Chapter 26

"I don't have to tell you because we're not close." She said again coldly, but I came closer to her just to prove that we are literally close. Well that's Chaos's moves.
"Are we close now?" I almost whispered.
"Do you have girlfriend already son?" Mom suddenly asked.
"Not literally girlfriend aunt! But there's that special someone!" Zyle teased, we are now in the court of the house. We're playing basketball and we're complete again. We had a short water break. And both of them sat on the bench.
"Really ?! That's a good news! So tell me who's this special girl? Hmm?" Then mommy took out a towel and was about to wipe my back.
"Mom!" I disobeyed when he lifted my jersey. I saw them all smiling and watching mommy, tangina. Zyle and Zarius were whistling as if teasing again.
"What's wrong? You're sweating Chaos Ethan!" I wiped my back once and I did nothing but let him. I stared at them.
"Awww, my son is a big boy already."
"Mom!" I disobeyed again when he kissed me on the cheek.
"Imagine aunt, that Chaos stalker !!" Arkuss fueled and laughed again.
"What ?! You're a stalker son? Who is that girl and I'll applaud for making my Chaos a stalker." They laughed again while I was still frowning.
When he once watched a gig with us, I was very happy, because I can't imagine that the woman I love is now watching me. It seems like every day I disturb him in the library, outside the school, canteen, in the room and everywhere else. It's too nasty. But even so, I still love him. Fragile if fragile.
That even the kids on the street were my scapegoats for what I would do to Shaina, I know she was bored with what I did but I feel more how much she appreciates what I do for her.
"Oy pre, you're sour, Andrew, you're approaching someone special and then you're not!" I frowned at what Arkuss said,
"The news is close to those two!" Zyle replied. My blood boiled immediately, I had been following Shaina for a long time but I had never heard that she was close to a man. So I got up and left.
I was walking when I noticed two people who looked close talking, It's Shaina! Maybe it's Andrew.
"Where are you?" I turned around and now Vino was by my side.
"Andrew a ah with your special girl." He taught both at the same time. My vision is really dark.
"You know?" I asked coldly.
"Yup, that's my classmate in PR." I immediately smiled at what Vino said.
So I came closer to him and whispered.
"What the hell bro ?!"
"Just do it bro!" And yes I have a plan why he deleted all the files on the flash drive that he passed to Vino. Luckily, Vino is the president of their class and with him the chapters will be passed.
We have passed and are now graduating senior high school, and still remain an admirer of a Shaina and I have never felt a strange treatment with her. Maybe I'm used to the way he treats me.
I'm calm because he still doesn't approach other men.
"Congrats to us cousins ​​!!!" We once threw a gown in the air. Yes, even Shs, we were thrown, even though we were the only ones like that, so we're looking at each other now.
"Thank you, ma" I kissed mom on the cheek. And so did Dad.
In the other corner of my eye I saw Shaina with her friends, maybe her mommy is with her now and has a girl.
"Congrats to us, we made it Shaina." I just whispered and smiled.
Until college I still followed him, and I met all his friends but I was still with him. An invisible wind.
"Shaina has no parents, her mommy committed suicide while her dad joined the fixture." Once Joyce and I had a drink at the bar, I couldn"t help but be offended by what I heard from her friend. So that's why she's acting so cold.
"Is that why he always seems to be deprived of heaven?" Zarius asked.
"Well, since her daddy left her, she has believed that all men are like her Daddy." Joyce replied, well change me, Shaina. I won't be like your daddy, promise me.
So since I heard about her life from Joyce, my love for her has grown even more and I know what she is going through now.
I looked at the moon.
"Thank you for giving me a sign." I whispered.
Graduation, achievements in Shaina's life. I was always there. Even when I am far away, I always support him. And even though our band is famous, I still don't forget him.
She was the first woman I loved and I will still love.
The one who is completely a nurse, I'm there again. I was always holding a bouquet, but in the end I couldn't give it because he might just throw it away again.
