Chapter 62

"Mama faster please!" I was upset with my son who was in a hurry. He woke me up earlier because he was excited now. I'm just fixing our equipment.
"Papa's here already!" I stopped putting on other clothes when I heard his name again. Gosh! Why am I always nervous? I also feel happy to think that I will see him again. I cant help to blush when I remembered our texts last night!
That's why I'm wide awake because we talk all night! At three o'clock we were asleep. And gosh! It's five o'clock in the morning! I only slept for two hours.
"Mama, papa's waiting for us ..." I returned to myself when my son had been touching me for a while. When I entered everything I zinipper and faced him.
"You go first son, mama comes next. Where is Aunt Lani?"
"She's still cooking mama." Crap! I forgot to help Lani too! Annoying. Nakakahiya tuloy.
"Okay, mama's next." He nodded. I looked at him when he took something from the table. I laughed when I saw that the life jacket was there.
When he came out, that's when I woke up. Get well Ysla! I took my clothes off the bed and went straight to the bathroom, but before I entered I went through the mirror. I even wondered if I would stop or not. But eventually I just found myself examining myself in the mirror.
"Stop it, Ysla!" I even slapped myself. Then go straight to the bathroom.
The moment I did in the bathroom, I just wore a polo croptop with a ribbon on the chin and a white denim shorts. I don't know but I found myself sitting on my dresser and applying lip tint.
When I opened the drawer the small box did not escape me. I slowly picked it up and looked at it.
It was the necklace and engagement ring that given by Zar. I remember what I did before, it was his birthday but I hurt him. I was led by my cowardice then.
Isn't it possible that I still love her that Mommy is right? But what about Dash? He trusted me, I love him right? I looked at the ring he gave me. I felt my heart again, I was confused.
"Why is it always so messy?"
"Mom! Faster please!" I quickly returned my hold and hid it in the drawer and hurriedly stood up. I took the bag and went out once to get off.
I was just on the stairs when I heard his voice. It's just his voice but it's getting worse when my chest is beating.
Stop beating please! I'm afraid she might hear ... It's enough for Ysla to rely on her! You have Dash already and he's leaving!
"Papa you bring your guitar? Can you teach me how to do that next time? I wanna learn that po!" I heard Zari when I finally got down.
"Sure baby ..." Zar sat on the sofa while Zari stood in front of him. I felt joy in my heart when he kissed our son's forehead. I even saw Zari's smile.
"Papa I love you po." I restrained myself from crying at what Zari said. She really loves her dad. So how can we leave our son in such a situation? I was touched in my heart when I felt pain at the thought that he was also leaving.
"I love you too ..." Zarius replied.
"Mom!" I smiled when my son saw me. He ran towards me. I averted my eyes as Zar stood up and stared at me.
"Mama did you put tint on your lips?" I looked at Zari when he pointed to my lips.
"Is it bad?"
"No! Mama you look more beautiful!" I laughed at his answer. I pinched her cheek.
"Mama could you put that on me too?" At the same time, he pointed to his lips.
"But ---"
"Please mom, even its just a little." I could do nothing but take out the tint and put it on my lips as well.
When I put him in, he pulled me to sit on the sofa where Zarius was. Her dad was already sitting, so we couldn't help but put our arms together when I sat down. The two of us looked at each other, the face still serious as I did not know what it looked like.
"Mama put that on me!" I just averted my eyes when Zari spoke again. But I shivered when I put him on because I could still feel the piercing that Zarius looked at me.
"Mom!" I was stunned when I went a little overboard because Zarius was still trending towards me! It seemed intentional that our arms were touching!
"I'm sorry son ..." I wiped the pass once. I can't fight inside me anymore because we're really close! Our legs touching already too! I was tickled by the fur on his legs! My gosh! Could someone give me air to breath?
I looked at him for a moment, he was smiling like a dog and that's when I realized that he was really annoyed!
"Mom, am I beautiful like you?" Zari asked when I finished applying it. I was about to answer when I felt Zarius' shoes tickling the part of my foot up to my leg.
My goodness! What the fuck is he doing ?!
"O-of course!" I replied to Zari that I simplified to pinch him on the side because of what he was doing but the bastard continued to do what he was doing to my leg! Mygosh! Zari's just in front of us!
"Mama why is your face so red? Are you blushing?" I just want the earth to swallow me because of my son's question. I just bowed because I didn't know what to answer. Especially and I heard the laughter of his good father!
"Yes baby, look your mama's shy." I heard Zar.
"Mama why are you shy?" Zari touched my cheek and faced her. Out of the corner of my eyes I could see his playful grin as Zari and I watched!
"I love you mama!" I just smiled when Zari hugged me.
"Ahm ---" Zarius was cut off when my phone rang. On the messenger, I immediately took it from the bag.
