Chapter 27 Grandma said...

Today is Saturday, the whole area is clear and only the sound of birds talking can be heard throughout the rice field. The morning was not too hot because of the tree behind our houses. I didn t hear any noise or even laughter that I was used to. Since I have nothing to do all day, I will just clean the house. I've been here for more than a week so I have almost done a lot of work here. The only thing I can t really do is cook because Grandma Crising really cooks.
I can say that I have become comfortable here, I just feel lonely every night because apart from being quiet, I feel that they are far away from me. From then on, I also decided not to use my cell phone because I was also not useful, even if I could write, but not like before that I could make a novel.
I mostly write an inspirational words or thoughts. I really enjoy to write a problem and try to solve it.
I decided to clean up so that I could take care of myself. At seven in the morning when I started to remove dirt from the ceiling, using a broom and a single chair I climbed there to reach it. After I got rid of the dirt, I then put on the curtains that Erick had given me that his mother had sent him that had never been used. That olive color is just right for the color of those around me. Since I wasn t comfortable opening the door would open everything including my bed, I decided to make a column made only of curtains.
Because my bed is on the wall, I only need two curtains, even though we live in the mansion we are not allowed to live like a princess, contrary to what many senoritas think of the people in the mansion, if they only knew that we will not eat as long as there is a visible stain on our laundry. When I finished hooking up the curtain I slightly tied it and glued it to the side to make it look really bedroom, I laid inside the thick foam bed of my bed and neatly stacked the four pillows. After I made my own room I started arranging the others, removed the dirt from the big closet there and took out the photos I was carrying, I put it there. Each column has a curtain, especially in the direction of the window.
After that I decided to separate my white clothes with de-color. I have a week to do laundry especially since I really don't have time on weekdays. I didn't have any trouble doing the laundry because it wasn't dirty. After I did my laundry, I decided to go out of the house and rinse the back of the house because there was a well there.
"Wow! This child! I thought what happened to you and you've been inside for so long," Grandma Crising opened sweeping the broken leaves.
"I'm sorry, I just cleaned up," I said with a smile as she quickly nodded and peeked into the house.
"I thought you didn't know how to fix it," she approached me then slightly whispered. "Why, you live in a mansion in Manila," she said with a smile, which made me smile and nod.
"My aunts are strict. It's not allowed to be Se?orita," I laughed because she laughed too.
I said goodbye to just rinsing the laundry. Only now did I find out that the water from the well was bitter due to several sputumsits in my mouth. I thought I was poisoned. After that I hung it not far from our houses, it was wide and there were bamboos there, it was just funny because they really made me for me. I just hung the clothes there neatly and at the end the curtains because those are the big ones. The wind is strong so make sure it dries quickly. When the clothes in the big container ran out I decided to rest first. I could not see the others and the houses next to me where they were staying were quiet.
I decided to go inside and tie the curtains on the window to let the air in. I m a bit unfamiliar because there s no electricity here and only gas lamps provide light at night. Well, it is the presence of province. After I took a bath, I smelled something strange, it looked like Grandma was cooking, I hastened to take care of myself and then left the house.
I noticed Grandma's enthusiasm so I did it, I could see in her eyes her surprise especially since I'm a big mansion. If he only knew what we were doing then.
"Why don't you know how to cook?" she asked me in the middle of watching him stir the honey.
"They're the aunts who take care of it, I'm also afraid of," I simply promised.
"How's that when you're married? How do you take care of your tired husband?" she asked you I don't know if I will answer.
Grandma had a point, what if that day came? "I'm not going to get married," I answered without hesitation and heard her slight laugh.
"Whether you are married or not, you must learn to cook, who will cook your food when the twilight of your life comes? You have no children, it is impossible for your uncle to be by your side. if we're the same age," he said like an uncle.
"You know, in this world, there are people who leave early and there are those who are left behind. There are things you have to do even if you are alone in your life, there are things that only you can hold on to. And when the day comes that everyone leaves you, and you feel you are alone, you need to be strong and look forward to the new morning, and be thankful that you have been blessed with the opportunity to live again," its long explanation gave me of meaningful look and returned the mixing she was doing.
Something touched my heart because of what she said. From an old man who had gone through a lot and became aware of the change in his surroundings.
"How do you make people think that they are lucky to be given a chance to live? That in fact they want to end their lives to end the problem?" none of my own question.
Just looking at the paddy the movement is gentle due to the moderate wind. I want to be enlightened by those running in my brain. I don't want to get to the point where suicide is the only solution to my problems, just to end it all.
"Someone's life is playful. Before the world can let you be happy, you first have to get past the people who will pull you down, people who will be the reason why you just think of getting lost in this world."
The strong wind blew causing me to hug myself, I felt the cold ng nature that accompanies the meaningful sayings of the adult. How does he manage to hit my emotions?
"If I'm not mistaken, you're a writer. You're that kid with a lot of questions in the world, deep-rooted, and that looks like that's why you're writing," it began with another topic.
She sat next to me in a bamboo chair placed under a tree, we were now facing the green rice field and the flying birds.
"I'm in the twilight, you're still young after all. You still have a lot of problems ahead and you're not sure if you're ready to accompany the storm you have to go through. Time is passing, that's rice paddy, the day will come that that place where we plant will be cemented. The day will come when the factory will surround us and the clean air will disappear. This land I own will also disappear. Everything will disappear, maybe the people around you are not you that they will recognize," she said meaningfully still looking at the large acres of her land.
As the silence went on I became even more nervous, my eyes watered and I noticed how shallow I was especially in my mother s words that looked too far away, her wrinkled skin and pitch black hair.
"If you want someone to remember you, you write. You write a story that you know is weird and no one has definitely done anything yet. Even if they flip every page or letter, they can't forget who that writer is," she's smiling drone which made me even more confused.
"Every story in the world is the same," I said briefly as she quickly turned around and struggled with my gaze.
"You're wrong ija," she said smiling and then touched my cheek. "You can write something weird that only you can do. Write your life, all the things about you. A person's life is unique. Your life is unique, ija. Give them one words that can remind you of your name, of a Annika who once lived in the world."
I couldn't help myself, I quickly wiped away the tears that were still forming so that the old man wouldn't notice them. "Often, you have to bear the world's problems first, before you can be happy."