"I'm so proud nephews for you!" Kim said, when we were on the plane to go to California for our concert.
I can't achieve all this without Shaina ...
I wouldn"t be able to get serious about everything if I didn"t meet a Shaina.
Cause, without her I am nothing.
And I believe God has a plan and she is the only woman I will love.
Thank you Lord, for giving us a moon for making it a sign.
Soon, Shaina, you will be mine too, I know everything I do has a destination.
Im going to claim you ...
"Where are you going again, Chaos ?!"
Kim said angrily, while holding his bottle. Moonstones are all here doing a rehearsal, 'cause we have a mall tour tomorrow, I know we don't need rehearsal but the sake of our growing career so wee need it as Kim said, our uncle.
We just stopped for water break, We had a new composition again and we are in unity to create a beat or music about this. Everyone has a contribution when writing a new song and making music that will suit the song.
Damn! I forgot Shaina! I need to see her today, well almost every day I follow her to the hospital. I dont know how many weeks since I became his stalker again, but I know she knew about this. As before, he still ignores me as if there is no Chaos that really exists in his world.
"I gotta go!" I left Kim still talking there, but I didn't have a pack because Shaina was more important to me. I might get angry because I don't have one. I laughed at what I thought, it seemed vague.
That day when I went to hospital just to see her, I was holding a bouquet of sunflowers. But as usual, she would throw it away, of course why don't I get used to what she always does to me? Every day is foolproof. I run away from meetings, rehearsals just to see him.
Rejection. That's the first thing I learned from him, I'm getting used to him always rejecting myself. I proved that Shaina was not a materialistic woman, and because of that I loved her even more.
Then one time, after we had a meeting about the second project of Moonstone. About the song I wrote, they are forcing me to release it but I refuse. I don't, I want the first to hear non is the woman I love. And I had a plan about that, that was my first composition to Shaina, and that was also the first time I made a song. It's about chasing her, english is the title but tagalog is the content to make it unique.
I was waiting in the parking lot, even it's impossible to drop her home but I still stayed. I saw her walking, and seemed to be looking for the car but I frowned when I saw a Doctor who looked like a puppy one after another. I was irritated.
"Babe! I was waiting for you!" I couldn't control myself, even though my shout wasn't right because of my frustration. I'm disgusted and I want to stumble! I pulled Shaina to my chest, as if I was making Shaina look like a doctor to me!
Damn!
"Do you need anything for my girlfriend?" I asked an arrogant question, but deep inside I knew I was nervous because someone would get angry again. Looks like I need to prepare my face for a blow.
"N-nothing." It seems that the promise is still stuttering, but the tangina is scared. Then he left as well, when suddenly my companion hit me.
"Aray!" I cried. Fuck! The pain non ah!
"What girlfriend are you talking about ?! What if I hit you ?!" Instead of being scared, I just laughed, her cute tangina!
"What? He's hitting on you!" But I lost my smile when I remembered what I did again non, damn! Of course! Im also a guy! And I know such styles! Not my girl!
"And you don't?" Natameme naman ako, shempre iba ako!
And I didn't take her home but I was following her. I saw her stopped by just to be nice to a child. He was light -hearted with children, that time I found myself looking for a sticky note had written. I got out of my car to stick it to his car. Smiling I got back in my car, and watched him come back. I don't know but I still laughed when I saw him crumpled it after he read it.
You piece of shit, Chaos! You're whipped!
"Promise me you wouldn't tell it to Shaina, alrght?" Once I was with Thirdy, it was the first time I saw him. He's weak and his skin is pale. I also found out that Shaina loves this boy very much, so even if she doesn't know I'm visiting Thirdy, I know she'll be angry when she finds out so I'd better keep it a secret first. I gave him a lego, and whatnot. Not because of a bribe because I already love the child.
"I don't like you, Chaos so leave now." Fuck, I know how many times he told me that but why is the pain still there? She still doesn't believe she's the only woman in my life. Tangina. I've been chasing her for almost 6 years, am I still looking for another woman?