I was nervous when I saw Dash was called. I looked at Zar's behavior and saw him avert his gaze and move away from me. I was suddenly hurt.
"Mama is that Dada?" I nodded to Zari.
"Excuse me ..." Zar didn't answer. I even saw the darkening of his eyes as he stared into space. I took a deep breath first before standing up and answering Dash"s video call. I left the house.
"Hi!" I forced the voice to brighten up as the cam faced me.
Dash's stern face flashed at me. He was wearing a bonnet and seemed to be leaving.
"Good morning." He just answered.
"Are you leaving?" I will ask. He nodded. He stared at me as if examining, I don't know but I felt his strange aura even though the distance between us was far.
"Are you leaving too? Oh its Shiela's birthday. Who's with you?" He asked. I just forgot to say goodbye to him! Gosh Laraya Yslavien!
"D-dash sorry I f-forgot to tell ---"
"Who's with you?" He didn't finish speaking to me and asked again.
"Zar ..." the tension in his jaw couldn't escape me.
"Okay, take care."
"I l-love you, Dash. Please dont be like this."
"I know, but not as expensive as him. I gotta go, be careful." I couldn't answer when he finally answered.
I just closed my eyes. What are you doing Ysla?
I want to talk to Dada, mama! "I looked behind me when Zari appeared.
"He killed me right away, son." He suddenly frowned at what I said.
"Where's your dad?" I will ask.
"He is inside please." Then we went inside together. We caught him fixing the guitar. He did not turn to us when we entered.
"Papa!" Zari ran towards him so he looked at it. He couldn't even look at me.
I heaved a sigh before walking through them. I was about to sit down when Lani came out of the kitchen.
"Ready sister, let's go?" He was already carrying a bag and what he cooked. So I went straight to him to get the paper bag containing the dish but I was ahead.
"Let me." It was Zarius. His tone was just cold and he wasn't looking at me who took the paper bag and turned his back.
"Edi you are." I whispered as I looked behind him.
"Hmmm." I looked at Lani who coughed next to me. I frowned and went back to Zari and I's bag.
"Baby baka masira yan." Zari was playing the guitar, he was still pulling the strings so they wouldn't break.
"Why does it be so tight mama?" He asked.
"I don't know either son." My answer.
"Let's go baby." Zarius spoke. He first put the paper bag on the center table because he needed to put the guitar back in its case. Lani came out first. While Zari and I were waiting for Zarius.
"Papa you'll sing later?" I heard Zari ask her father. I just wore the bag I was carrying on my shoulder.
"Nope ..."
"Come on, titq Lani's waiting for us." I took Zari's hand but I immediately let go because I felt the hand was big! I immediately looked at Zarius who frowned at what I had done. I just bit my lip at what I did. Tanga!
I was about to pull my son's hand when he preceded me to take Zari out.
"Mama lets go!" Zari invited me while her father was pulling her. Tsk! So according to me I did nothing but follow. I locked the house. They are all in the car. The Wrangler we used to go, the one with Dash. The road is a bit steep before reaching Talon and the car can't handle it.
I turned to them first when I locked the gate. But small! Zarius was looking at me! That was a wrong move! I was even more nervous when I saw him wearing shades while holding the steering wheel! Oh god!
That's why I was so nervous that I couldn't enter the key correctly.
"Mama faster please!" Zari shouted accompanied by the horn of the bastard so I let go of the key.
"What!" He just shrugged. To my annoyance maybe the key was already included. I briskly walked and rode. Because Zari was in the harao and next to her, I was just behind where Lani was.
When I entered, Lani's eyes were already closed while an earphone was plugged into her ear.
"Yey !!!" Zari shouted happily. I looked in the rearview mirror and it was really wrong again! The animal is looking at me again! I stared at him and just sat down.
After a while, he turned on the wrangler and left. It takes thirty minutes before we go there. The atmosphere was not quiet and there was no need for a soundtrip because our son was there who was too loud. There is so much energy in the body, he talks about what he does every day and what else.
Zar answers once, it's good that he's not irritated by Zari's talkativeness. I don't know where our son inherited, I can't talk more about Zarius.
"Hey come here Laraya!" I heard Shiela. I was just looking at them in the water who were swimming. Even Zarius was there watching over our son. I was the only one in the hut while they were all suswimming! Earlier I had to get dressed, I saw I already had one! Fortunately, I brought a napkin.
I still don't want to take a bath and I have one.
"No, I'm just fine here!" I shout. Shiela just shrugged her shoulders and continued swimming. Zarius hasn't looked at me yet, it's a good thing he didn't think of getting naked! He is still wearing a shirt.
It's like I'm a fool here pretending to just look at them. Zari mayat maya come back here just to invite me but I refuse. Menstruation is really annoying!
