Trying to understand

Adrian's POV
I never knew that things would turn out the way they did, I felt my heart beating so fast when I kissed her lips.
I must admit, her lips taste so sweet, they make me want her, I craved every inch of her body and I felt hardened down there.
I ask myself, why I can't control myself, no matter how hard I try to do so, and why I can't continue hating her long. I recalled when I saw the longing in her eyes, I knew that she was telling me the truth, I wanted to ask her something after the scorching kiss, but then I heard a loud knock on the door. Immediately my fist was tightly clenched, I swore I was going to kill anyone who was knocking at the door at the moment.
I felt insecure, my heart was pounding so fast when I managed to break the kiss, and the look on her face was something I can't forget.
I tried so hard to ignore the feeling, but deep within me, I'm so fucking horny, I wanted to have her right there and then and I won't have any regrets about it.
" My lord...my lord" the person banged the door even louder, making me feel even more pissed than I already was.
" I'm coming," I said, then I turned to look at her, she was smiling broadly and that's the cutest smile I have ever witnessed in my life before I could leave, I grabbed her butt and brought her closer to me, then I kissed her lips like a starved dragon before forcing myself to let go. when I did let go, I noticed that her face had turned red like a tomato and her eyes were slightly closed, which meant that she wanted more. She's just the most beautiful woman I have ever seen. I am so lucky to have her in my life.
' You don't have her yet in your life ' I heard the voice of my dragon, the dragon that has not uttered a word for months, sometimes I wondered if my agon was still there.
So I just smiled and left, but before I could leave, she hugged me from behind and whispered, "Thank you for forgiving me" She said gently as she slowly let go of me.
Her words kept repeating themselves in my head. I have truly forgiven her, and I clenched my fist so tightly when I recalled the way Zakuski dared to touch her.
' what's mine ' my dragon continued.
' what's yours? ' I asked my dragon.
' yes, Garcia belongs to us and no one can date lay their finger on something that belongs only to us and no one has the right to touch her, talk more of...' he growled, just from the thought of that moron kissing her.
' I'm going to kill him ' my dragon growled, which made me plaster a smile on my face, I couldn't help feeling like I had missed my dragon.
He should have been here when I needed him the most, I drew in a deep breath, while trying to calm my nerves, before I walked into the room, I felt my heart beat slightly faster than normal, which meant that something bad was about to happen.
When I walked into the guest room, I took a whiff of the environment, as my eyes scanned the window that was by the right of where I was standing, it was heavily enclosed with broad blue curtains. An intricately designed table was placed at the center of the room, with some chairs around the table. There was not much furniture in the room apart from the small carpet that was placed under the chairs and the table. But then I couldn't avoid looking at the young man who was standing there, his face that I can never forget and his eyes that hunt me every night, his mischievous smile that managed to give me goosebumps whenever I set my eyes on him and he is no one else but Achar, the one man his face never seized to hunt me down.
I desperately wanted to act composed at the moment, but when I looked into his eyes, my body trembled.
" Have a sit, then you just stand there and stats are if you have never seen me before" he said. He was right I need to act composed and get a hang of myself.
So I managed to walk gracefully and sat down on one of the intricate chairs. I couldn't help noticing the mischievous smile on his face, I was looking at him for a moment, my heart was beating so fast, while my actions were composed, but holy crap, I'm so fucking scared right now. I know whenever he's here he doesn't have good news for me.
" Why are you here?" I asked, trying to sound composed. But deep down, I'm sweating.
He laughed darkly, before he leaned closer to me, "You know why I'm here, I don't need to tell you why I am here" he said as he leaned back on the chair.
" I have told you..."
"Don't you dare give me excuses, I know your mate is here, now is time you hand her over to me or the consequences won't be good."
" She is not here" I replied indignantly, I'm not letting go of Garcia no matter what, I'll try my best to protect her at all costs, and I'll always be there for her.
" I can smell her on you" he replied.
I fought the urge to gulp so hard, but I'm so scared right now and I can't hide it anymore, I'm trying so hard to act composed, but deep within me, I'm so fucking scared, I felt the need to say something, but I can't, I can't help wonder why things have the happen the way they were.
" I told you that I haven't found my mate yet" I yelled, and this time I was serious, I didn't care what he was going to think of me. I know what this man is capable of, I cringed when I recalled those horrible days of torture, yet my father was there, he couldn't utter a word, how could I forget that he was the one who had instructed this man to do whatever torture he had intended, just looking at this man, I hate my father even more than ever right now.
I felt the need to say something or do something at least, but I just ended looking at him without saying a word.
Then he stood up, and he was about to leave, I didn't know when I had managed to release a sigh of relief, but before he could leave, he managed to come closer to me and whispered in my ears.
" I know you don't want to tell me where she is, I'm trying to be gentle, but you know very well, it won't take me much to know where I'll find her and when I do, know what would happen to her, she would be a meal for the punishers," he said while still maintaining a composed look and he never wavered even for a moment.
I gulped so hard while trying to calm my nerves, my heart was beating so fast, tears burned my eyes. I can't help but feel so insecure.
I drew in a deep breath while hoping that things would go well. When he left, I managed to succumb to the chair.Things were not just working the way I wanted them to, andI knew I have to protect Garcia no matter what happens.