Chapter 54

Three days, and I haven't seen every inch of Zari. In three days I did not get tired or give up looking for them Zar. I miss my son, I haven't told any mommy that Zarius took Zari. I don't want to tell them anymore because I don't want to worry about them anymore.
"Eat first," I didn't look at Dash. Earlier we just came home from Manila. We tried to search Zarius but nothing really. And I don't know where to approach, even Stacy doesn't have any idea of ​​Zarius' whereabouts.
"Vien you still haven't eaten yesterday, how will you be able to see your child if you're starving yourself?" I can only look away from the veranda overlooking the blue sea. A lot of memories flashed back, on the beach Zari first walked then.
I remember him running there, chasing after Dash and me.
I stood up when I saw my son running.
"Mom, catch me please!" I immediately smiled.
"Zari wait for mama!" I was about to walk when someone grabbed my arm.
"Stop hallucinating things, Vien! Please eat what you need to strengthen to get your child back." I could see the anger in Dash's eyes as I struggled to pull my arm back.
"B-let me go, Dash. Can't you see? There's my son waiting for me!" He did not look at what I pointed out.
"Tangina, Vien please get organized!" Because of his shout, I seemed to wake up, the image of my son running on the beach disappeared. My tears flowed again, I miss my son. I sat up because of the trembling of my knees.
I also felt Dash sitting next to me.
"Eat it, please ... We'll get Zari from him, I won't allow us not to get Zari back. I can't bear to see you like that, Vien. Please bring back your old self, for Zari. You think so. Will Zari be happy when she sees you like that? " My tears flowed again, I shook. I followed her gaze as she stood up, took the tray of food and placed it in front of me and sat down next to me again.
He grabbed my arm and faced me, I just watched him wipe the tears from my eyes. He took a towel from the table and wiped the sweat off my forehead.
Because of the pain of what I was carrying today, I ignored what he did when he kissed my forehead. I don't know but I feel a good feeling in the twing like Dash, I feel secured all the time whenever I'm with him.
I watched him take the bowl of soup.
"Open your mouth." He ordered when he put the spoon full of soup in my mouth. I could do nothing but open my mouth and accept it.
Last night he also took care of me, because I was hot. He didn't leave me, he was even angry this morning because I forced him to go to Manila again to look for Zarius.
"We'll leave tomorrow morning, we'll find Zari again." He suddenly said so I was encouraged again.
"T-thank you so much Dashiel ..." he didn't answer and just continued to feed me.
After he fed me, he took me to the room so I could rest. I just followed him, because I could see that he was as tired as I was.
I woke up looking for my son again, when will I see my son? I wiped my tears from my eyes and stood up. Suddenly an idea entered my brain, right! I have to go back to their old house!
I immediately packed my things, and then took a shower and got dressed. I also brought my phone, I could think of nothing else but to just see my son at these times.
When I came down there was no one so I had a chance to get stuck alone. I looked for Dash first when I realized there was no shadow of Dash so I quickly took the car key and put the gear in the back.
All I want is to see my son at these times, I don"t know what to do anymore!
It took me a few hours to travel to our house and to visit their datu house. I parked my car in front of our house, my parents were not there.
Then I got out of the car when I turned off the engine. Every time I walk to Zar's house, I go fast. I hope someone lives there and they can tell where the Waltersons live.
When I was in front of their house, I was disappointed when it was locked and there was still a house for sale hanging at the gate. I was out of breath and still sweating, my knees weakened again from exhaustion. I did nothing but cry.
How much is my sin for my child to be the payment for everything? Why? I did nothing but do what was good for Zari, I was able to sacrifice for her but why would it be like this in exchange for everything?
Why do I need more children?
I can't, even if I tell my parents that they can't do anything because the Walterson family is powerful, I'm afraid if they win I will lose even more rights to my child. I can not do anything.
Suddenly the phone rang in the pouch I was carrying, heavy hand I picked it up. Dash was called, he also had a lot of missed calls that I didn't realize before.
"He ---"
"What the hell, Vien! Don't you think that a lot of people are worried about you here ?! I've been calling you several times! I told you we'll leave tomorrow, but you just left without saying goodbye. ! "
I didn"t speak, I wanted to say that I lost myself to think of other people.
"Vien please, where are you? Don't be like this, don't forget yourself." I felt tired in Dash's voice.
Look what have you done, Ysla! You still feel sorry for other people!
"Dash let me go, let me fix my problem I don't want to bother you anymore ----"
"The hell with that! I'm with you, whatever your problem is is my problem too! Stop thinking that everything's happening is just your problem!"
"D-dash, w-I can't do anything ..."
