Chapter 46

We both just ran out of milktea but one of us still had no plans to leave.
"How's Sandra and Steven by the way?" I asked him because I was too deaf to the silence. I saw his fingers tapping his knee.
"You got a nosebleed, Tagalog." He put his hand against hers.
"How are Sandra and Steven ..."
"Oh kitams! It's Tagalog! You're going to make it even harder for me to understand you!" He said shaking his head. "It's okay, maybe those two are asleep now."
"Does your mom --- I mean is your mom still hurting them Sandra?"
He took a deep breath before answering me.
"When I'm at home, they don't hurt me, I just don't know when I'm not there. The siblings don't complain, but I know they're hurting. Even if I tell them, Mama goes in the ear and out the other ear."
"Why don't you just leave, then?" He was silent for a few more minutes.
"It's not that easy, first we don't have money and second where are we going?"
I bit my lip, how stupid you are Ysla for asking the obvious question!
"I only finished my second year of high school, I stopped because of the hardships of life. And then I made Sandra finish high school in case she also stopped because she didn't have any money." I looked at him, he's smiling as if he's not dealing with such a problem. Now I admired him for being strong.
"How old are you?" I asked, he looked at me.
"Nineteen, you?" My eyes widened.
"We're the same! I just had your birthday in November?" I smiled at the question.
"Really? Wow! You look younger hahaha, it's unfortunate that today is my birthday." My eyes widen again. Seriously ?!
"You're only nineteen now?" Am I older than him ?!
"Yes, then here's the birthday scam hahaha. But it's true that I have a mcdo bundle to take home to my family." I couldn't help but be moved by what he said.
"Happy birthday Bench, I'm sorry when we first met I was rude. I thought you knew that playboy type."
"I'm used to it! He's handsome!" Napairap naman ak sa sinabi nya. "Thank you, Ysla." Despite his smiles now, I feel that he is still hiding his sadness.
I averted my eyes and looked at the sky again, the thoughts are always hunting me. Did Zarius follow me? The pain just imagine otherwise. I didn't realize that tears were dripping from my eyes again.
I was about to wipe it off when I heard Bench.
"You with the sad eye, don't be discouraged Oh I realize ..."
He started to sing! He was looking at me while singing the verse! I could no longer wipe away my tears and stared at him. Gosh! Why is her voice so beautiful? Full whole! The cold, the pleasure to listen to!
"Because I sing to Sandra when Mama fights with her, and I think it helps because she stops crying." He reasoned out.
"Can you continue?" I request, he obliged and nodded his head. He was still looking at me.
"Its hard to take courage, in a world full of people.
You can loose sight of it all.
The darkness inside you can make you feel so small ... "
He's singing True Colors by Justine Timberlake, Gosh! His voice is so beautiful, I remember Zar with him, he used to sing me a song. Then each of his utterances of the words is also complete. The cleanliness.
I also looked at him as he sang.
"Show me a smile then, dont be unhappy can't remember when last saw you laughing ..."
He smiled when he sang that verse, that's why I can't help but smile too, he turned a blind eye and liked singing more.
"If this world makes you crazy and you"ve taken all you can bear.
Just call me up, 'cause I'll always be there ... "
He opened his eyes and stared at me again.
"And I"ll see your true colors, shining through.
And I'll see your true colors, that's why I love you
So don't be afraid to let them show ...
Your true colors, true colors are beautiful like a rainbow ... "
"It's over! Huh!" He snapped his fingers in my face so I was wide awake.
"A-ah .. Wow! Your voice are awesome!" Then I happily clapped my hands. He was embarrassed to be held against her.
"S-thank you hehe."
"Are you using that voice of yours? I mean making money?"
"Often, just on a trip. My favorite is ice cream, you know it's not allowed." I nodded.
"What do you do for a living?"
"Those who sing at weddings, then I once joined the church choir."
"Wow! Did you get into church ?!" He frowned at my promise.
"You're really my gravity ..." I laughed at the way he looked.
"I was just kidding." He did not answer.
"Are you still planning to study? It's been a while since you last went to school, right?" I looked at him, he was looking at the sky.
"Of course, in case I still don't have enough savings. Maybe I'll just have ALS after college." He just said I nodded.
We were silent on the moment when suddenly my phone rang. Just now or before?
