Chapter 20

"GUYS, I have a new jowa." We all looked at what Joyce said. We're all here in the living room and currently watching netflix. It's Sunday so we're free to do this thing.
"And who is that unlucky man?" Joyce was stunned by what Chiza said.
"Ansama grabe!"
"Eh who is that ?!" Ani Rhea.
Joyce was able to stand up but she was scrolling on her phone and then she showed us the man dancing.
"Shoetangina! Please gaga! That's Ivanna!" I looked at Danica in surprise.
Who the hell is Ivanna ?!
And who the hell is this guy? The dancing that Joyce showed? Well, I admit he's good at dancing but I don't know him.
"Stupid Joyce, stop that shabu." Joy threw a pillow at Joyce.
"I don't even have the support of my contributions."
"Guys, who's that? And who's Ivanna?" At the same time, they turned around, shocked by my question.
Seriously?
Is that how I really don't care about the world and even what they say I don't know ?!
"Oh my gosh ?! You really don't know them?"
"What the fudge ?!"
"Ivanna, she's an actress and a vlogger with a big yoga?" I winced at what Joyce said.
"Ivanna Alawi girl!"
"Eh who is the guy you showed? Is that really your boyfriend?" Yes, I know I look like a fool when I ask, eh, why don't I really know them and then I don't like to use social media.
Almost all of them laughed at my question.
"Hello ?! Uso fb teh tas youtube! Gosh! DJ Loonyo! It's so good that he can dance pramis! Then his passion is always caught in what he does when he dances." Joyce was thrilled.
"Yeah! I ship him with Ivanna, they're so stuff really!" I looked at Nica.
I'm the only one who really knows nothing about them.
But I have no intention of finding out more.
We all stopped when suddenly a doorbell rang.
"Let me!" We were no longer able to appeal when Danica came out. We were all laughing when we noticed Nica had entered.
"Sha ..." We all looked at him. I bit my lip so hard, when I realized who was behind him.
"Son ..." I slowly stood up, and I felt my tears again.
I can't even catch my breath with the mixed emotions I'm feeling.
"We'll miss you, Sha ..." I tapped them one by one on the arm and climbed at the same time.
Am I really ready?
I didn't even realize that he was hugging me tightly.
"My child ..." Daddy cried as he hugged me, little by little I also felt the lifting of my hands to hug him back as well.
This time, I will keep my promise for Chaos ...
"How are you?" Daddy asked, sitting on the same sofa. The crying is still obvious on our faces.
"Y-you see, I a-am not ..."
I saw that he bowed to my answer.
He took a deep breath and looked in the other direction.
"I'm sorry for everything I've done, son. If you only knew how much your brother loves you -----"
"If you really love us, why did you leave?"
"Son ----"
"If you really love us, why did you choose your mistress over us?"
"Shaina, he's not just my mistress. And your mommy knows that."
"B-why so many years. N-you didn't even visit Sherina and aunt?"
"God knows how many times I tried to see you both, Shaina. But how many times your aunt stops me, she always keeps telling me that you're not ready to see me yet. And I respect her decision, but I can't help but I'll see you again, son. Father, I miss you too. "
I was surprised by what dad said.
Tita did that?
But why doesn't he even say why Daddy is coming? All I could think was that not once when Mommy's hill was over did Dad never visit us again.
Pero ....
"Every birthday, I've always been there. And your aunt knows that."
"B-but why didn't you show up? Why did you send it to aunt?"
"A-son I know I'm wrong, and that's my mistake I sent because that's what your aunt wants. Im sorry ...."
After that, we both fell silent. I simply wiped away my tears.
"I'm so hurt by the loss of your mommy." I looked at him, every time I looked at Daddy's face there was really a streak of sadness and pain in his eyes.
"That's when mommy knew we weren't for each other. I already accepted what she was doing to Claire, she tried to separate us a few times before but in the end she did it."
"No, Dad. If mommy had really managed to get you two separated, I hope we're still complete now."