"We can still do something. So please stay where you are, I'm gonna pick you up. Please, text me the address."
"O-okay ..." then I dropped the call, because you're so stubborn! I stood up sluggishly and forced myself to get organized, even though I could feel my body weakening.
"Laraya ..." I immediately looked up. Suddenly my heart had hope.
"Nahla ..."
I would have approached him when my knee was weak. He quickly approached me to help me.
"Are you alright?" I nodded and smiled, Nahla's my only hope. His bulging stomach could not escape me.
"N-nahla I feel sorry for you to help me ...." I saw the concern on Nahla's face.
"Let's go inside first," I nodded at him, watching him open the gate. He helped me walk again until we could go inside and sit me on the couch. There is only one couch here and no equipment.
"I'll just get your water in a minute." I couldn't answer as he left quickly to get some water.
It was only then that I remembered everything, the dinner that I thought then that Zar and I still loved each other. When I run and leave them. Who is the father of Nahla's pregnancy?
"Here ..."
"Thank you ..." I drank some water, he sat next to me.
"How many months has it been?" I asked him when I finished drinking the water focused on him. He smiled and stroked Tyan.
"Five months, actually this is the second. My eldest is two years old and is with my wife." I smiled, I couldn't help feeling sad for myself.
"What are you doing here?" He asked.
"N-nahla can you tell me where Zar is now?" My voice trailed off.
"What happened? Have you come back yet?" His forehead furrowed.
"N-no ... I-I need to see him," I came closer to him and held his hand.
"Laraya, what happened?" He saw my tears dripping.
"K-she took my child, Nahla. I feel sorry for you, you also know the feeling of a mother being separated from her child ..." she was surprised by what I said, she even managed to let go of my hand .
"A-what did you say?"
"N-nahla help me ..."
"I don't know what happened Laraya, but I think Zarius did the wrong thing to take your son from you."
"Yesterday I saw him at home, I saw a child who looks like you but I didn't think it was your child." I was encouraged by what Nahla said
"N-nahla thank you so much!"
"I just want to make up for what I did before, Laraya. I feel bad for telling Zarius how I feel then,"
"I don't have that anymore, Nahla. I know you're a good person." To my delight, I hugged him.
"Congrats on your new baby ..."
"Thank you, I hope you get your son back even though my brother Zarius still did something wrong. I know you have reasons why you did that, Laraya." He took my hand and wiped away my tears.
"Come on, I'll join you at home. Zar isn't there right now because he's in the Moonstone building." I was very happy to go with Nahla, I just left my car first.
Nahla told me many stories, Chaos and Zyle are married. Chaos and Shaina also have two children.
But even though the two have a family, they never thought of quitting showbiz or the band.
He also told Zarius' girlfriend, they have been together for two years. Sherina's sister, I know it hurts but what can I do? It's my fault why he loves others, now it's clear to me that I have no space in Zarius' heart because he already loves others.
I will not deprive him of the right to our child even if he already has it, he deserves everything that he has.
Nahla also mentioned that the two are ten years apart. Well, age doesn't really matter. Maybe it's time for me to forget about Zar and imprint in my brain that there really isn't any.
When we got to their mansion I forced myself to be happy because I will finally see my son, I don't want him to see me like this.
"Let's go?" I nodded to Nahla and we went inside together. Just outside, I heard the children giggling. I felt a jump in my heart when I heard Zari"s bosee!
"You're so deceitful, Casha!" That's my son's voice!
"Where are they?" Nahla asked when we met a maid
"They're in the living room, ma'am ..."
"Who's who's there?" Nahla asked again.
"Maam Shaina ho and the two children, your parents are in another country while ser Zarius ho left earlier."
"What about Nash and ate Stella?"
"I haven't visited yet ma'am, yesterday they were here maybe later."
"Okay thank you." The maid just nodded and then Nahla turned to face me.
"It's good that Zarius is gone, come ..." I smiled and nodded to Nahla.
"Casha son, isn't that okay? Its Lala's thing." I heard Shaina.
"But Mommy, don't you think its pretty right Zari?" Shaina's son replied. I looked at my son who was playing barbie in Shaina"s opposite chair.
"But Mama said, don't move the things not yours Casha." My son's promise.
"Hey guys!" They all immediately looked at us when Nahla spoke. Zari's eyes widened, she let go of her barbie
"Mom!" I knelt down when he ran towards me. I cried again, I hugged my son tightly.
"Mommy, is that Zari's mama? She's pretty pala but tito Zarius told me she's ugly." I heard Shaina's daughter.
"Mama, I missed you ..." I fell asleep sadly in my son's voice and hugged him even more.
