Chapter 24

They said 'Learn to enjoy every minute of your life. Be happy now. Don"t wait for something outside of yourself to make you happy in the future. Think how really precious is the time you have to spend, whether it"s at work or with your family. Every minute should be enjoyed and savored. ' And that's what I am today, even though I was consumed by so much sadness, anger and even hatred but in return it was so much pleasure.
Because for me, forgiveness is for our own growth and happiness. When we hold on to hurt, pain, resentment, and anger it harms us far more than it harms the offender. Forgiveness frees us to live in the present. Forgiveness allows us to move on without anger or contempt or seeking revenge.
"How's your feeling?" Chaos asked, I looked up at him. We're cuddling at the moment after we made love and we are both naked under the sheets. and I'm here in his condo. I've been here a lot, and he teases me a lot too. We always made love in every corner of his condo, couch, table, in the floor or even in his bathroom. God! He's so insatiable! When we were making love, he doesn't know the word 'patient'! But I will admit that I like that side of him.
"Sore, I guess?" He laughed at my answer which made me frown. There's nothing wrong with my answer, is there?
"That's not what I meant, love." He said still laughing. He brought me even closer to him. I pinched him on his side. His hobby is always expected of me.
"Eh what ?!"
"Look you're getting mad again, you're waking up again." I blushed at what he said. Seriously ?! Is he not tired? We've done that for 5 times today I guess in every fucking position! Goodness !!!
"Stop it, Chaos! You're going to cut it!" Then I suddenly touched him, I felt him stiff. And my eyes widened as it moved. I looked up Chaos and it was already closed, I even saw his jaw clenched as if he was restraining himself again. I don't know but I seem to like his ichura now, hmm it's time to revenge.
"Love ..." He called, I still can't remove my hold on him. His eyes widened as he looked at me. I guess I'll give it to my plan. Until I felt his hand touch my hand and he guided me to move it. Again, I felt a new intensity in my body as it gradually hardened in my hand. Fucking shit!
"Ah ..." And that's it, my growl came out. His eyes remained close and he felt every moment as I performed a miracle under the blanket. Slowly raising just lower my hand with him until the speed of speed. He looked up at the ceiling, so I could see how sharp his adams apple was, and his gaping mouth.
I love the view. I smiled that this is how I affected him.
"Fuck, Sha!" I think, he's gonna cum so I made the movement of my hand even harder as I heard his sexy moans until I could feel the liquid flowing into my hands. He sighed and opened his eyes.
I was stunned when he quickly climbed on saken. He took my hand that he took out, he wiped it with the towel in the basin placed on the bed side table. Well, he wiped it from what I did earlier so let's go.
"You're such a tease." He shook his head when he finished wiping my hand. He lowered his head to kiss me which I immediately responded with all my heart, I put both of my hands in his neck and deepen the kiss until I felt his tongue moving inside my mouth, I imitated what his tongue was doing. Then his one hand traveled in my hips up to my chest, he's now massaging it and pinching my nipples using his fingers. That's why I couldn't stop my body from slipping.
"Ahhhh, love .." I moaned against his mouth, I couldn't even focus my attention on his lips if not on his hands that are now playing with my chest and his that is already rubbing against my womanhood.
"I love you .." He whispered then I felt him open my legs wider so that he could finally enter her.
"C'mon, sleepyhead wake up." I could hear someone whispering in my ear at the same time as kissing my shoulder.
"I'm still tired." I heard him chuckled, then I felt him kiss me in my lips. I opened my eyes now that the madman was smiling as his face was close to mine. I frowned, and he gave me a kiss. It's really bad, I'm overwhelmed by his energy!
"It's already 2 pm, Shaina. Eat up, otherwise I'll eat you." That's why I got up quickly at four o'clock. I heard his laughter again, I realized that I am wearing his shirt and my underwear. He stood up and stared at me. I suddenly thought of something.
"What's that?" He asked with a frown as I opened both my arms as if loading.
