Chapter 64

EPILOGUE
"Bruh! News I have freshmen in the HRM department today ah?" Kaizent said, we're walking on our way to Caf to eat our lunch. I'm with Chaos, Zyke, Zyle and the two Juarez which is Kaizent and Eleven.
"You stop fucking drooling over freshmen, Kaizent!" Chaos said. I just got bored walking with them, well in fact I was curious too about these freshmen. Kaizent keeps saying her name in front of us, and I dont know if he had a crush on her.
"Mga bru, if only y'all see her! Drop dead gorgeous! The first time I laid my beautiful green eyes on her, she already captivated my innocent soul." We were almost disgusted with what Kaizent said.
"Stop being pussy, Juarez." Eleven said while chuckling.
"You're a Juarez too, idiot." Kaizent, my cousin and I were just shaken.
"Just, if you have a chance to meet her. She has a pair of blue eyes and has dimples." I was shaken again.
That was the first time I met her, though not personally but based on Kaizent's over reacting talks I must say she is really a goddess.
"Tangina ganda ng chix pre! Di talaga ako nag sisisi dito ako nag aral!" One time, I was walking through the hallway when I hear some jackass murmuring about something or I think someone?
I suddenly stopped from walking and tightly held my guitar bag on my shoulder. The bumps are leaning against the railings and only looking in one direction. And the moment I finally gazed my sight on her, all became a slowmo. Looks like the world stopped, everyone is gone and all I can see is just her.
For a few minutes I watched the beautiful young lady walk by. The way she twinkled her eyes, the way she walks, and the way she flipped her hair. I can't see in his face that he grabs attention, especially from men.
"You see that pre! Tangina, the cute dimples just opened their mouth a little." I heard the dumbass again. But I just ignored her and turned my attention back to the beautiful woman, she was holding a bunch of books. And I don"t know but I"m irritated by his uniform wearing! Her legs were fully exposed! And I dont want that!
Oh god, stop being possessive Zarius, she is not yours. Do you think such a beautiful woman will hit you? But why not right? When he passed, I just felt my breath return. Like I lost time, what the hell is happening with me ?!
I shook my head and decided to turn my back and get to Moonground. Before I step on my foot, I once again heard a bugok mention a name that really stopped me.
"Isn't Laraya beautiful?"
Laraya. The moment I heard her name, my heart beat faster. This was the second time I heard my heart beating again.
After that day he never left my mind, if Chaos obviously liked Shaina, I wouldn't. I"m still too stupid to admit how I feel. As much as I like her, I get her full sched in the registrar's office. I also took the subject where he was my classmate. Isn't it weird or creepy?
And in the twing to open up the topic the naughty Juarez about Yslavien I change, yes I finally get her full name. Im such a good stalker of hers.
In the evening, Owy's birthday will be held at their house. I don't even want to go because I'm busy stalking Ysla's social medias account. And kanina, I had a talk with Nahla. She wants me again, but I clarify and clear all the things between me and her. I loved her, but we both know that this is incest and a sin.
I have long forgotten, after I realized everything and the wrong I have done. She wants me back, but I don't want to.
I was about to leave the house when my phone rang, it was Seven the fucker!
"What ?!"
"Tanginaka, where are you? You're important again, your birthday?" I was just shaken by what he said.
"Yeah fucker, I'm on my way ...." I promised.
"Sus gasgas na yan tol." Ani nya pa.
"Seriously ?!" When I got out of the gate, I was holding the door handle of my car.
"Yeah stupid, lots of chix here! Blue eyes are here!" It's nice to have a to no? Well, it just broke me, because he saw that I was stalking Ysla on instagram.
"Ugh tsk! Okay okay!" Then I hung up the phone, I really don't want to go! But I feel like someone is watching me? So I looked around and try searching whoever is it.
Then I saw it, he tried to hide in the plants there but failed.
That night, it was only then that I had the opportunity to get a closer look at her beautiful face. I used to always watch him from afar, so now I tried to convince myself to stay quiet. Well in fact, my heart is pounding because finally I get the chance to see her this closely.
I also found out that we were just neighbors so I was even more excited.
After that night, I couldn't focus on Owy's birthday because my brain was empty if it wasn't for him and no one else.
"That seat is already occupied." She said grumpy when I took the chair beside her, gosh she's cute! But I act cold so that he doesn't notice that I like him. When our eyes met I saw his eyes widen and he immediately turned away.
And I can"t help but be happy, so I have effect on her?
But I dont know I couldn't stop myself from staring at her beautiful face, it was just like she's a beautiful scenario that cant take my eyes on her.