"Ah excuse me ..." He nodded.
I took the phone out of my pouch.
It was Zarius who's calling.
I just looked at his name on my screen, I couldn"t find myself pressing the green button. I don't seem to want to answer at first. It's just a ring of rings.
"Your boyfriend?" I looked at Bench and nodded.
"Didn't you answer?" I didn't answer him, I just waited for the call to subside until it stopped. I decided to power off my phone, I don't want to talk to anyone now. Rude if rude if I leave suddenly for dinner. But that's the only way I don't get hurt.
When I turned off my phone and immediately put it in the bag, I felt another pain in my heart.
"She's the reason you cried earlier?" I heard Bench.
"I-I don't know, Bench ..." I bowed.
"I-I don't know if I can still trust him, I'll just give a little. We're just new in this relationship but why do I feel like its old already? It's like it's been a long time ..." Then my tears came down on my cheeks again.
Oh come on! You're crying again, Ysla!
"I don't even know what you're going through, Ysla but from what I can see you're hurting too much. I just want you to know, that it's not because you love someone that he will abuse you, trust is hard to restore so it shouldn't be broken. Then feel free I have a reason for your boyfriend. "
"But still, he should have told me!"
"Oh oh don't be mad at me ..." I looked at him with his arms crossed on his chest.
"I'm sorry ... It's annoying."
"Sit down, I'm if you don't ask how much I've been shota all expensive then jealous! Jusmiyo marimar." He was even slapped on his forehead.
I can't help but wince at what he said, Bench is really handsome, he just looks like a gangster.
"Someone cut?" He frowned at me.
"Gravity really. He's always handsome and macho! How about when I sing, right?" His eyebrows are still rising and falling. That's why I can't help but laugh at the way he looks.
"Eh woo?"
"Neber. It's still time for that couple!"
"Really? It makes more sense to do that!"
"Really? Edi, when I did it to you, I was already pogi in your eyes?" Suddenly his voice was serious.
We both fell silent.
"Patola ka gorl! Jok jok lang gagi hahahaha!" He laughed and then averted his eyes. He already knows a lot of words.
We hung out there for more than half an hour until I thought of going home.
"Did I bring you?" He asked when I stood up.
"Where's your motorbike?" At the same time, I pointed at his motorbike.
"That's basic, come back! It's really like that, when you love you, you'll come back!" I raised an eyebrow at what he said.
"I'll definitely come back! It's not mine hahaha!"
I agreed to take him, it's funny because while we were walking he still didn't run out of stories! Just like when he allegedly participated in a competition, he crouched down in front of many people. At the way he talks! Gosh! You will be really happy!
"That's it! It's so bad that I'm listening to the angel's laughter ..." When I laughed.
"Why can't I laugh, you're annoying!" I wiped away my tears at once.
"Our house is here," I looked at him. He made a mess and inspected our house.
"Wow! Gravity! Too big! That's a mansion!" I can still see the size of his eyes.
"So, on Monday you will eat with us again!" I nodded. I couldn't help but look around our house when I saw a familiar volume standing on a pole. God! I didn't notice him right away!
And even though it was dark in his part, I could feel the darkness in his eyes!
"All right, come in and I'm leaving." I couldn"t answer Bench when I saw Zar approaching us.
"Zar ..."
"Huh?"
Zarius suddenly pulled me towards him so I went behind him. It hurts when he pulls me.
"Who the fuck are you ?!"
"Wait, Ysla is hurting ..." I looked at Bench, I nodded meaning I'm fine.
"Zar ..." I tried to hold Zarius' hand.
"Ysla ..." I heard Bench.
"Leave us alone, fucker! And dont ever show your face here again!" He pushed Bench so it backed away and almost fell.
"Zarius!" I shout.
"B-bench, I'm fine, go home ..." Bench and Zarius looked at me worriedly.
"You heard her, dumbass!"
"Zarius can I! Stop that the man isn't doing anything bad to you!" Zarius looked at me in disbelief.
"And now you're defending him, really Yslavien?"
"I am not! You're overdoing it!"
He gasped, he even looked at the sky and burst out laughing.
"Putangina." Then he sarcastically laughed. Here are my pest tears again.
That's enough please, it hurts the eyes.
"Please, let's talk tomorrow I'm tired ..." I calmly promised, even though Bench was still here.