"Please? I'm still sore, aren't you?" He laughed as he shook me and lifted me up and I smiled. I kissed his forehead when he lifted me.
"Toothbrush first." I said as we left the room.
"Eat first, love."
"I prefer the toothbrush." He took a deep breath when he saw me pout and did nothing but enter the bathroom. So I smile now.
"There." At the same time, he reached for my toothbrush after he put toothpaste on it, but I just stared at it. "Why?" I pushed him with both my hands that were very close to his neck now. It looks like he nagets what I'm saying so he puts it in my mouth.
"Ihh." He said saken, so I opened my mouth and smiled at him. He laughed at me while brushing me.
"Ango nya" I said angrily to him, while he laughed with laughter because of where his toothbrush was going. Now it's on my nose.
"C'mon, open your mouth." So I just did what he said, he brushed the inside of my mouth and then put out my tongue which he followed with a toothbrush.
We stayed in the bathroom for a while because of his mischief, after that we went to his kitchen. He lowered me and made me sit on the chair while I just watched him transfer the food to my plate.
Since it seemed like I lived here in his condo, we were always like this, I became clingy too. Then he took so much care of me, I thought we would get married. In the morning he would wake me up for breakfast, then he would leave me because he still had a job. Then he would always come home early and bring anything for saken. When he was at work, he didn't fail to text because of it.
"Why?" He asked when he felt that maybe I was looking at him earlier. While I was eating, I kept my eyes on him. I was just amazed alright ?! Who would have thought that a Chaos Ethan could handle ?!
"Do you know how to shake hands?" I wonder question.
"Of course, love! Why should feet be used when eating?" He laughed in response. I frowned.
"When I eat love I use my hands especially my mouth." He said, I was just shaken when I realized the double meaning of what he said. Its sunday today so its our babe time, I told her yesterday not to receive any call from anyone just related to her work. It's his only day off, moreover, the one I can be with will be kidnapped.
Many also know that I am his girlfriend, many accept but many do not accept our relationship. Especially his uncle Kim and even Diana, the day we confessed in front of them even his band.
I didn't see any joy on Kim and Diana's faces at that time but being plastic saken, they couldn't do anything and even if they hit me again, I wouldn't be silenced again.
"What do you want when we get married?" I frowned at his question, we are in the living room now, he is currently reading a book and I am watching netflix.
He is now lying on my lap.
"Why do you ask? You haven't even asked me." He laughed at my answer.
"Just asking, just incase. Hm, that's just what you dreamed of then." I acted like I was thinking, I turned down the volume on the TV first.
"I just want a simple wedding, all my loved ones are there. I also want a beach wedding, then it will take place in Alta Vista itself."
"Why do you like Alta Vista so much?"
"Because that's the day I realized that I love you, I've been with you there for a long time. And, I just want to be more comfortable there."
He nodded in response, I thought I would be answered because he read his book again. I thought I was going to propose! Besides, even if he proposes, I won't say yes! You don't even have to make an effort!
"Wait, I'm nervous." I held Chaos' hand as he got out of the car and to turn around I opened the door. Its my first time to meet his family! And I'm so nervous! I always know if they know what I'm going to do to their child before!
"Hey don't be okay? Just be yourself, and also I'm with you." So I did nothing but nod waiting for him to open the door for me and go down. When we entered we saw that they were waiting in their grand living room. I didn't even notice their very nice house because I feel like now, I must be amazed.
"Mom, Dad."
His parents were both smiling as they greeted us both, he's only a child. He kissed me on the cheek of his mommy and I did the same to his Daddy.
"Hi!" Greetings from her mommy, I can't help but marvel at the inherent beauty of her mommy and the inherent beauty of her Daddy. Their race is so beautiful.
"Ahm, good evening." Ashamed of my promise, I felt Chaos's arms encircling around my hips.
"Mom, Dad. This is Shaina Zarlaine, my girlfriend and soon to be wife." I immediately blushed at what Chaos said. Seriously ?! I saw her mommy smiling and her Daddy smiling and shaking.
