Chapter 23

"How was your fucking date?" He asked, then his jaw clenched. I don't know if I'll be annoyed or laugh at his reaction. Whatever the angle or movement of his face, he is really handsome. Arrrgh! What am I thinking that anyway ?!
"Date? It's not a date."
"Really? Then he drove you home, you even hanged up the phone. And you didn't even bother to tell me that you have a fucking date. Wow." He frowned at what he was saying. What is the problem of a to?
"I told you it's not a date! That's why I didn't tell you because I knew you were coming ----"
"That's the point Sha, I don't want you to come with that asshole alone!"
"Instead of us being able to talk about my coffee shop you always intrude!" He held his jaw as if he couldn't believe what I was saying. Then he averted his eyes, he even looked up at the sky. Haysss, maybe I'm missing her boyfriend. I took a deep breath and came even closer to him, I hugged him and I felt him stiffened for a moment.
"I'm sorry, don't be angry. Promise next time, I'll tell you then you'll come."
"It should be!" Then I just nodded, I separated from him, I saw his eyes go to my neck. He just saw me wearing the necklace he gave me, he held it using his right hand then caressed it.
"It is perfectly beautiful." While looking at my necklace, he looked up at the sky. I looked up to the sky to, to find out that the moon is watching us. The pendant of my necklace is the same as this month.
"You know, moon is our only witness." He said while still looking on the necklace, then he look at me.
"Why?"
"He witnessed my love for you since the first time I met you. Grade 11, 9:04 in the evening on the school soccer field I first saw you." I looked at him in surprise.
"I saw you when I was on my way going home that day, you were sitting on the bleachers while holding bunch of your books. Then you were silently crying, even the distance between me and you couldn't escape because of your tears. "Then I looked up at the sky, that the moon is the reason why your tears are shining and why I can see. I saw you at your worst, and the moon is the witness too." I bit my lip, I remembered that it was late at night but I haven't been home yet. I think a lot, but if he didn't remind me, I would have forgotten.
"In the twinkling of an eye I saw you then, when the night came I was accidentally stunned and then I looked at the sky, I could always see the moon like that as if it was the one giving the sign to follow you always. Looks like moon is the only proof of how much I love you, everytime I saw you sad well as usual you are like that. " I scolded him. "The moon always reminds me of saken, as if he's always behind me and supporting saken. Then alta vista happened, that night, I told you. But I didn't expect that to happen, that I interfered in life mo ---- "
"Sssshhh no, that's not your fault. I should be the one sorry for us, I was so dense and numb. I don't feel how other people feel. In fact, if it wasn't for you we wouldn't be getting along with dad and maybe swallowing I'm still sad today. " Then I held his face using my right hand, still holding his hand on my necklace.
"I thought then, moon wasn't fucking true. I'm used to him being my sign to you, like I said I never gave up. Then now." He looked at the moon again. "Moon witness it again." The he chuckled then looked at Saken again.
"Like what I've told you in Alta Vista, I am your Luna. And you are my Luna too, The Luna's reminded of me and you. Yours is the light by which my spirit's born: - you are my moon, and all my stars. This sky is the witness of my forever love for you, just like this sky my love is endless. Just look up, we are both under the same starry sky. " That's what he said when we were in Alta Vista. So I could no longer restrain myself I squatted so I could reach her lips.
I kissed him with all my heart, with full of passion, and love. I closed my eyes and feel his lips on mine. Eventually I felt his response to my kiss that made me smile. My two hands went up to his shoulders while his was on either side of my waist.
We are both panting when we decided to parted our lips. He's looking at me intently, his looks are crazy and he seems to be saying don't get lost with him.
"I love you, Chaos Ethan Walterson. Thank you for coming into my life. Thank you for changing my worst life into the happiest life, thank you for showing me how to be loved and forgive. You give me a reason to live, you gave I have a reason to fight again against everything that can go down saken. " This is the first time that I finally said the three words.
"Ate I'm nervous." I looked at Sherina in the back seat. We're on our way to Dad's house, and we're having dinner. Chaos will just take us there and he will go home, I invited him but he said it is our family time besides they still have practice. So I just agreed.
"She, don't be okay? He's our dad."
"Yeah, your sister's right. You can be with your dad again. You can also meet your two brothers." I nodded at what Chaos said, he held my hand using his free hand. As for me, I feel very, very nervous right now but I just don't make it obvious. Especially now that I can see Claire and her two children.