"This chair doesn't have name, miss stalker." She looked at me with disbelief, God! She's so fucking cute! Well in fact, Im real the stalker between us!
I stopped staring at him because he might melt. I'm too gay to thrill damn!
"Hey! The thickness of your face to say that I am your stalker!" I wanna laugh at her! She's so conyo! Her voice, im inlove with her voice too. I just keep myself from smiling whenever she"s around.
And I was even happier when I had the opportunity to be with him when he had a dog.
The days went by and I couldn't even get into the subject that he was my classmate, fuck! I missed her!
Nash keeps throwing me false accussation!
"Zarius I thought you're over with her already ?!" Nash said coldly when we were outside the house.
I was just quiet.
"Stop using and hurting Nahla! He's our brother! Stop what you're doing!" Napaismid naman ako, if you only knew.
I already move on, I am in love with someone else now. So the size of my anger at my family, they never trusted me. My mistake is always what they see even if I do good.
Then one night came, Ysla found me on park. His favorite place is also the park in the village. Because of my problem, I was able to tell others about him, well in fact I don't tell others about the problem, but when it comes to him? Everything changes.
I was also a little hurt when I found out he was afraid of me, I was angry inside me because he already knew Nash. I rarely smile but he makes me smile.
"So your father's a lawyer? Should I ready myself when I face your dad?" I almost punched myself because I was so horny, Kaizent would get hit once. I'm already infected with that bug.
"A-what are you doing here?" I asked coldly. This is the day someone beat me in the back of the building, because he thinks that I stole his slut girlfriend. As if I would flirt with that bitch. I knew she was there watching us, I dont want to see me like this. I dont want to show her the real me. She might be scared, and I dont want that to happen.
"You have wounds." I heard her angelic voice once again, it makes me love her more. I dont fucking care if I lost so many bloods that running down from my face, as long as she's beside me. She looks worried and concern and that makes me happy.
"W-wait! I'll just look for first aid there!" She was about to stand when I suddenly grab her arm thag makes her to look at me.
"I told you to stay away from me, didn't I?" I wanna punch myself for telling this words to her, while it is still early I dont her near to me. Im a horrible person, I would bring some trouble if she continue acting like this.
I still remained cold, she looks so worried as if she doesn't want to leave me.
"No! You need help!" He shouted.
"I dont need your fucking help! I dont need anyone's help!" I shouted her. Fuck! Stop yourself Zarius! I saw her eyes widened, and later on it was replaced by anger on the face. That time, he just didn't know how much I restrained myself from kissing him. Damn! I lost my words again, I found myself falling and falling again.
"L-let me go. This is what you want right?" Fuck! She's fucking cryinv and this is all my fault! What did you fucking do Zarius ?!
"Yes, but you changed it. Fuck!" I said immediately and hugged her tightly. Yes baby, you really changed my plan and all. When it comes to you everything changes.
I was so happy because finally someone accepted who I am even I have so many flaws. That's where I loved him even more.
"Zarius, isn't it really possible? Is it true that someone else loves you?" When I got home from the delivery at Ysla"s house, I found Nahla sitting on the couch.
"What are you doing here?" I asked her, I saw her wipe her cheek then stood up and faced me.
"Zarius, I said I still love you, didn't I? I'm going to fight for the two of us." I was a little excited because I no longer felt anything in my body. Before, when he was with me, the joy I felt was different but not like now. Because I knew to myself that I love Ysla so much.
"Come home, Nahla. I have a girlfriend already, and I told you that our love before was a sin."
"No! I don't care about that!"
"Fuck do you hear yourself ?! Please, I love my girlfriend so much. Just forget me, forget our past. We both know it was incest." She is still crying today.
"Nahla!" I shouted when he took the vase and broke it, he took a piece of it and put it on his wrist
"Nahla please, don't do this!"
"I love you so much, Zarius! It's just me again."
"Nahla ..." It's too late because he lost his wrist and fell to the floor. I acted quickly and lifted him immediately. There was so much blood strewn on the floor.
"Dad!" Sister Stellar shouted when Dad hit me.
We just came home from the hospital, Nahla was confined to the hospital for three days.
"How could you do this, Zarius ?! We trusted you! Did we think you already had a girlfriend ?! Why is that again ?! What are you using your girlfriend to use your sister ?! When are you dating ?!" I couldn't just speak.
"Janmyr ..." I saw my mother holding his arm.
That's all they know, you just don't know how much I love my girlfriend now.
"You're one month grounded! Even when you're big, we didn't raise you like this! No credit cards, cars or everything! Learn to work hard!"
"Janmyr!"
