Aftermath incident

Adrian POV
I smashed my hand so roughly, feeling so agitated, my heart hurts just from the thought of anything happening to her, I can't seem to bare the thought, I was feeling so insecure as time goes on, I drew in a deep breath, and many thoughts ran through my mind, I was still thinking about her and how she had left looking so sad.
At this moment, I really hate myself, despite the fact I had sent Joshua to see how she was doing, I was still not secure, I can't seem to calm my nerves, and no matter how hard I try, I felt my heart churned, just from the mere thought of anything happening to her.
And I'll always be there for her, I'll never let anything happen to her. I let out a frustrated groan when I thought of Zakuski, I saw him as a serious threat to my mate, not just a threat, but also a competition, I recalled the way I saw him in a very vulnerable situation and it made me so enraged that I had to fly away.
And I knew that Zakuski must be thinking that she was just a maid not knowing she was my mate, I smashed the table again and again, I feel like killing and destroying something or anything in other to calm my nerves. Especially when I thought of Zakuski and what he's capable of and what he can do, I feel the urge to kill and destroy, I can't help feeling that things won't be the same again, if things should continue the way are, I felt so pissed, tears slowly streamed down my cheeks.
I cursed under my breath, trying my best to keep calm, my heart was beating rapidly fast the moment I thought of how I met her, and how she fell from the cliff, it was all because of me, I had pushed her too hard and I won't blame her if she decides to never return.
I clenched my fist tightly as I stared at the window as I allowed random thoughts to roam my mind, I was trying to ignore the feeling of dread what of something might have happened to her, or Zakuski might have seen her?
Just the thought itself was infuriating my dragon, it was making my dragon unstable and it wants her back no matter what.
My dragon brought me down to my knees, and I felt excruciating pain, I felt my bones crack and I knew that I was about to transform, I groan so loudly, I don't want anything to happen to her and I knew at this moment to if my dragon should take control, I won't no longer be myself, I was breathing so fast, I tried as much to ignore the feeling but deep within me, my heart was rather fast, I felt like things won't be the same again after she left.
My heart was pounding fast, my bones cracking, my brain felt like it was about to explode, a tear slowly trickled down my cheeks, I felt my body so weak, I can't seem to concentrate and my vision was getting blurry.
" Adrian... Adrian" I heard a familiar voice, I turned to see who it was, I was very surprised to see it was no one else but Garcia, her beautiful eyes staring at me, calling out to me.
" Garcia...is that you..." I asked, my voice croaked, unable to do anything again, I felt Like it was unreal, so I had to touch her face. I don't know why I eventually let out a sigh of relief, I can't help but feel like my part of me was no longer there.
When the realization dawned on me that she was and I was a Threat to her life, I started panicking.
" You need to leave, please leave Garcia, I don't want anything to happen to you, just leave Garcia" I tried to persuade her, but she only shook her head as she hugged me unexpectedly, which took me by surprise.
" You... you... you have to leave Garcia, I don't want anything to happen to you" I cried like a baby, which was something I have never done before. But when I thought that something bad might happen to her, especially when I thought of Zakuski, I found myself tightening my arms around her, feeling like in the next minute I won't see her again.
" I'll never leave you again Adrian, even if you tell me to," she said, her voice was hoarse, it brought that unknown emotion I have felt before.
All these years, I have always tried to be ruthless, brutal, and void of any emotions, because I don't want to have any weaknesses, but now Garcia she's here, she has managed to reach a spot in my heart that not even my mother could reach.
I clenched my fist tightly because, at this moment, I am more vulnerable especially when my enemies know of my weakness.
' she's mine ' I could hear the voice of the dragon so loud in my ears. I found myself sniffling her scent like a dog, I was expecting her to run or act like she was not comfortable with my actions, but rather she was surprised when she shift some strands of her hair as she bared her neck, it became visible to me, she slowly brought her neck close to my lips.
I was surprised by her actions, yet I couldn't utter a word, "Wh... what are you doing?" I stuttered.
"I don't know, it just... just inch, this... this spot inch" she stuttered as she slowly touch the spot.
" I want to feel something there, I don't know, but I just want to feel anything, just anything" she sounded hoarse. I was looking at the bared neck, a little astounded, my heart was so fast as I stared at her, then I felt my gums, they began to inch.
Before I say a word, my fangs slowly started elongating, I gasp in horror, no this can't be happening, I think there must be a misunderstanding, this is not even a full moon.
I told myself, then I looked up and I noticed it was already night, and the full moon was brightly shown outside the window.
I shook my head, " no!" I exclaimed as I pushed her aside.
" No is not right, you have to go"
" To where, I'm not leaving you, I'm not going anywhere no matter what you tell me" she was persistent, I clenched my fist, trying to calm my nerves, I hate to admit it, but I know she has a point.
I took a deep breath and I could Inhale her scent, I was shocked when I realized that she was in her fertile days.
These are getting more uncontrollable because my dragon wants her so badly knowing she was in her fertile days, I found myself wanting to have her at the moment, to rip her clothes and have her underneath me, but I had to take deeper breaths, while trying to keep my emotions at bay, not to allow anything happen and I know that my dragon will take full control if anything should happen.
" You have to leave Garcia, because ...be... b" I trailed as I ended with a deep groan, I could feel my bones crack again. Then Garcia rushed towards me as she wrapped her hands, she was not helping matters, I hate to admit, but at this moment I felt like things won't be the same again as time goes on.
" Leave.... leave, because I won't be able to control myself Garcia, and I don't want to hurt you" I begged, knowing fully well that my beast would be insatiable, the moment I start, my heart was very fast, I tried as much as possible to ignore the ill feeling that tries to overpower me.
" Tell me what's happening Adrian, because I don't understand what's happening here" she pleaded with me to tell her, but I refused to tell her, because I know it'll be of no use telling her, I can't help wonder why things were happening, of the gods have to give me a mate, they should have given me a dragon, yet they gave me a mere wolf.
I groaned, my heart was beating when she managed to stop still with a kiss, I couldn't move, I never expect her to make that bold move, she was determined to stay and I have to do something because I know the moment I start mine, I won't be able to stop, no matter how I wanted to.
But she surprised me more when she nibbled my lips as she gave it a sensual lick, " Garcia stop..." I tried stopping her, by holding her hand firmly, but then I noticed tears in her eyes.
" Don't you love me?" She asked.
Her question caught me off guard, I wanted to just blurt how much I care, but no words were brave enough to escape my lips
" Answer my Adrian, I said don't have to love me?"
I was hesitant, I couldn't answer at least not now.
"Answer me" she repeated.
" I do " I replied gently