"Ysla I'll be the first." I just nodded to Bench, he turned to Zar for a moment. Bench's eyes couldn't escape me as if in resentment. He slowly turned around and shook his head.
Im sorry Bench ...
"W-where are you tired? Me or because you did something with that putanginanang ?!" I couldn't help but slap his cheek.
He's overdoing it!
"Is that how you think of me? Am I that low to you?" I was crying in front of him, but the expression on his face still didn't change.
"Because that's how I see it! You left without my permission! You left without telling me! I told you, I'll go with you! And how do I fucking many times I call you ?! You even fucking turn off your phone! I was waiting for you here almost one hour, then you came with a grab boy! What do you expect from me, Yslavien? Be happy for you because you're with someone ?! "
He's now panting after he said that.
Yes, I'm at fault, but I still can't compensate for the pain I saw before.
"I'm still at fault? How many times have you been hiding from me? Did I get angry?"
"Fuck! Is that your fucking reason ?! I told you that I have to fix my problem, its not that big to tell you!"
"That's it! It's not big but you're not saying! How can we grow in this relationship if you're always secretive ?!" I almost whispered.
"Did you even once ask me if I was okay? When you're missing a day, two days! Do you remember contacin me? Don't you?"
"I told you I was fixing my ----"
"You were fixing your mess with Nahla?" He was surprised when I cut him off.
"I know, Zarius. You had a relationship with Nahla before. Do you know how I feel? Ha? How many times, how many days have I been nursing. And do you know how I felt before when I saw you? If you stare at me it's like nothing. I'm in front of you! " Suddenly his face calmed down, he tried to hold my hand but I avoided him.
"Yslavien ..."
"I trust you completely, Zar. I'm waiting for you to tell me whatever your problem is. I'll listen, but I haven't received anything from you."
I wiped my tears.
"N-when I found out that, did you know what was going through my mind? If you were just using me to display to the family ----"
"I am not using you, fuck it!"
"But that's how I feel! Knowing how much you loved each other then Nahla. You had no choice so you courted me! Because you and Nahla are blood relatives! You're just forcing yourself on me! How can you say I'm always your choice if you have no choice, that's why you choose me ... "
Fuck! It hurts! Because from any angle, I will never be his choice if he has a choice.
"Yslavien please hear me out ..."
"I hope before, it wasn't painful before the mess in my mind now. Zar is in so much pain. I don't know where else I'll be with you, you never trust me."
"Not like that, I trust you!"
"If that's the case, where is it? While I trust you completely, you don't give even the slightest bit. You take care of all your problems."
"Yslavien, please stop talking and listen to me. You know how fucking much I love you!"
"Let me know that you love me, Zar if that's the case. Because the two of us seem to be the only ones who love ..."
Zarius texted and called me without fail after that night. Sometimes I reply but often I'm not in the mood. I don"t know yet, I"m still confused. I don't want him to change, but if he always treats me like that, does he think I can do it?
I woke up in the morning, like I didn't know how heavy it was. I looked at my phone on the bedside table and saw Zarius calling. I was even hesitant to answer or what.
But in the end, I choose to answer it.
"Good morning, love. Have you eaten your breakfast yet?" I could hear the concern in her voice and it seemed lively. Gosh, don't be weak Ysla!
"Just woke up." I just said lazily.
"Ah okay, did I disturbed your sleep then?" The pain in his voice did not escape me and I admit I was hurt too. Hays!
"No."
Coming soon, Ysla. You will be given. Especially and I heard it rested deeply.
"C'mon love, its almost a week since you ignored me. Please, dont be cold." I bit my lip.
"Do you need anything else? I am ---" I stopped what I was going to say when he sang!
Gosh! I missed him ...
"This song is dedicated to you ...
These promises are also true to you
All I want is for you to grow old with me. "
How many times have I bit my lip? Gosh! Why is his voice even more beautiful? Especially when he sings in Tagalog! That thing is annoying! She also makes me smile secretly because of her singing.
"I'll make you laugh when you're not happy
I'll do it when you're charmed.
Or it's nice to think, you're getting old with me. "
Me too, Zar. I want to grow old with you.
"Will be together ever
Roughly innumerable
Thirty days a month.
Even if we reach three thousand one. "
I can't even close my lips because when I smile, he also groans when he pronounces but even so, it's still good to listen.