That's why I rarely feel like Ysla, I became a part timer of a fast food to earn money for my projects. I also experienced riding a train, jeeps, or tricycle because the torture that Dad gave me lasted even longer.
Many challenges have gone through our relationship and we have overcome them all together. That is why I am so grateful when someone like him came into my life.
"Where's your fucking girlfriend dude?" I threw a pillow at Zyke.
"I don't have a girlfriend."
His reaction was what I received from them. What are they thinking?
"Are you breaking up? You've been together for two years ah? You're really a womanizer!" This is Arkuss.
"Fuck you! She's not my girlfriend cause she's my wife." Next pillow I received from them.
"Stupid!"

"Tanginamo! Your corny fool!" I just laughed while digging the bosx of the ring in my pocket, I was ready to propose because I'm sure she's my lifelong that she is my rule and everything.
But I thought everything's okay, I always notice how often he avoids me. Last time I remembered, I didn't do anything wrong. Because I keep the band together and when I study I think I'm losing time with him, but I always make a way to be with him.
"Is that so? Is it because I'm getting busy? I'm working my way up, right, love?" I couldn"t help but be offended by what I said. What was my problem?
I'm doing this for us, because he's the only one I want to be with while no one else is.
"Ysla ... If you want I'll quit the band ---" he stopped me immediately, I'll give up everything just don't let me go Ysla, I can't.
"No! That's what you don't do! Its your dream!"
"Its always you, you will always be my dream Ysla." Ever since you became mine, I have had no other dream but to build a good life and family with you.
"I've been getting tired of you for two years. Do you think it's okay for me to be busy? I don't want to."
"It's not just that! I'm tired of this fucking relationship! I don't want you anymore! I don't love you anymore!" I was froze, not knowing what to say
I just laughed.
"Then I can make you love me again! I will court you even it takes weeks, months or years until you finally answered me and love me!" Tangina, I will not allow! Will I still give up when I have already paid for you? Is everything that easy? Is it that easy to leave me?
"Why are you so naughty? I don't want to, do I? Go away."
"Yes, I'm sorry but I fell out of love. I love someone else now please let me go." I was surprised to be told that. Damn! I dropped the paper bag I was holding on the floor.
"W-who?" Even the truth is very painful to mariniv the name of the person he loves.
"Bench, on the days when you're always away, he's not with me. He's the one who fills in your gaps ..." the pain was stupid.
After that night, a few more days, weeks and months passed from my alcohol addiction. It seems to get worse now because of so much pain! I no longer attend the band or school.
He left me forever, my dream is gone. Why would I continue? Is it really that easy for me to leave and let go? I did everything, didn't I?
"When are you going to fix it ?! You're not going to study anymore ?! You've always been a burden since the beginning!" It's been a year since Ysla left me, my cousins ​​and I have all graduated but me? I still don't know where to turn my world again, I'm tired of being left by my dream of everything.
"Janmyr please, let's listen to our son's explanation first." I heard Mom said to Dad.
Dad just stared at me coldly.
Mom tried to hold my arm and I let go.
"Son, what's going on? Is about Ysla? I know you love her very much son, and I know she is your rule. You wouldn't be like this if she's not your rule, son." I averted my eyes.
Fuck this rule.
Tangina. I can't do anything, I'll just be rewarded for life? Will not love others? I'll be forever stuck with her? P-what if he loves others? How about me?
"N-nay ..." my knees weakened but I still tried to keep my courage to stand up. I don't want them to see my weak side, I don't want to show Dad that I am weak.
"Son ..."
"Why does it have to be hurt like this? Why do we have r-rule?" Instead of answering me, mom hugged me tight and there I cried on her shoulder.
My heart will be forever unchained. Where are you Ysla?
"What is it Zarius ?! That's just the way your life is ?! Your putangina woman has left you ----" I stood up angrily facing Kim.
"What did you say?" I asked a tough question, the shock was obvious on his face.
"Bruh calm down." I stretched my arm when Chaos touched me.
Kim laughed sarcastically.
"I wasn't wrong, that woman will ruin everything. I warned you before, didn't I? You're especially Zarius, but what did you hear?"
"You don't know any ---" he stopped me from speaking.
"Eh why did he ask me for money in exchange for leaving you ?!" At first I did not understand what he said but gradually I realized.
"A-what did you say?"
"Kim what are you saying ?!" I ignored him his reaction of my cousin.
He laughed and took something from the bag.
"This is proof that that Villarea looks like money! She signed the contract with me! She left you with the money I gave!" I slowly looked at the writing on the table, with his signature.
B-why? P-for the money?