"You were rejected again?" Zyke and I laughed when I returned to Moon Ground, this was our first tambayan/studio when we were still in high school. I saw Vino dadrums while they were all drinking. The tanginas are just right.
I didn't answer and knocked over the beer in can on the table.
"Woaaaaah!" Arkuss's amazing promise.
"It's okay pre, Shaina doesn't love you." I raised my middle finger to Zyle who just laughed.
I recognized a bottle of beer so I was hit, they were all rocking but I was still here and didn't stop. I even caught Vino picking up our clutter one by one.
My hands made a gesture of their own when I called Shaina, I was even happier because she answered. Tangina, even though I received hurtful words from him, I still called him.
"Sha .... Ma --- pre that's right let's go home!" I was fucking crying! And Vino is now snatching the phone.
"Fuck im not the motherfucker Zyle." Vino whispered.
Tangina. I'm a man, I'm just chasing a woman, there are so many other women crawling on me, but why don't I? I only want one woman.
Two days. Shaina didn't talk to me for two days, but I still couldn't find myself giving up, that's what I still do. Waiting her after her shift, bringing her flowers and her favorite donuts. Even though I know he's giving it away, he's just throwing it away. I don't mind, I have a lot of money.
"I know let's call! Let's see if he'll worry about you, bro!" Arkuss suggest. I don't know but I'm hesitant to think of a to.
"Shut up! You're making it worse!" I once threw a pillow at him. But he just smiled and took my phone the grass Zyke and Zyle were also engaging with Arkuss.
"Hello?" Arkuss spoke loudly so I could hear his angelic voice. I glared at them but the idiots just grinned.
Tangina. I can do it!
"Hello? Is this Shaina?" Arkuss asked, the fools grinning!
"It's me, who are you?" I just kept quiet about what they were doing, putangina really.
"Thank you for answering my call, I'm Chaos' friend, can we talk?" I gently slapped Arkuss, but he sshh at me. I heard Shaina's sigh.
"We're talking." I almost laughed at Shaina's answer, even Zarius and Vino on the side were grinning and nailing.
"Silly, I mean just the two of us." Arkuss said.
"We're just the two of us talking right now, aren't we? Unless you're with someone right now." I knew it! I know he knows it!
"Fuck! What does Chaos like about a sarcastic woman?" I threw a pillow at the three again, they were laughing Zyle.
"Fuck you, Arkuss." I murmured.
"I heard you." I was froze, tangina? Did he hear me?
"Ow sorry sorry! I mean can we meet outside?" I breathed a sigh of relief when Arkuss told me. Putsa!
"My time is gold mister, so please just say what you want to say."
"It's about Chaos." The fool!
"I'm not with Chaos and I don't know anything about his life." I was a little hurt by his answer, I took away the hands that were caressing my back.
"Fuck!" I heard Arkuss cussed, running out of patience a to.
"Are you cursing at me?" All three of them stiffened when they heard Shaina's serious voice. Well, that's my girl!
"No, no! You're the one who's okay to talk to me and then you're answering me sarcastically." It seems that Arkuss's promise is being fulfilled, it's just delicious to be strangled by a to.
"So now I'm still at fault?"
"Fuck, the fierce par!" Zyle whispered
"That's not what I mean."
"I'll hang up now, it looks like you have nothing sensible to say."
"Putangina, Chaos you bad girl. Too much ice." They sighed and laughed at what Arkuss said.
"Ah miss! We're here at my friend's condo, Chaos is very drunk and you're the one he's looking for. Putangina?
"Do I look like that mother and you called me?" Ask again?
"I know but I'm just trying, earlier he almost killed himself with a knife." I was shocked again, I was about to pick up the phone when the twins stopped me.
"Oh?"
"Yeah it's good we stopped." Arkuss holds back a laugh
"You shouldn't stop him, if he wants to die let him." Then they almost laughed, tangina really.
