naked.
But...
"Look at me." He started to move on top of me and I started to feel a tiny dose of pleasure shot into my skin.
I looked into Julian's warm gaze as he softly made me get adjusted to his soft deep strokes.
I originally thought that was how he would keep fucking me but once he saw that I got too comfortable, his thrusts became fast and deep which made me feel higher waves of pleasure.
My mouth parted open as I looked into Julian's eyes.
He groaned in response as his pace became fierce.
"Ugh.." I moaned as I felt him hit a spot I didn't know existed in my body.
It felt good.
No, it was heaven.
"Yes, Julian.." I whispered as his thrusts because consistent.
It was fucking bliss.
"Mmhm.." I bit my lip as my hips unconsciously started to move along with his thrusts.
Something within me was building up and it made me uncomfortable.
I didn't know the details but I wanted to cum.
No, I needed to.
Julian's pounding was becoming heavier and the urge to cum was becoming thorough.
"Julian," I lifted my legs so he had more access. "Please fuck me!"
I knew he was still being gentle with me.
And if I was going to cum, I needed some rough pounding. I was no more a virgin, after all, I was sure I could take it.
Julian flashed me a smile, "Is that what you want?"
He captured my mouth into a kiss and stopped pounding into me. He just let his lips explore my mouth while his cock remain erect inside of me.
I moaned into the kiss while enjoying the feeling of my private space being invaded by my soulmate.
Our fingers were still entangled and neither of us wanted to change our positions right away as our bodies felt right together and they meshed so perfectly together. If I could have a picture of the beautiful scenery, I would frame it and leave it in my room in order not to forget about it.
For the first time in my life, I felt whole with Julian inside of me.
"Olivia,"
I opened my eyes and met his hypnotizing stare.
"I'll now.. mark you."
I nodded, permitting him.
He smiled at me and moved closer to my neck.
He licked the spot near my collarbone and my heart raced. That would hurt, right?
A growl escaped from the depths of Julian's throat and what I felt next was a prickling pain that was bound to kill me- Or at least, that was what it felt like.
Julian licked the spot he'd bitten but it did nothing. I pushed him off of me and he quickly removed his cock from my pussy.
I tossed it to the side and touched the area where my mark was. It was painful as hell.
"I'm sorry." I heard a familiar voice in my head. I could've sworn it was Julian.
"It is me." Came to his response.
All this time, he was looking at me but not saying those words out loud.
My heart thumped as the realization set in. Did we form a mental link?