I saw no reason then for him to leave me. K-I can give what you asked for to Kim Ysla. I can double or triple the fucking price!
"Fuck!" I took the contract unified torn torn.
"Cousin, that's right ..."
That's what I believe why he left me, can you blame me? It's his signature and I know him very well. But putangina despite what I found out I still love him! Damn this shit!
And then I met Sherina, little by little she also changed me because I see Ysla with her. I slowly rose from my dark world.
"Looks like you broke the rule, dude?" Zyke asked when we were in Moonstone building.
"Stupid." I promise to laugh at the same time.
"I see you're happy with Sherina." Vino said.
But no, I don't feel anything for She.
"Hays my cousins ​​are in the sink! Arkuss is there with Ivory, under the idiot too!" We frowned at Zyke.
"Fuck you you're inlove too, you're just afraid to admit it." We laughed at what her twin said.
"I-I l-like you, Zarius." Sherina said out of the blue when I was tuning the guitar.
He was standing behind me, so I slowly faced him. He is now bent over and playing with his fingers. Ysla is like this, she used to work like this.
"Sherina ..."
He slowly lifted his face and stared at me.
"T-it's true what I said yesterday, when I fought you with my sister." She said, I can't help but feel guilty for Shaina because Sherina chose me over her sister. I also don't know why he said that.
"Your ate's right, Sherina. You're just fifteen. Im a decade older than you, you know Im inlove with someone else right?" I know he will be hurt but the truth will wake him up.
"He left you, didn't he? I still hope that you will love others, Zarius. Age is just a number, it's okay for me to be your rebound, that's how I like you." Her tears flowed. No, you cant change our rule, Sherina.
Ysla will always be my rule no matter what.
I approached her and held her hand.
"She, you did something wrong to your sister. How do you think Shaina would feel that you chose me more? Your love for me is just an infatuation, serve your love for someone who's better than me. I love you as a friend or rather like my own little sister. " He lowered his gaze but I lifted his face and wiped away the tears.
"Save your tears, I'm not worth your tears." Little by little he smiled and hugged me.
"You fucking hoe, you really dated her?" Kaizent shouted at Eleven. We're at the bar now and they're getting along because of Architect Ocean's revised finished project.
"You had a crush on her when we were in college right?" Seven even teased Zent.
"Stupid don't I like it? Where." He drank beer at the same time.
We are now complete men with Juarez and others. Paris is gone because she followed Stacy to Ilocos.
"Wow congrats dudes on your band's new single!" This is Theo.
"Thank you!" Zyke and Zyle promise.
"Owy I heard there are a lot of good chix flight attendants now on the airline ah? How's being a pilot?" Kaizent walked over to Owy but Owy quickly removed him.
"Fuck you, I'm just like you." We laughed at Owy's answer.
"Looks like it's smelly wedding here eh! Dat there's still a party ah? Tas brought by chix!" Next the chips hit Seven's face.
"You're so stupid you haven't decided." This is Pillow.
"That's really stupid when you're young." We laughed again at what Ocean said.
"By the way, Dion seems to be next." Later Kaizent said.
Minutes later, Dion has arrived already.
"Woi bruh! Long time no see!" My companions promised that he would come in. I can feel something different with him.
"Yeah." He replied, he even managed to raise his arm. When he confessed to me, I don't know but I feel like there is someone else.
"Zar." He promised, I just nodded. I lost my mood and I don"t know why. I can no longer keep up with them.
"What's wrong with you Zarius ?!" Kim promised angrily when she came to my condo.
I ignored him and got up to go to the kitchen and he immediately followed me.
"Zarius, why didn't you attend the meeting ?! That's your contract! According to the biggest contract you can get!" He shouted, get me some water and drink. I still ignored him. Im tired of his rants, he's always dictating us about everything. He's just our uncle not our Dad!
"Zarius are you listening ?!" I turned around when I had finished drinking the water.
"And you're still stubborn, aren't you? You're still going out with that Sherina! I told you to stay away from her!" I walked, as if no one could hear.
"When are you going to listen ?! After the putanginang Villareal left you after I paid ----" there I stopped when I was about to sit down.
What did he say?
I slowly confronted him. I saw that he was also surprised by what he said.
"A-what did you say?"
"I ahm ..."
"Fuck! What the hell did you say ?!"
"Yes! I paid her and she accepts it! That woman looks like money, Zarius! She left you with your child ----" My eyes widened even more at what she said.
C-child?
"W-what c-child ..."
"You really didn't check her background huh? That's why she left you, she's pregnant with your child. She didn't want you to know, in fact she even asked me for money to provide for your child."