"Mom missed you too, son." I looked up and looked in the direction of Nahla who was smiling at us.
"Thank you." She just smiled and nodded.
I let go of the hug and faced Zari, I wiped the tears from her eyes
"Mama I thought I'd never see you again ..." she cried. I shook my head and kissed him on the forehead.
"That won't happen son. Mama won't leave you ..."
"But Papa told me, you don't want me anymore, you don't love me anymore mama. Is it true?" I was surprised by what my son said.
How dare him! The thickness of his face ruined me to my son after he took me away! I did not let my son know that I was very angry.

"No, don't ever think about that. Mama loves you so much, and mama can't live when you lose her life, is that clear Zari? I love you ..."
"I know mama, stop crying ..." he wiped the tears from my eyes and hugged me again. I saw Shaina and her daughter's looking at us too, her face was just serious.
"Let's go, Casha." He stood up and carried the child, I was not numb so as not to feel that he did not want me. Of course, his sister is Zar's girlfriend!
"Mom, did you eat yet?" Zari asked.
"Yes son ..."
"How's Laraya? I need to leave, will you stay?" Nahla asked suddenly.
"I'm here first, thank you so much for your help Nahla."
"No problem, anything for you Laraya." I hugged him,
"Good bye, little Laraya!"
"Goodbye too aunt Nahla, take care please!" Zari waved back. Zari and I sat happily on the couch, she told many stories like when she met her cousins.
I still need to talk to Zarius, and why is he able to ruin me with Zari! I'm very angry at these times, yes I'm guilty but it's not right for him to slander me with my son!
What kind of father is he? Why does he even have to invent things. She must be thinking about her child's welfare.
"Did they treat you well here, Zari?" I caressed her hair.
"Yes mama! They are all nice to me! Even Lala and Lolo po!" I could see the joy on Zari's face.
"Do you want to be here? They miss you too Dada ..."
"I want here mama, but I like more in Alta Vista. I missed Dada and tita Lani then tita Stacy too."
"Dont worry, mommy will make way."
Zari and I were just talking when a familiar volume suddenly appeared.
His face immediately cooled when he saw me. But he didn't notice because maybe Zari was here, I didn't move and he also looked at me.
"Papa!" Zari stood up to go to Zarius while I just stood up but just stayed in my seat.
"Papa, I told you Mama loves me! Look she's here for me!" My son had a happy harvest and taught me. We both have a cold aura now that Zari just doesn"t know.
"Alright. But can you go upstairs so I could talk to your mama?" He said that while carrying my son.
"Sure dad!" Then Zari kissed him, my son came down and went to me.
"Mama, after you two talk promise me you go upstairs too huh?"
"Of course!" The maid took her to accompany her upstairs, Zar and I were left alone.
"What are you doing here?" Her voice was cold.
"And you're really still asking me? After you suddenly took my son ---"
"My son too." I gasped. The thickness of the face.
"You stole it all of a sudden and then you're still insulting me with him! What kind of father are you ?!" I saw the tension in his jaw.
"How bout you? What kind of mother are you?" Suddenly my heart beat faster, his brain was completely poisoned!
"How do you ask me that thing? I raised Zari alone ----"
"Because you keep it a secret from me! And what the hell did you raise her alone? You're with Dion since Zari's birth." How did he know that thing?
"W-who did you find those on?"
"It doesn't matter to me now, go away." He was about to leave when I spoke.
"I'm not leaving without my son."
"Go, if that's what you want. Aren't you really like that? When you get the thing you want then you leave, like when you took money from Kim." Immediately my blood boiled.
The fool right?
"And you believed him?"
"Yes! Because I don't see any other reason for you to leave me! Then did you join that putanginang Dion? Now you're coming back because you know I'm famous and I can -----" my palm immediately landed on my cheek nya. How dare hin say that!
"G-do you think so low of me? For the money, really? I thought you were smart. The amount I've been through from you then that's all you think because that's why I left you?"
"Don't clean yourself, its useless now. So leave now."
"You're so stupid, you're so stupid." I saw the veins in his neck, a sign that he was bored with what I said.
But he didn't say a word and just passed me and went up.
You are no longer the one I used to love, you have changed so much ...
You didn't even think I could leave you because I sacrificed,
For your dream, because I don"t want to be a hindrance to everyone.
I stopped studying just to take care of and give birth to Zari, you don't know what I've been through over the past year. I left even though I didn't want to, but I had to. If I hadn't left would you have been in your current position?
But your gay uncle is forcing you to circle, you are too stupid to believe. I don't want to tell the truth to him, I want him to know the truth.