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Serena"
I awoke with excruciating shoulder discomfort. Each movement causes me to wince in pain.
"ouch"
I cautiously opened my eyes and looked about to ascertain my location. I became aware that I had returned to my room. My right shoulder was examined. I noticed that there was a wound that was just about to heal.
I get from my bed and proceed directly to my bathroom. I remove my royal blue gown as I recollect my thoughts on what happened to me.
However, when the door burst open, my eyes widened as I turned to see Killian standing there, his troubled and slightly fearful golden eyes staring at me.
I examine myself and notice that my cheeks had cooled as I realize I was only wearing my undergarments. I immediately panicked. I attained whatever I could.
"yah!" I screamed and hurled the soap at him, which landed on his forehead. "serve him" Killian slammed the door shut in dread, and I could tell by the look on his face that I had ticked him off yet again. It's seen in his sculpted jaw.
I should be the one who is enraged, correct? I pacify my tensions in order to avoid following my foolish guard and kicking his ball for being stupid enough to open my bathroom.
My body was wet in my bathtub. It was brimming with roses of various hues, and the scent instantly relaxes me and helps me forget about everything else.
Wait? What occurred this time? Killian dashed through me as the crossbow was going to land on me, and I noticed how scared his golden eyes were once more.
I sigh... that is why I am constantly looked at as clumsy in front of him. Even though it does not fit a strong-willed and bitchy girl like me. I desired to see his worried face, as I had the first time I saw him. However, I believe that following that incident, there was something different in his worried face, as I had missed the glistening through his gorgeous eyes. Wait? Why am I revisiting that day? As far as I recall, I had already buried that awful day of my life. Not because of Killian's cruel remarks, but because my parents have been more strict and restrictive with my independence since that day. That was the only thing I desired in the world.
And to add to my idiocy, I'm obsessed with the numbest guy in the entire underworld, or I'm sure if there were any living creatures above this planet, he'd get the award for most cold-blooded guy as well. That is why my infatuation with him gradually waned and he became my most despised person ever.
I finished my bath and grabbed the towel, which I used to scrub my damp hair. While I was doing so, I strolled outside my room and unwrapped my body. Because I need to apply lotion to my body. Yet I forgot about my damn guard, who may still be inside my room, because I had grown accustomed to him being outside and no one entering without my consent.
Once again, I was taken aback when I noticed the man sitting on my bed, staring at me as if he had seen a ghost. I threw down the towel I'd been using to dry my hair and shouted once more.
"waaaaaaa!"
"Calm down, quit shouting; your eardrum will be injured if you continue. Furthermore, no one could hear you due to the absence of the other guard." "And let me remind you that your room was on the top of the castle" Killian said as he pointed to the door.
Killian stated boredly, grinning. He then reversed his position.
"How did you get here! "Escape from my abominable room!" Due to my irritation, I scream at the top of my lungs.
Can you imagine how awkward and frustrated I am... argh, I would gladly kick him out of my life if I could.
"Can you at least cover your ugly body first?"
My eyes grew wide with disbelief. Did he say my unattractive body? Was he aware of my admirers at school? Of course, they have no idea who I am.
I clench my hand in frustration, yet I am powerless to act. I grabbed up the towel on the floor and walked into my closet, slamming the door shut. I instantly went in search of something to wear and ensured that it was stunning in order to demonstrate to the blind man outside my wardrobe that he was completely wrong when he used that vile slur.
I chose a basic but lovely pink dress and step out of the wardrobe. However, upon seeing his angered countenance, I shouted once more.
"How dare you enter my room without my permission, dimwit!" With a furious expression on my face, I stated.
"To begin, I do not require your permission because your parents have granted it to me. I would now be inside your room, guarding you. That was the order of the alpha, which is your father. Two, why are you so enraged, as if I'm after your body? To be honest, I'm not sure I'd want a girl like you in a million ways. And three, your parents informed me that if you awaken, they will inform you that a guest has arrived and you must prepare."
I want to retaliate by informing him that this is my room and that I was the only one who had permission to bring whomever I want here. However, when he stated the second reason, I felt as if I swallowed my tongue. My feet dragged me back into the confines of my closet...
I had the sensation that I was seven years old again, and his remarks were like a sharp dagger slicing into my heart. "a girl like me..." Why was I experiencing this sensation once more? As if I haven't become accustomed to his vexing words? Why am I listening to him at all? I am aware of my worth!
"Hey, are you going to change again?"
Killian knocked on the door of my closet and inquired as to if he had not spoken any more horrible things to me.
Insensitive... I close my eyes and attempt to maintain a normal tone of voice.
"Yes, if there was a guest, I guess I need to be more presentable."
That was all I could say as I swallowed the throat ache.
****
I was seated alongside my mother, with my father in the center. We were in the dining hall, sharing dinner with the family of the Beta, our pack's second command. However, they were not present because they were discussing another battle. Rather than that, because my father requested his Beta's son to marry me... Is there anything else that could possibly worsen my already terrible day?
I was only listening to what they were saying since I believe I had depleted my power from the events of the day and, most importantly, the words of Killian kept replaying in my thoughts... Is it possible for me to defy this time?