"But miss -----" Arkuss didn't continue to say when Shaina spoke again.
Lagot.
"Next time, please be good at inventing and making a story. Please also tell those with you to slow down the laughter so that you won't be noticed too much." Then I heard him drop the call.
I teased them with laughter, I took my phone to text him and apologize.
That night when she caught me having a thing inside the girl's restroom. Yes I admit we do wonders! But I didn't want that! It's just a fucking dare! Tangina.
If I only knew he was coming here, my friends would really touch him. Always damn.
"How long are you going to push me away?" My poor question. I'm so tired for reasons I don't know.
"Until you're really gone." Five words start.
I've never felt insulted before that even my parents didn't do it to me.
When I got home I found Mommy in the living room and seemed to be waiting for someone.
"Son --- hey you okay? How are you two?" He asked when he greeted me but I just shook my head, my mother knew how crazy I was for Shaina. I also told him that he was angry with me. She hugged me but I stopped myself from crying infront of her. Nakakabakla tangina!
"I remembered, your father was like that to me then. Walterson's have only rule son." She said while hugging me.
I know. Once a Walterson cried, that means Walterson will be stuck for that love. The Walterson family believes, that when a man cries the women there take love seriously. That he is to the end, will not stop until he gets it. And that's how I feel,
She's my only rule.
"Shaina's your rule, Son." Mom said. I looked up and stared at the glass wall where I could see the vastness of the sky and the enormous moon. I smirked, the moon witnessed me again.
"I don't want to, Kim." He wants me to date Diana.
"But that's for a show, Chaos! I'm sure you'll be even more famous!" I laughed, that his only needs. The fucking fame.
"You know I love Shaina, Kim." He laughed at what I said.
"The one who's making you a puppy next to her? Chaos she's obviously using you!"
"Stop insulting her, Kim! I respect you not because you're my manager but also you're my father's brother! Stop controlling my life!" He stiffened, this was the first time I shouted at him. That"s right, he"s always insulting Shaina in front of me.
"I'll meet Diana as you want, but always remember that I only want one woman. She's my rule and I believe you know the rule of a Walterson. Don't wait for me to be released from this filthy career of mine. . " I said angrily then walked out. I agreed to link to Diana, I knew Diana liked me but I ignored her. I only want one woman.
I agreed to make them love teams even against my will. I would like to ideny in public that there is no intercession between us. I want to shout to the whole world that I only love Shaina but I also thought about Shaina's quiet life and I don't want it to be messed up because in the world of showbiz, I don't care what they say, I only care for my Shaina.
So when he requested that we perform at his brother's school, I agreed. The joy I felt at those times was great, I was able to make him obey what I wanted to happen and his life depended on my hands.
I was just annoyed by the twinkling look of those with me. And also because of his brother I saw Zarius' energy, I don't want what happened to him to happen to me. He was devastated when Ysla left him.
I don"t know who Zarius "rule really is. But I saw Zarius cried because of Ysla.
"How's Ysla, pre?" Zyle asked. Moon Ground we are now and drinking. Her eyes darkened at Zyle's question, I could see that Sherina and I were getting better. And Sherina became Zarius' woman after Ysla left her.
"No Ysla. I broke the rule, she's not my rule anyway and I don't give a fuck about her so stop mentioning her fucking name." I was shaken, he still loves her.
"No matter what your decision, Zarius please don't plan to hurt Sherina right now. Stop it if you don't feel anything, Shaina's sister is still young." I said
So when we dated at the amusement park, I was so happy. I'm so happy that he trusted me with his life. She told me, and I really can't blame her for her life. I was also annoyed with his father because of what he said.
And during those times, I realized that I would stay by his side even more. She's my only rule and my moon, sun. She's my everything.


"Putangina, what's wrong with those two siblings and you cousins ​​are so crazy ?!" Kim and I shouted, I was very angry when I found out that she went to Shaina to keep her away from me. No matter what she does, I will never stay away from Shaina! And even if Shaina stays away, I will always search for her anywhere in the world!
