CHAPTER 62

JULIAN'S POV
"Olivia," I said and moved swiftly towards her. I grabbed her wrist and looked into her eyes which held confusion.
I was enraged.
That wasn't how she looked at me when I kissed her, that wasn't how she looked at me when we fucked!
Why was she so distant from me now?
Why couldn't she tell that I was her mate and not Vanessa? Why couldn't she feel me?!
"Olivia," I repeated and grabbed the small of her waist to pull her closer to me.
Shivers ran down my spine and I cursed under my breath. I looked into her eyes which held feelings of surprise.
"You also felt that didn't you?"
She looked at me without responding.
"You have my mark near your collar bone, Olivia. I know your body well."
Olivia's eyes widened and she struggled to back away from me but I wasn't letting her go. Never.
Not after what I went through before finding her.
"No," she averted her gaze from me and struggled from my grip, "Vanessa is my mate."
I scoffed, "Then explain this!"
I held the sides of her face and caught her lips in a kiss.
She groaned into the kiss and I knew she felt exactly what I was feeling.
Her mouth parted into the kiss and I took control, exploring her mouth with my tongue.
It was all good but then... Olivia broke away from the kiss and looked at me coldly which sent shivers down my spine.
"Olivia..."
Olivia shook her head at me, "No."
My heart slammed rigidly against my ribcage. "What do you mean?" I was fighting the urge to break into tears.
"Sorry," She shook her head, "We can't be together."
A growl escaped from my throat and I looked at Vanessa who was sitting on the ground, shaking due to my superior aura. As her Alpha, it was only right she was affected.
"You!!" Vanessa's head snapped towards me and my wolf gloated at the look of dread in her eyes. However, it was not enough to console me. She had done something to my mate.
Why else was she acting like this?
I was going to kill Vanessa for this. Nothing could make me feel better than seeing her blood splatter on the ground. How dared she!
My claws grew from my hand and my wolf took over. I walked towards a sobbing Vanessa and Olivia stood in front of her, protecting her.
It wounded my core. Just what the hell was she doing?!
"OLIVIA," My wolf growled. "WHY ARE YOU PROTECTING THAT BETRAYER"
Olivia gave me a dark look, "SHE'S MINE!" She said and I heard her wolf's silent growl.
I froze. "What?"
"NO ONE TOUCHES HER BUT ME!"
I felt my heart rip into a thousand pieces. Was this Olivia?
How could she choose Vanessa over me? It made no sense.
My wolf let out a painful growl, "WHY?" I bitterly asked.
Did she know how much hurt I went through just to see her but I got this instead? My laugh mixed with my thought and I felt my wolf taking control. The rational part of me was gone. I was going to destroy anyone who got between me and my mate.
A ferocious growl escaped my throat and I sped past Olivia to attack Vanessa. All of a sudden, I felt a firm hold on my shoulder and before I knew what was going on, I was on the ground howling in pain.
My rational side kicked in and I looked at Olivia who was still standing in front of Vanessa. It came as a surprise to me how she could easily defeat me.
Was her wolf now active?
I called out to her wolf but she seemed cold and distant. It was like I never knew her and it broke me.
"Why?" I whispered.
"I SAID SHE'S MINE!" Olivia yelled, "NO ONE TOUCHES HER!"
Just like before in my pack, she stood up to me because of Vanessa. She doubted me and my ethics for Vanessa even though I was her mate.
How could she do this to me?
What about the words she told me before about love and happiness? Were they all a lie?
They had to be. If not, she wouldn't adamantly take Olivia's side.
I racked my brain for memories of me offending her and there were a few.
I had kidnapped her from Leo yet I was too busy with my pack to spend enough time with her. She was kidnapped by Leo and I couldn't save her.
She probably went through a terrible ordeal and only Vanessa was there for her through it all.
But didn't I suffer enough?
I ignored my people to look for her. During the journey of looking at her, I encountered rogues and sustained injuries but I kept going just for her.
I did not like to be vulnerable but there were scars on my back that I got from fighting off a pack of heartless rogues.
I wanted to show Olivia the scars so she felt better about her own. But that wasn't going to happen now because of Vanessa.
Another painful growl escaped my throat.
It was my fault.
I did not love her well enough. I did not protect her well enough. I gave her so little yet I expected so much, it was wrong of me.
However, I couldn't let Vanessa have her either. Maybe If I got rid of Vanessa, Olivia and I would still have a chance.
I would make it up to her.
I would take her around the world and do whatever she wanted me to do. As long as she stood by my side, I would do anything for her. Anything!
A painful tear rolled down my cheek as I tried to call Olivia's wolf but she did not respond. She had grown too cold towards me.
I stood on my feet and looked at Olivia's face which was devoid of emotions as she stared me.
Vanessa was standing behind her, her eyes fluctuating between me and the ground.