"Well, that's my son." And the father and son are still apir.
"Stop that, Shaina's here okay?" Her mommy disobeyed. I feel like little by little the nervousness in my chest is disappearing because I don't have to worry because her parents are kind and don't even say anything about it.
"Dont be shy, hija. Free yourself okay? From now on call us mom and dad just like Chaos what he calls us." I nodded while smiling, soon after we were led to the dining area. Up to our meal the three of them were squirming, and I couldn"t help but keep an eye on them. They are very comfortable with each other.
"You know hija, it's his first time to come here with a girl. And oh! Girlfriend pa ah? Alam mo loyal kase yan sa special ----- wait don't tell me ?!" Mommy Anna is happy, yes her name is Anastasia and her Daddy is Luther Curse, yes curse I don't know why her name is like that.
"Mom." As if Chaos was embarrassed, I can already see the redness in his ears.
"Yes hon, he's our Chaos's special girl." I was surprised by what her Daddy said, wait I think I heard that somewhere eh .. Yes! Jill's! He wrote a song for his special girl.
"So you're butternut ?!" I looked at Chaos wondering at his mommy's question. What the hell?
"Mom, stop that." Her daddy was happy with her reaction. Her mommy even covered her mouth as if she couldn't believe what was happening.
"Oh my God! You're the reason why he doesn't want to date any other girls out there! Your his senior high school crush and until now! Wow! You're the girl why he's been loyal until now, and the one who often he told me about the butternut. " I blushed at what he said, I'm not ashamed either! I turned to Chaos who was obviously really embarrassed by what was happening.
"Mom ..."
"Okay, I'll stop that."
"I'm sorry my wife hija, she's just excited." Mommy Ana slapped her husband's hand when he said that. I was happy with what I saw.
"So when's the wedding?" I almost choked on her mommy's sudden question, it's a good thing Chaos' water caught up with me.
"Mommy."
"What? I was just asking. Sorry hija ah? You know I'm excited."
"It's okay, aunt." I smiled in response.
It's been a month already, and I'm still often in his condo. He really wanted me to live there but I didn't want to agree, because it's not that easy for me to just leave my friends. And now we are going to the cemetery because we are going to visit mommy. It's been a long time since I started visiting him, maybe he's already sulking.
"Let's go?" I accepted Chaos' hand and we went to my mommy's grave together. When we arrived I immediately knelt down and placed the flowers next to his tombstone.
'Shanaya Perez'
I also felt Chaos sitting next to me.
"Hi, mommy!" When I started while removing the leaves from his tombstone. I felt Chaos kiss me on the head.
"I know it's been a long time since I visited you, I just want you to know that I am finally happy. Mommy, thank you for everything, thank you for taking care of Sherina and me back then, even if it was only for a short time that we were with you . " My tears flowed. "I miss you so much, mom. Do you know that Sherina will be moving up, I hope you're still alive and you'll be the one to hang the medal with her."
"Hey, hurry up, girl!" My friends said, they dressed me in a dress was arranged.
"Where are we going ?!" Naiinis na ko ha.
"Charan !!!" I frowned when they simultaneously lifted the ticket for the Moonstone concert. What ?!
"I have too! I'm the only one going, why are you coming?"
"Duh! We always support you!" Joyce flipped her hair at the same time, Joy is already big but we still can't see who her father is. It's only been a month and it's her due date.
"Wooooooah!" People shouted one by one as the Moonstone member came out. We are just at the front of the stage, of the thousands of people who are here, I can't help but be amazed because of how far my beloved has come.
"Oh my God !!! Your pogi Zyle!"
"Tall shirt Arkuss !!"
"I love you Chaos!"
I was shocked when I heard that shout.