"Tangina! It's just show -off, you're thinking about money! We have a life of our own! Tangina, who are you to make my life miserable and make Shaina talk like that ?! I warned you right?" I also found out that Zarius and Sherina were secretly meeting.
"Those brothers are ruining your life and your career! They will be the downfall and ruin your dreams! And I will not allow that!" He was still shouting.
Tangina, is this really my uncle? If our parents support us, can he still be just an uncle ?!
"There's only one, Kim. You don't know, Shaina is the reason why I'm still stuck in the place I have now. Back then, I wanted to quit but Shaina stopped me. You should still be grateful to her." She sighed at what I said. I was shaking as I left, I could still hear Zarius shouting.
"What is Chaos ?! You're so crazy! Stop what you're doing!" She angrily said after I told her I want to quit.
He's the one I want! He is my only dream! It used to be one of my favorites but this dream career is what keeps me from loving him so I don't want to quit.
At night, in my condo. My pad was a mess all over! I was so hurt I wanted to forget, but that night I was surprised when I saw him at the door of my condo. She gave her virginity to me and I was so fucking happy that I am her first! But I thought everything was fine, after that night we made love. When morning came, she left without even saying goodbye, she only left her red stain in my bed sheets!
One week tangina. He did not enter the hospital. I went back to the hospital for a week, to her friends' house and to her aunt's house. I didn't do anything wrong, why all of a sudden?
Did I think it was okay?
Tangina ano yon? Sex and run?
"Please, son. I don't know what's happening to you but please I'm worried as well as your Daddy. Son, tell me. What happened to you and Shaina?" I can't answer mommy.
Why don't I give up yet? When will I feel tired myself?
My man tangina! Fuck the rule!
I was holding the keychain, this is the one I bought for me and the other one is for Shaina. I'm already kissing him.
It's because the heart isn't taught and I'm sure she's my only rule. When Sherina turned her back on him for Zarius, I was there. I didn't disappear, and there I gradually felt that his treatment of me was improving. At least a little I feel that way.
My forehead furrowed when I saw the familiar car in front of Shaina"s house. And I was right in my suspicion when I saw Diana come out of the gate. I angrily got out of my car and approached him, he was surprised to see me. I immediately grabbed his arm and dragged him into his car.
"Chaos ..." He said scared when I also entered.
"Why are you fucking here .." My voice was calm but angry. I saw that he was scared.
"I-I am h-here because ..." Then she stopped crying but I didn't have a pack!
"Tangina, are you Diana too?" I fail to question after he says everything. I thought it was okay with her, I already told her about Shaina.
"She accepted Chaos! That means she doesn't love you! And she will leave you after one week!"
"And you don't have a pake there! You have no right to do that because you have no contribution to my life! Is that Kim's order? Please come with me!" Then when I got out of his car angrily, I kicked his tire hard.
What is the problem? Why don't they like the woman I love ?! So even though I knew what Shaina was going to do, I just rode pretending I didn't know, for a week she made me feel that she really loved me. That he wanted me and I was happy there even for a moment but I knew in myself that I would not allow what he would do. I will look for and still look for him.
And it also happened that I talked to his father, I didn't want to be so angry with him at first. But when I heard everything she said I agreed, Shaina also had to hear her father's explanation.
"Take care of my daughter, son."
"I will, Mr. Perez." That was the last time we talked. I have a plan when I meet them first before Shaina makes her plan for me. I thought she would be happy, but she wasn't. He was angry, I thought everything was okay but it wasn't.
He is still tough.
I followed him when he walked out, he said many bad words to me but I accepted.
It hurts. Very painful. Tangina.
"I know your plan with Diana." When I confessed, he was stubborn in what I said.
And there came back all my memories of him, from the beginning. How I would chase, how I would follow after him how I was hurt, how I was hurt by the words he uttered and how I gave up the whole world for him, how I also gave up my dream.