It's good that Stacy can swim with Paris. Earlier, he was planning to wear a swimsuit, I still rented him. But when he came out of the bathroom earlier, he was wearing only a t-shirt and shorts just above his knees. Paris just followed him.
I just took Zari's iPod from the bag and played his useless games. Joke.
It's purely girly, but I just played with makeup like makeups.
"Why don't you swim?" I looked at the one beside me. And it was Zarius, he was looking at me seriously. I wondered who was with Zari.
"Wait, who's with Zari?" I looked at the waterfall and saw the two kids were with Paris and Stacy.
"Why don't you swim?" I sat up straight when he moved to sit next to me so we could stick together again.
"What's so hot!" But instead of going away, being beaten up is even worse for me!
"Answer my question." He said.
"Eh k-kase ..." wait what can I say? The ugly thing is when I'm menstruating. Arg!
"Kasi?"
"I have m-mens ..." he was silent for a moment and just nodded.
Once again silence prevailed over us. I just put down the iPod before he imitated what he was doing. Where he watches people at the waterfall. Even Zari could see the joy on her face
"W-when are you leaving?" I asked him out of nowhere.
He looked at me, I could see no other expression on his face. At the thought that he would leave me, I didn't know what to do.
"One week after Zari's birthday."
Wait that fast? We'll only see him in two weeks ?!
"Have you told Zari yet? What if he gets hurt?" He turned again to the waterfall where the people were.
"I don't know how to tell her, actually."
"Why do you have to leave ?!"
"I already told you."
"If you really love our son you won't leave him, Zarius. How is Zari? You've only been with him for a while and then you'll leave again?" He looked at me again.
"K-if I didn't leave, would you choose me?" I fell silent and averted my eyes.
"I-I can't, Ysla. Seeing you with someone else is hurting me too much. Do you think I'll keep an eye on you while she's talking? A-and you're getting married ..." her voice weakened.
I'm hurting. I want to say oh God! Mali!
"B-but what about Zari?"
The expression on his face softened and he looked at me again. I don't know but little by little I can read all the emotions in his eyes.
"Stop hurting me, stop hurting us. Do you really love him?" I was nervous about his question.
"What?"
"Stop lying to yourself, be true to how you feel please. If you choose to stay with him you know the result non Ysla." I was no longer able to answer when he suddenly stood up.
I was left stunned again as I followed his back away.
I was floating all day. I don't even remember anything but the fact that Zarius and I were alone.
When we got home by car, Zari was already asleep, we spent the night. Zar just carried him into the house and laid him down in the room.
"Ate, I'm already asleep." Lani promised when we entered.
"Sige Lani." I answered and followed Zarius again as he climbed the stairs.
I just stared at him while fixing Zari. When he had laid Zari down and the blanket had been fixed, he would come out.
"W-wait ..." he stopped but still kept his back to me. I've been feeling her cold on me before.
I tried to hold his arm. I was still able to breathe easily without him removing my hand.
"U-are you going home?"
"Yes." He answered quickly.
"C-cause ..." I was about to remove my hand when he touched it. I was shocked when he turned around and quickly pulled me and stuck me to the wall!
Oh my Gosh!
"Z-zarius ..."
"I can feel you still love me, Ysla. Stop denying it." He whispered. I don't know but I slowly closed my eyes when I saw him slowly bend down.
Until I actually felt the application of our lips.
At this time my heart rate was different again. It's so different from the twing that Dash kisses me that only Zarius makes me feel.
I slowly wrapped my arms around his neck and pressed my lips even harder against his.
But we were stopped when the door spontaneously opened. Our lips parted when I saw the isanv familiar volume!
B-why is he here?
"D-dash ..." I was separated and released from Zarius.
He was still carrying some luggage and seemed to have just arrived. He was still holding a box of donuts in his other hand. I could not escape the tears in one eye.
Fuck! This is the first time I saw him cry! I could see no other emotion but the pain in his eyes. Gradually was the release of the box of donuts on the floor.
"Thank you for your welcome, Vien. You really surprise me." Her voice was bitter. Then he turned away. I was about to chase him when he grabbed me by Zarius' arm.
"Let me go, I need to talk to Dash." I tried to remove his hand.
"Don't hurt her anymore, tell her how you really feel Ysla."
"I-I can't ... Zarius please let me go. I need to talk to Dash."
"W-how am I, Ysla?" Her voice trailed off.
"W-how are we?" He asked again. I felt pain in my heart again. I really like Zarius, but I can"t afford to hurt Dash. Zari and I have made many sacrifices and this is the only way I know to make up for it.
"W-we don't have any." I made a firm promise, his hand gradually loosened. I couldn't escape her tears before I finally left.