"She wont do that!" I am very angry.
"But she did already. Five years, Zarius. She didn't even bother to tell you that you have a child. Instead she runaway without telling she's carrying with your child!" My fist clenched. I don't feel angry, tangina. I'm very mad. Throughout the year, I did nothing but sulk without knowing I already have a child. Is heaven really that angry with me? Is that really my shortcoming?
"Where is he." My tough question.
"No, you can't go now."
"Just fucking tell me where is she!"
"In Alta Vista! She's with Dion!" I wasted no more time and left immediately. All I want now is to get my son! The five years he deprived me is enough. Even I have to get the best lawyer to have ny child I would! I don't care if his father is a lawyer.


"Do you want me to file a custody instead, Villareal? Even if your dad is a lawyer, I can do anything with the use of my money. You know I can do everything, if I bring it to court I will lose even more. you're right to my son. " I made a firm promise to him, and it's funny that they're from Dion's Manila. What the hell?
"My son too, Zarius!" I immediately laughed out loud.
"Yes I know it's my fault, but please don't take Zari! I'm not depriving you of her right ---" he added and I immediately stopped him.
"You fired me a long time ago, Villareal. It's time for me to take mine back, five years of being with my son is enough." Then I walked again. Zari seems to be up, God! My daughter.
He quickly followed me.
"Don't please! G-I'll do everything. Just don't take Zari please ..." My brain was closed to hear what he had to say. The moment I saw my daughter peacefully sleeping, I literally cried! Fuck! I didn"t know I would cry in the second person. I feel sorry for our son, p-how did he put up with our son without a father?
Are you really that heartless, Ysla? So in a rage I took Zari away from him. I'm glad because I quickly became close to my son. Even she's looking for her mom, my family accepted her easily.
"What right do you have to tell me that ?! Am I interfering with your girlfriend's life? Don't be clean because you're the one doing that to both of us! That's right, you're doing too much to judge my person. You don't know the truth, you prefer what your eyes see to knowing the truth! " He sighed when he said before, go ahead, just get mad at Villareal.
That's less than everything you did to me, but I'll make sure you still fail me.
"Please stop going back to then, we have her alive now. You have Sherina and I have Dash now." No, eversince I have not loved others. Just you, after I heard everything. I'm so stupid that I'm dating Kim again! Is it that easy for him again?
"How's Zari?" My face softened. My heart was aching badly, and only Ysla have the power to do this.
I can no longer see the twinkle in his eyes when I stare at him like we used to. Is she really, Ysla?
"Every day we explain to Zari the situation Zar." My blood boiled immediately.
"Fuck! You'll never know that! Our son is still young so now he still understands what if ----"
"Enlighten me! What do you want to happen? You already know the truth right? What else? Please I'm begging you, let's stop this quarrel, let's get along for our son. We have him alive. now. You love Sherina don't you? I love Dash too. " He loves Dash.
I get it. Life's so unfair. Fuck this rule.
How about me? I will be forever stuck with her. It"s scary as a Walterson, to love. Because there is no guarantee that you will be loved to the end by the woman you love. It was our curse, but with so many of us why me?
Im tired. I remember then when I beat Ivan.
Every night, I always go to him at the Walterson mansion. Thinking that maybe he was just hiding. I even went to San Francisco, but I didn't find a shadow of him. Where the fuck are you?
"Putangina Walterson, leave my cousin alone! Go home!" I didn't listen to him and slammed the gate even harder. Alright, im fucking drunk.
"Ysla! Love please come out, I know you're there ... baby please lets talk."
"Sir, please, ma'am Ysla is no longer here."
"Let me fucking go! Tangina!" When the guards started holding me. Ivan came out furiously.
"Do you want the truth?" I moaned.
"She's with someone else now, she doesn't love you anymore." In my anger, I ran away from the guards and rushed at him. I immediately punched him and hit him. That's what the Waltersons got, in their anger they managed to put me in jail. My case was non-bailable. My family wanted me released but I told them not to.
My life was full of mess and Chaos.
But I just thought that, because God would give me another chance. My waves is back, she's with my arms again. I really don't plan to leave him. Its just a plan, because I want him to think about everything. Fuck! I will not allow her to marry someone else!
What is mine is mine!
And finally, God heard my prayer that he would love me again. Because from now on I will not allow anything to stop the two of us, especially since we already have Zari
"Will you be my forever waves, and let me be your evening stars again, Ysla?" Then she said yes.
I'm so happy.
I was the unchained melody, but she came into my life and turn everything upside down. She makes me believe that true love exists.
Waves and stars are finally signing off ....