Maybe I deserve to rest, right?
Maybe my heart also felt tired. Funny why now? When I was crushed. Why so? He will also leave me but I still have no other wishes for his pleasure. He's the only one really, he just said that he loves me I'll be back. How else can I make my plan to seduce him especially if he is like that?
I am tired. Stop.
"It's just fun after all these years, my heart even thought of finally marrying you."
My tears flowed again. That's how my dad felt about mom. I inherited ata tangina, the rule of isanv Walterson is very bad, you will be crushed too much.
So my cousins ​​are afraid to love. Afraid of the rule.
"I finally give up .." I said almost whispered. It hurts.
"Take care of yourself, please. For the last time this is the last day I will mention this."
"I love you so much ..." Then I turned around, leaving that place.
Also leave her life.
You did well, Chaos.
That's right, you're a Walterson so you should know how to love yourself.
But I never thought to erase his pictures in my Ig and his memory in my brain. She's my best memories.
But it's confusing because when I thought of giving up, he would show his motive again! She became our fan! Tangina, what is he doing ?! Is he playing with me? What are you doing Shaina ?!
This is what you want, right?
Why so much again?
"Tangina, pre what is Shaina doing?" Zyke asked incredulously after the meet and greet. I also can't believe it.
I treated him coldly, because I no longer had confidence in myself. Tangina, because at any time I might come back with her again.
I was there, I said and I will come back with him. I went to their friends' house to check on her. I saw him on a bench sitting by the pool.
It was raining when we kissed but he suddenly fainted. I was so scared then.
"Shaina ---- Oh mh God ?! Chaos ?!" I held Shaina in my arms, we were both soaking wet from the rain. Her friends looked surprised.
"S-come with me to her room." I just nodded to Joyce. When they changed Shaina's clothes, I relaxed. All of her friends are here, watching her sleep even me.
"Can you all do me a favor?" They all looked at me.
"Don't tell her I'm here. Please, tell her everything is just a dream."
They still appealed but in the end I also agreed with them, this is the last time I will worry about him. That's enough, Chaos. I'm afraid I'll fall for her again, please Shaina, stop it.
But I thought he would stop being my fan, and joining fan clubs.
"That girl is going crazy Chaos!" Kim shouted when she saw Shaina during our mall tour. I just ignored him, but why is there joy in my heart at what he does?
And I was even more annoyed when another architect suggested that he be helping him build a coffee shop! Tangina naman.
Until I can no longer stop myself from loving him again. Everyone comes back when I see him. When he said he loved me nothing had melted away. The fool is fragile and I let myself love him again.
Honestly, she"s my only rule. And I will not let everyone stop us, even if the whole world is determined to fight for him. Because what I dream of now is mine.
"Do you take Chaos Ethan Walterson to be your lawfully wedded husband, to have and to hold. In sickness and in health. In good times and woe, for richer and poorer, keeping yourself solely unto him for as long as you both shall life and til death do us part? " Father asked her.
And I can't believe we're getting married. We're all under the starry nights. And yes, beach wedding and night is our wedding. We both want the moon to witness our wedding as well. All our loved ones are here, we made it private to the public Shaina doesn"t want with the media around. We've been together for almost a year now and now we're getting married.
"Yes father, I do." He replied. I smiled. Earlier, I cried when she was walking with her beautiful gown.
She looks beautiful in white, her Daddy took her to me.
All the guests were smiling watching us now.
I have nothing more to ask for. I'm so happy, because my only rule is here already. I have no plans to love anyone else, once a Walterson falls in love, you're forever whipped.
Dear Lord, thank you for giving this girl to me. This is the best I have received from you. Despite my sins, you still gave direction to my life, you gave direction to my life by giving her.
Dear Moon, thank you for always giving me a sign, thank you because you have been the witness of all my love for this woman.
Cause, no more shattered hearts of our Love.
I am Chaos Ethan Walterson finally got the girl I've been waiting to claim.
And now signing off ...
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