Guilt

Garcia's POV
I felt so disgusted with myself as I immediately pushed Zakuski away. I stood still while staring at Adrian, his eyes red with rage; I could see that his fist was tightly clenched. I don't know why I couldn't say no, why my wolf wanted him; I'm so confused right now.
Zakuski turned to look at Adrian; a mischievous smile could be seen on his face. He pulled up his pants as he walked up to him.
"I told you, Garcia is mine, and soon I'll be taking her away from you; it's just a matter of time." When he said that, he disappeared into thin air. I stood still by the shower. I couldn't lift up my gaze to look at Adrian because I was so disappointed in myself; I felt so guilty to even utter a word.
Adrian then turned to leave without saying a word. I stretched out my hand to stop him, but I knew it would only make the situation even worse, so I decided to remain silent. I felt so bad as he left. I was now alone, looking defeated, so I decided to take a shower by immersing myself in the hot water. I closed my eyes, feeling an unknown ache I had never felt before. I don't know why I care, but hell, the thought of Adrian doing anything irrational would leave me with nothing but guilt.
I scrubbed myself thoroughly while recalling the hands of Zakuski around me, making sure all the dirt was removed.
When I was done taking a shower, I decided to stroll around the garden, making sure I would be able to clear off my thoughts, then my aunts landed on Yvonne, who's Adrian's aunt. I noticed she was reading a book. When she sensed my presence, she lifted her gaze to look at me; a smile could be seen on her face as she urged me to come sit beside her.
I was hesitant, but I still went to sit on the wooden bench beside her.
"What is wrong? Is it about Adrian?" She asked, her voice laced with concern, "I don't know how to tell her what I did," so I just nodded.
"Or is it the fact you couldn't resist the kingdom's enemy?" Her question struck hard; I lifted up my gaze to look at her. I can't help but wonder how she knew.
"Don't be surprised, my daughter; I was once in your situation, being in a dilemma about why you want both men, why you find it difficult to choose, and why you wish for more."
I thought for a while, and I realized that I want both of them, even though it is not possible. I don't know how to choose, but I wish I could.
She patted my shoulder, leaned beside my ear, and whispered in a gentle and hushed tone, "Adrian had once lost his mother; it affected not just his sanity, but it also made his dragon a beast, untamable. So I am requesting this from you; please make the right decision, because not only would the kingdom be at stake, but your life would be at stake."
She pulled back as I resumed reading her book. I was frozen in place, not knowing what else to say. I forced a smile on my face before I excused myself and turned to leave.
"Garcia..." she called out.
I turned, "yes..."
"I believe you will make the right decision." When she said that, she disappeared into the thin air like she was never there. My mouth hung open upon the realization that she was a demon, because only demons can teleport.
I went back inside the room while still pondering on what she said, and that was when I heard the sound of dripping water in the bathroom. Immediately the thought of Zakuski seeped in, because he is the one who can teleport and come inside unannounced.
I stood by the door, my heart pounding. I don't want what happened earlier today to repeat itself, so I refuse to barge in.
"Zakuski, leave this place immediately. I don't want to ever set my eyes on you again. I have thought about everything, and I realized that you need to stop coming back to me. What we once shared was in the past, and I want it to remain that way. I don't want to ever set my eyes on you again." When I said that, it stung me so hard I couldn't explain the feeling, because it was like I was just lying to myself.
'I want him,' my wolf said within me.
'No, this is not right; it has never happened before in the wolf clan, and it won't start now,' I told my wolf.
'I don't care; I want him. I want them both.'
There was silence in the other room, but the water was still dripping. I had to control myself and told myself not to open the door.
'Fine, let me take charge.' My wolf interjected, and before I could say no, I felt myself being pulled out of my own will as I slid the door open.
My eyes and mouth were hung open as I stared at what lay ahead of me.