"I didn't expect that to happen, son. I'm sorry, I'll regret it for the rest of my life if you only knew." Tears dripped from her eyes again.
I'm just forcing myself to listen to him now, but fuck! Every time I remember mommy I feel like I can't take it anymore.
"That day we fought, I caught up with him when he was with another man in a hotel. They are both naked." My eyes widened when I looked at Dad.
"W-what ?!"
"I married your mommy Shaina, even though I love someone else I agreed. She threatened me, she will kill Claire if I don't marry her. In the many years we have been together I have never cheated on your mommy, the woman I love has tolerated I also because of her wishes. When I left, Claire didn't accept me because she wasn't selfish, she thought of you and Sherina. "
"B-but why is your son the same age as Sherina? It means you're crazy non Dad."
"Eislinne's not my child. She's the daughter of Claire's husband, but she was always laid hands on."
H-never had a child?
"A-son, that's why I just thought of leaving your mommy because I think it's too much, what she's doing is no longer humane. I can't even remember myself, that I can't make my own decision. How many times, son, it's different. I see a man with him. But you just don't know, it's okay because of that as long as he takes care of you but he doesn't. "
Dad's right, he doesn't seem to consider children the same.
"I'm sorry, please let me make up for the many people I don't have with you and Sherina. Let me correct everything."
I don't know what to answer.
But this is my Chaos wish for me.
"I want to meet your new family, Dad." She didn't seem to believe what I said.
"If you only knew how much Claire wants to meet you. I want you two to meet our own child."
I immediately remembered the boy who was also with him that night in Alta Vista.
"His name's Edge, and he's six years old."
"C-can I hug you, D-dad?" I'm still hesitant to ask him.
"Of course!" He said happily and hugged me tightly.
"W-how were you in Chaos?" Dad asked. I bowed.
"It was all my fault, dad."
"Son, I'm sorry. But I just want you to know, he didn't plan our meeting non. I just forced him son, that if only you could talk and get close. But I'm glad he agreed. Son, I love you so much really that boy ... "
I seem weak at what Daddy said, all along I was wrong. I was so wrong, I t-thought it was his plan. Now I"ve proven that I"m not really the one for her.
He deserves someone better than me, the one he can fight for and love.
The woman is not afraid to shout that she is loved.
And most of all the woman is willing to trust him.
And I will never be that one.
Nashville was right, I was a coward.
I decided to go back to Alta Vista first, because that was the only place I could feel freedom. That's the only place I can feel the presence of Chaos.
It's been a month already, I miss him so much.
I was maneuvering my car on the way to Alta Vista when til my car went crazy.
Oh my Gosh! Pleaseeee don't be silly, I'm on a dark road right now and I think the store is far from here. Vehicles also rarely passed by.
"Damn!" I was shocked when my car and its engine stopped, and I hit the steering wheel.
I tried to start it a few times but still nothing so I went out to check ahead.
The case I don't know, so how do I do it ?!
I picked up my phone first to call my friends, but bad luck because there was no signal!
I just thought of staying out here and parking the passing cars to ask for help.
Damn! But no car! It's already 8 in the evening! That's why I felt scared, because I was just surrounded by trees. And it still looks like a forest.
"Pleaseee ... I hope someone passed by."
Why did I even think of leaving in the afternoon ?!
My eyes immediately lit up when I was hit by a car, I didn't think twice and blocked the middle of the road.
Hays take care! I just don"t want to stay here!
I just close my eyes because of its driving speed. But I was immediately startled when it braked hard, releasing my two hands raised as if stopping it.
"What the fuck are you -----" his voice ....
I immediately felt the speed of my heart beating.
He just looked at me angrily and seemed surprised to see me, he even cut off what he was going to say.
"S-shaina ..."
"Chaos ..."
Slowly he approached Saken. But I feel the distance for him.
"W-what are you doing here?"
"Ahm, I'm going to Alta Vista in case I'm damaged, aren't you?"
"We have a gig near in Alta Vista." He replied, he looked at my car.