"Arf arf!" I smiled even more when Soobin barked and forced himself to climb on my bed now, he seemed to know that I was talking to his daddy.
"Ssssshh, daddy is singing baby ..." I whispered to Soobin before lifted her up then put on my lap while listening to the angel's voice.
"You look like a witch when you wake up in the morning
I will even wipe the muta in the eye.
Or how nice to think with you growing old ... "
I can't help map frown, what the hell ?! I dont have muta! Especially since I even heard her laugh.
"Are we okay now?" He asked after he laughed!
Okay, I admit I am such thrilled but I won't make it public!
"No!"
"Alright, love."
My forehead is furrowed, that's all ?! He won't kiss me ?!
"Tsk!"
"Come down now love hahaha, we're waiting for you downstairs." My eyes widened and I sat up straight.
"What do you mean ???"
"I'm here love, done cooking your breakfast. I'm with manang and kuya Maru." Then I heard them giggle.
Gosh! He's really here !! That's why I quickly took Soobin down and kissed him first before going to the bathroom to wash and brush his teeth. I haven't changed my pj's because it's a holiday and no work.
Edi it means manang and kuya heard him sing?
After that, I gave myself a few deep breaths before leaving the room and going downstairs.
When I went down there was no one in the living room, but I heard a noise from the kitchen so I went there.
I saw Zarius doing something in a counter while kuya Maru and Manang talking to him.
"It's wrong! She only puts a spoonful of sugar in her son's milo!" I leaned against the door jamb while enjoying watching Zarius with his forehead still furrowed.
"What? Its too much manang! It will cause her to diabetes!" I secretly smiled. It's obvious that manang is cheating on him. Hell! I don"t put sugar in the milo!
"Wrong! Maam doesn't put any sugar in the milo." When older brother Maru interjected.
Zarius looked around at the two and didn't know who to follow, his spoon filled with sugar was still stuck in the air.
"You're wrong Maru! I'm the one who's here in the kitchen most of the time so I can see that kid's mixing!"
That's why I couldn't avoid breathing because if I made a noise I might start a fight. They all got my attention, they even smiled when they saw me while Zarius was biting his lip.
I crossed my arms below my boob, and raised an eyebrow at her.
"Witweew, here's Ser's young lady ..." I ignored brother Maru's annoyance.
"That's why my son is blooming now, here's the girlfriend ..." I couldn't help but wince at what manang said.
"Agree." What the hell, Zarius ?!
"All right, we're leaving and you can talk there ..." Manang said and they started walking inside. But they were about to leave when manang's pain stopped and faced again.
"Just talk ..." I heard brother Maru chuckled and followed manang.
The hell?
When they left completely, Zar and I were left alone, but I stood up straight when he released the fox and started approaching me. I felt my knees trembled, and I was forced to stand up. Gosh! The attack of his presence is really bad!
"Are we kidding?" I was stunned by what he said and I let a gasped in disbelief.
The idiot smiled and mimicked the position of my hand.
"Not yet!" And avert your gaze. I saw in my peripheral vision that he licked his lips.
Don't be weak, Ysla!
"Hmmm." I looked at him but I just stared at him. I got up straight and walked,
"Excuse me." I said coldly as I passed by her side to go to the fridge. I felt his obedience. Gosh! My knees still don't stop shaking! I feel like I'm palpitating! Eh, I rarely make coffee!
"I made you a milo ..." He said sexily while leaning on the side of the refrigerator and staring at me.
"You put too much sugar." He stood up straight and frowned.
"But manang said ---"
"You're so funny because. Tsk!" I was looking for fresh milk in the fridge but nothing!
"I will make you one again, c'mon." He still seems desperate to promise. I slammed the refrigerator shut and faced him.
"My taste has changed, I don't like milo anymore." I said rudely and walked back to the coffee maker.
But he immediately pulled it out of me. What the hell ?!
"What! Give it back!"
"No! Its bad for your health, Ysla!"
"I want coffee!" He still doesn't let go of it and looks at me irritably.
"Tsk, no coffee please ..." He said softly, I averted my eyes because I was only going to give a little! The hell Yslavien! Don't be weak until he tells you the truth!
"Fine." I blinked, I still remember Nahla's.