That bitch.
She knew what she did!
It was a part of her plan, after all, to drive a wedge between me and Olivia.
I should've paid more attention to the reason why she got bullied. Maybe her character wasn't the best either and her mates picked up on it.
I knew I was supposed to be fair in my judgment but when it came to a wrench like Vanessa, I couldn't. Not after what she'd done to me. I was going to snap her neck off and my wolf agreed with me.
I raced towards Vanessa once more. Just when Olivia tried to stop me, I skidded past her and wrapped my hands around Vanessa's neck.
"No," I heard Olivia murmur under her breath but I was not nearly done yet.
I slammed Vanessa to the ground with my hands still tightly wrapped around her neck. She let out a desperate gasp with wide eyes and that only motivated me to see her suffer more.
I sneered at her as tears leaked from her eyes, those ugly disgusting tears were what Olivia fell for which led to the distance between us. I wasn't going to fall for it.
I heard a growl behind me and before I could turn around, I felt a painful punch on my back- Right on my scar.
I stiffened up as the pain rang through my entire body. My hold around Vanessa's neck loosened and my back felt like it was on fire.
This reminded me of the way my flesh had been torn apart by those wolves who didn't care for anything more than to batter me and now, the wound probably opened again, by Olivia's hands.
A sob escaped my mouth but not out of my bleeding back.
Olivia forcefully dragged me to my feet and pushed me away from Vanessa. My back hit the ground and I let the tears fall. This was what I got for leaving her while she suffered alone. If only I had gotten to her before Vanessa, this would not have happened.
"You," Olivia directed towards me, "What are they doing?!"
My heart raced and the pain in my back got worse.
I struggled to stand up. At this point, I did not know what to do. I was desperate but I knew taking desperate measures would only hurt me.
Olivia could hurt me.
But if I laid a finger on her, I would never forgive myself. I would prefer to hang myself and just die.
One more thing, hurting her would only inflict injury on me because we were bonded to each other.
"Sir," Olivia said to me. I stood on my feet and could barely carry my back upright due to my back injury.
"Even though Vanessa deceived me, it's none of your business. From now on, you should not bother me or her."
"What about me?"
I looked at her and her features softened.
"What about me? Your mate?" My voice broke at the end and I hated when it did but I knew better than to pretend to be what I was not.
"I... I traveled for weeks to find you and when I did, you, hurt me."
Olivia swallowed, "Your effort to find me does not matter, sir. Regardless of the past, we both shared, it's over now so get over it. If you lay even a finger on Vanessa, I'll kill you."
I nodded painfully, "Olivia, are you sure? You don't even remember how much time we spent together and how much I mean to you."
She scoffed, "You seriously need to get over your egoistic thinking patterns."
I saw fire in her eyes.
Something I never recognized about my Olivia in the first place.
"Whatever we had in the past is weak compared to what I and Vanessa have. If you were truly my mate, how come I feel absolutely nothing for you but disgust?"
My chest tightened.
Her words were suffocating me and they made me feel unable to breathe.
"You better leave now before I take your life."
I laughed.
To think that I left her even though Jane was missing. I even left my people to look for her.
Judging by the current scenario, I knew Vanessa had something to do with Jane being missing.
She probably exchanged Jane for Olivia.
I laughed out loud. Even if I told Olivia this, she wouldn't care. She didn't even remember who I was for Christ's sake.
A cursed relationship like this was a bond to end somehow.
I had taken her from Leo after all.
Anything and anyone related to Leo always ended badly.
"Are you sure, Olivia? Once I leave, you'll never see me again."
"Even if you died, I wouldn't care."
"Alright!" I yelled and turned to leave.
My heart was breaking but I didn't let it get to me.
"Even if you died, I wouldn't care."
Her voice echoed over and over in my head but I toughed up.
Fine then.
Tears rolled down my cheeks and the skies darkened as I went out of sight of the cabin.
This was it.
If my mate did not want me, what was the use in living?
I was a fucking Alpha for goodness sake but the tears wouldn't stop rolling down my cheeks. It was fucking embarrassing.
My heart thumped in my chest.
Even though I felt miserable right now, I had to toughen up.
Jane was missing-
No, she was with Leo so she was probably safe for now but I would do everything it took to get her back and my pack...
I had to make sure they were doing well... It was tough on Holden and Niamh, they couldn't possibly handle everyone alone.
My end was nearing and I could see it.
Facing Leo again was going to be the death of me.
I didn't forget that I had stolen his Luna from me, he was going to take his anger out on me, and in honesty, I didn't know if I could survive it.
I laughed again, Olivia's wish was going to be fulfilled.
I would die.
I strode into the woods and hesitated, then turned around to look at the cabin in the woods.
She wasn't coming.
She meant what she said.
Maybe this was for a greater cause. Maybe not.