"What the fuck were you doing earlier? What if I didn't see you? And what if I'm not the one here now?" His question is cold and hard now.
"I'm sorry ..." I heard her sigh.
"All right, come with me."
"H-not that ----"
"No more buts, get all your things from your car." He said with authority and accompanied me to my car, I could do nothing but take my bag and then we got in his car.


"I'll call my driver to fetch your car later, don't worry." He said when he started the car.
"Thank you." I have not received an answer from him.
My forehead wrinkled as if something was dripping until the drop grew as a sign of rain.
"It's raining ..."
He turned on the radio and played the 'passenger seat' correctly. But he moved it to the news.
He used to sing along with that song.
It was raining so hard, and I could feel the cold in his car. He seemed to feel me getting cold so he turned down the aircon.
"For the time being, we compatriots should not go out and travel because of the intensity of the rain brought by Typhoon Tonyo."
I was nervous, I looked at him.
"Guess we can't reach our destination, it's dangerous. And we might be overtaken by severe flooding on the road we're on later." He said.
"W-how's that?"
"We have to stop in nearby hotel or whatever here." I just nodded at what he said.
Then I realized that we had stopped at a small hotel.
He put on his mask and cap and left.
"Let's go." I no longer expected him to open the door for me but when I opened the aken he preceded me and carried the umbrella.
"T-thank you ...." He didn't answer, I think he heard. He was carrying a back pack on one shoulder.
It was raining so hard that it was inevitable that we would both get wet.
When we got inside, we both went to the front desk.
"Two rooms please."
I even saw the woman's forehead wrinkle but I didn't hesitate.
"I'm sorry sir, but we only have one room."
"But ---" he would have appealed when I answered.
"It's okay miss, we'll take it." The woman nodded and soon handed us the key to the room.
I think it's just a pipitsuging hotel, and Chaos was just forced because he also has no choice.
We were SILENT in the elevator even when we entered the room.
He is small and just another person. When I entered the room there was only one bed but I think we could fit two.
"Take a shower first." He said, I looked at him who was currently removing his shoes sitting on the couch.
And it was only then that I realized I had no clothes on because I hadn"t brought my luggage.
"W-I didn't bring anything ----"
"You can get a clothes inside my bag if you don't have, just dry your clothes to dry tomorrow." He didn't let me finish speaking, so instead of appealing, I just followed and took the white shirt and a boxer from his bag, which I think would fit me.
No problem because it looks new.
When I entered, I saw the new toothbrush in the sink. Buti nalang.
When I was done I dinryer what I wore and hung up. I really miss it because I'm not wearing underwear now.
I caught him watching tv, when he noticed that I was out he looked at me. I saw the redness on his face. I was stunned for a moment and looked at me from head to toe and then stood up and no one said that I had entered the cr.
Sungit.
I passed by the mirror and that's when I realized that it might be my nipple.
Putcha ....
"On my couch you're in bed." I looked at him who was currently wiping his hair, he's wearing a white shirt too. I was able to sit up and cover the pillow with my chest.
"H-you don't fit on the couch."
"It's okay."
I got up and went to bed, there was too much space for me to lie down. Why doesn't he just want to be next to me?
He walked to the couch, and began to fit himself.
I thought about going to bed too, but I turned around slowly. I thought I would enjoy sleeping while he didn't.
I sat down when I thought I didn't have a pillow or even a blanket.
So I thought of getting her a blanket from the cabinet and getting one of my pillows.
"Ahm." He immediately stared sharply at me in front of him.
"E-here you use." He sat down and handed me the blanket and pillow I was carrying.
I was about to walk back when he stopped me by the arm.
I just noticed that he was already standing while holding my arm.
I can't really read any emotion on his face.
"B-why?" He didn't answer instead he let go of my pillow and arm, then I just felt his lips touch mine.
At the same time, he put his two hands on my cheek.
I can't even move from where I'm standing, my heart is beating faster at these times.
Am I dreaming?