"That's up to you! Anyways, there's a convenient store nearby I can buy ---" He angrily dropped the coffee maker and pulled me and violently stuck me in the refrigerator.
"You're so stubborn, Ysla." I couldn"t help but gasp at what he said.
"And you're so dense!" I shouted in his face, I bravely stared into his dark eyes.
"Please, I don't want to fight with you this early. After you eat, lets talk." He said calmly, he tried to touch my cheek but I avoided. I pushed him but he held too tightly.
"Zarius! I'll eat, how can I eat then?" I saw his smile before I was finally released.
I just sat down at the table and ate, only now I noticed that there was a hotdog, eggs and the fried telong and fried rice.
"I'll make you a milo." I no longer complained. Something was already on a plate so I just ate there. Infareness, the fried rice is as delicious as the chow king, the chao fan.
I looked at him when he put the milo in front of me, I immediately smelled it as if he was drinking but I restrained myself. He settled himself with my faithful and watched me eat.
I can't even eat well because I'm miserable!
I saw her smile when I finished eating because I finished her fried food! Gosh! All down! How can I ate that all? Really, Ysla?
I was putting away what I had eaten when he held my hand.
"Let me wash this."
"Let me." But he was stronger so he got my plate. In the end I just let it do that. I didn"t leave the kitchen and just watched him wash the dishes.
I admired him for being this kind of guy, he can do the house chores too. I don't think anyone knows or can't do a to.
He whistled while washing, then glanced at me.
"Is it over yet?" She stopped washing the dishes, and turned to me.
"What?"
"Is it time to be your wife?" My jaw almost dropped. God! What's with him today ?!
"Wouyyy! Nice ser nice stretch! At the same time wash this cup of mine." Suddenly, older brother Maru came in and put a mug in the sink.
My face is blushing for sure!
"No brother Maru, don't shiver." I could hear the mock sadness in her voice.
Brother Maru looked at me, and smiled when he saw me look away.
"No sir, ma'am is blushing!"
Gosh!
I saw Zarius shrug and dance as he washed the dishes.
"Baby, get dressed already." He said as the dishes were being stacked.
"And why ?!"
"Wear your wedding gown, cause its our wedding day today." Then he winked. My face blushed even more, and I couldn't stop myself from throwing my slippers at him.
"I hate you!" Then he marched out.
"I love you too!" I heard him shout.
But admit it, Ysla! You're thrilled! You are fragile!
I went up to pick up Soobin, I'll just bathe him now in the pool area.
When I got him I went down.
"My baby is going to take a bath ..." Then I kissed Soobin as I went down the stairs. I looked around for Zarius.
Not in the living room, I just went to the pool area and I could see on the glass wall that he was there and watering? And God! He's shirtless!
What's wrong with him now? Is he on drugs? We have maids to do that!
It's true that I met a maid.
"Hey, who said water that?" At the same time I sniffed at Zarius who was dancing a watering dance.
"Ah maam, I'm sorry sir insisted." Then he bowed, I just didn't answer and left. When we were at the door of the pool area, Soobin was moving as if he wanted to get away.
"Soobin why?" But it barked loudly as Zar turned to look at us.
I finally let go of my dog ​​and went in Zar's way, its tail wagging at Zar's feet. He kneeled down just to pat Soobin's hair.
"Hey baby, how are you? Daddy missed you so much ..." Then he looked at me, I averted my eyes. You will bathe Soobin, Ysla!
"Soobin ..." I tried to call her name, but he was busy talking to Zarius! As if, Ysla!
I can see his foolish grin. N seems to like what is happening.
Instead, he picked it up.
He let go of the hose and approached me while carrying Soobin, Gosh he's wet he probably already has Soobin's other feathers!
"You're dripping wet, Zarius!" I shouted, I backed away when he was in front of me. It's good that he hasn't moved yet.
"You're going to bathe our daughter?" I was stunned by his question. Gosh! Why does he have to be so malandi ?!
"Eh what about you?"
Tumikhim sya. "Can I join you both?" When I looked at him, he bit the bottom of his lip. Goodness! I felt my cheeks burning up. Annoying! The toy!
"Only Soobin can take a bath," I muttered.
"Will you take a bath?" He can play with another question. What's wrong with him today ?!
"Over and over again?!" I turned to him and glared.
"Me too." He said it, not a question! Damn! Very good! The toy!