Sherina sighed.
When Chaos parked his car in front of Dad's big house, he also got out immediately after we got off.
"Hey don't be so nervous. This is your chance, so don't miss it." As he caresses my shoulder. He probably felt my nervousness too. Sherina was just next to me.
"I know, don't you really want to come with us?" I asked as he nodded.
"Nah, there's still next time." So I just nodded.
"I love you." He said then kissed my head.
"I love you too."
She opened together, their grand house, and everything we see I can really say will be loved. Even their grand staircase is super grand too, and the glowing chandeliers at the top. Their assistant met us earlier and led us inside. Then we saw them standing in the living room, as if waiting for us to return. The other is obviously the same age as Sherina while the other boy is only five years old. I must say, daddy has a perfect family.
Maybe it was Claire and Dad who approached us.
"My children." Dad was happy to say and Sherina hugged us both, I left but I was surprised to look at Sherina who was still hugging Dad tightly. Daddy smiled at me and hugged Sherina in return. I scolded Claire with a big smile, she was too shy when she looked at the type of woman who didn't seem to have broken a plate. It's too double.
"Daddy ..." I heard Sherina say. I smiled again, I felt happy for Sherina. She deserves it.
"Sssshhh it's okay Daddy is here. I'm sorry to the people I'm not with you but from now on I promise to make up for my shortcomings with you two." When he was released together.
"Come, I'll introduce you to your two sisters. But before that, this is your Aunt Claire."
"It's true Edward, your children are so beautiful." He was happy to promise, I don't see anything plastic in him so I think what he shows is true.
"Thank you ma'am."
"Oh don't call me ma'am. Call me mommy instead." I seemed to feel joy in my heart the moment he said that. Sherina and I were immediately thrilled.
"This is Eisly, you're the same age Sherina." Eisly gave the same smile. They seem to bring a smile to their mother, their faces are so simple but you will be attracted to their faces.
"A-ahm hello, nice to meet you." He was still ashamed of the promise.
"This is your sister Shaina and Sherina."
Then we went to the boy's side.
"This is Edge, Edge this is your ate Shaina and ate Sherina." But the boy did not speak and just bowed.
"Hi." I would have touched him but he hid behind Mommy Claire.
"Ahm, I'm sorry, that's how he really is when he sees something he doesn't know yet." Embarrassed mommy Claire promises.
"He still can't talk, Shaina." Dad said we both looked at him.
"He's already five years old but we've never heard him speak. He's just crying and if he needs anything, he'll just point it out." I looked at Edge who was still hiding behind Mommy Claire. Mommy Claire just smiled bitterly.
"C'mon let's eat!" He just promised and we all went to the dining room to eat. There was a lot of food ready on the table, if only my aunt was with us but she also refused because she wanted us to have a bonding with Dad. Daddy is still the same, he's still naughty and it's just nonsense that's why we hear mommy Claire's fragrant laugh. No doubt Dad liked her, but at the same time I also miss mommy.
I also found out that Eisly is also graduating, it's good that the date of her and Sherina's moving up is different so everyone can attend. Somehow Sherina and I have adjusted to their family, talking and sometimes laughing. I could see Sherina's laughter that really gave joy to my heart. I can just see he's happy, I'm okay.
Just stare at their smiles, this is the thing I never asked God before, I thought I would be sad for the rest of my life. But God did not allow that to happen. True, everything happens for a reason. Because the sorrows you are going through are only given by God to test. God does not give us a test that we cannot bear.
So like I was hopeless then, changed. The Lord will give you someone to change your life. I thought then don't let someone change you, but I was wrong. Ever since I met Chaos my life has changed a lot. Nash was right, I am just afraid to admit it I am just afraid.
There was so much joy in my heart. From now on, I no longer believe that forgiving people is something that is not easy to do. Because you always think that they don't deserve that pare, I'm wrong, the pain you feel will be relieved and alleviated if you forgive and there is no weight in your heart.
Because the only way to not get you broken is to forgive and let go of the things that keep hurting you.
From my seat and with a large, mirror I could see their garden. I could also see the beautiful sky, which was full of stars.
Then I saw the moon, my Chaos.
I held my necklace while looking at the moon.
"Thank you." I whispered then smiled.

To be continued...