"Oh the face I see from here in New York." I was offended by what Alyana said, yeah we skype her now on Nica's iPod. "Woaaaah is Vino's pogi really?" I was stunned when Alyana spoke again. One of them
"Good evening Moonstonians !!!" Chaos shouted into the mic, even though I was wondering if they were wearing pure air suits, I just ignored them. The people immediately responded to him and it was very deafening to hear that the prevailing inside the arena was once again. I saw them earlier, Kathleen.
"It's bad, isn't it? Their concert is really solid." Ai Chiza.
"Tonight I want you to know that this is very special especially and here is the only woman I love the most."
"Sana all !!"
"Hala answerte !!!"
"Oh my God Chaos !!!"
His reaction from the fans, he laughed. And I felt my friends pinch me because they knew I was where Chaos was going.
"I know that every concert we have is special but I will change tonight, and tonight I want y'all to hear my compose song to my special girl. I know there are many conclusions in your minds if it is true that I wrote song oara sa babaeng minamahal ko. And guess what? You are all right. " The whole arena immediately roared, even though that song hadn't been released yet.
"I knew it !!!!" Joyce screamed, I was just focusing on Chaos. And not to mention the lagat at these times I think we're just the two of us.
He signaled to his bands and started to start, we were all surprised at how good the sound was. So smooth!
"This song's entitled 'chasing my special girl." He said while the band was just introducing.
"I just saw you for the first time,
You have captured my heart.
In every quarrel you have.
I'm even more attracted to you .... "
We were all surprised when I thought the lyrics were in English but in Tagalog. I can see the amazement of everyone as well.
"Every drop of your tears
I will wipe, I will just relieve the sadness I feel.
You will follow, wherever you go.
Whether you push, or push.
I will never give up to fight and get you. "
This time our eyes met, I was so bitten on my lip when he smiled at me. This man, the one who felt the love of being free in a world full of sorrow. This man, the one I rested, the one I leaned on. The man who didn't give up on my hatred, the man I drove away a few times but didn't give up. The man I love so much ..
"I can't get tired of following you. Since then you've been the only dream.
Since then, you have been the only star in my only sky that has colored my world.
You are the only moon, which I ask of god. You are the only love ....
I will not give up, the special woman in my life ..... "
I burst into tears when he came down on stage and the people laughed.
"Hey you're flirty !!! There you go !!" Joyce was thrilled.
"Hala tangaina Shaina Oil!" I no longer ignored Jayrose because Chaos was already in front of me, and I could see the camera taking us which was now on the screen that everyone was watching. Everyone's screams got louder, you added the screams of my friends.
When the song ended, he took my hand and guided me up to the stage. I'm just nervous to go with him even though my shameless friends are pushing hard for it ..
"Shaina ..." Chaos said into the mic but everyone was giggling again.
Even though I'm embarrassed, I still feel even happier now.
"Since then, until now I have not seen any other woman I can be with when I grow old but you. Alan of the moon how much I love you, and even my life I will risk just to let you in. You are the dream, love. I can handle the It's all because of you. Because without you, there would be no Chaos right now in front of you. I know the many trials that have come into our lives, but my love for you will never be surpassed. So Shaina .... "
"Are you ready to be Mrs. Chaos Walterson, and be the mother of my children?" I felt my tears one after another, I could see his face smiling. And let's say that people are the ones who prevail.
So I nodded one after another
"Yess !!!!" When he slapped the air with his fist and hugged me, I was stunned when he lifted me up and turned me around. Everyone applauded even though his bands I could see how happy we were. When he lowered me, I saw all my loved ones inside, clapping happily. Daddy with his family and Sherina, my friends, Jillian, Migo as well as Kathleen and Chaos' family.
I really have nothing more to ask for, God has already given it to me.
Thank you lord. I looked up to whisper that I was also grateful to mommy.
Noon, I was shattered and broke but when I met my moon everything changed. He's my light in my world full of darkness, he saved me from everything.
So the best way to be happy, is to free yourself from everything that keeps you sad. Let it go, trust yourself. Because someone will come to you who can change everything.
This is Shaina Zarlaine Perez, signing off.

To be continued...