Chapter 53 Mess

I could clearly see how uncle would play with Gale who cried from time to time just to calm down. The rain was so heavy that Vernon cried because of his father's departure. I didn't even know where to look, I was just sitting close to Mama with nothing else to say about Zeke. It fixes my husband's paperwork and what to do for it just stay in the mansion and don't take it anywhere else. I would also have preferred to see Zeke's body, so that I could gradually explain that to Gale.
"Hi Gale, why are you crying, huh?" Kelly asked softly as if she had just come home from work. Gale stopped crying softly, and then uncle and I laughed.
"I'm his favorite," he said with a smile as they asked papa.
I also chose to just stay here in the mansion, especially, the more I focus on the child and the many people, the more it helps me to temporarily not remember what happened. Almost all of my activities I stopped first for the sake of my health. My body collapsed, I felt like I was too thin and lethargic.
"After this week, you can move around like you used to. But please, fix yourself Annika, I'd rather you focus on yourself and your child. Everything will be okay too, trust him, okay ?" mama whispered and I smiled.
"Hmm, I trust him." It was impossible for him to return.
I will just wait for the day we meet in a paradise he loves to go to. I decided to get up and take the baby to Kelly. She happily handed me the boy everywhere looking and feeling whose arm she was. I gently laid it on my chest while lightly tapping the back.
"Maybe he's sleepy, he's quiet when he's late," Kelly said softly and I smiled a little.
"Yeah, he's been dilated for a while. I need to put him to sleep too," I whispered as I climbed the stairs.
"Rest well. You need to strengthen, you will teach your son how to hold an arrow, you will have coffee together, you will sing to him every night. Please, rest. I don't want you to lose us either," she kissed me cheeks and on the child's head.
"Thank you. I will." I entered the vacant room which was just next to Zeren's room.
Because it was only in the afternoon, I decided to take the child to sleep because he sleeps for twelve hours, that's normal for the child so I don't have to worry.
"Hey, don't you want to sleep?" I asked here after I rolled a few times.
He just moved his hand looking straight at me. It opens his mouth but no words come out. It smiles slightly and tilts its head.
"Close your eyes honey, and sleep, c'mon." I was patting his butt.
I stroked it and endured a few minutes of tapping before feeling asleep. I just put pillows around him and made sure he was lying in the middle of the bed. I took advantage of that opportunity to take care of myself, while the child was asleep I did simple exercises, as much as my body could. They are also right somehow, there is nothing wrong with how I feel, but if I continue to apply you, how is my child His eldest? I only have Gale now, he only left me with Gale ... Even his plans are still fresh in my brain.
I forced a smile on my son who was sound asleep. I want him to grow up well, I know I'm in the right place and I'm human now.
("You have to be strong, Annika! Go on! Run!")
What my uncle used to tell me when I almost cried blood in training resonated in my brain. I was no longer aware that I was already sweating and chasing the breath stopped arguing.
"I grew up without a parent, so I also do, without him," I whispered sarcastically and then caught sight of our photo.
I immediately averted my eyes and decided to clean up his other belongings in the warehouse. So I went there, and I still have things to bring to the room. I'll just clean his stuff and I don't want to throw anything away.
The next day, while it was still early, I caught a glimpse of the child in the sun, we were just in the hacienda and catching the beam. I waved a little when uncle opened his car window to wave at us. To my knowledge he has already handed over the company to my sister. He is not yet a senior citizen but it would be better for him to provide for himself. For some unknown reason, I suddenly felt relieved, the surroundings were clear and only the dancing trees were noisy because of the wind.
In this situation, I often go to sleep or write because of the weather, I'm always under a tree, looking at where or thinking about what will happen in my life after ten years. I barely faced my son because I felt he was awake because of the movement of his hands. We climbed under the shady trees away from the mansion and let my feet take me wanting to step into another stage.
"Happy one month Gale. Thank you for being my little Zeke," I whispered then kissed her senses. "You look exactly your father, so I'm sorry if Mama is often sad when I look at you. I promise to take care of you no matter what happens, I will love you like what I did to your father. I will treasure you like your father did to me. For now, go with mama, okay? I don't want you to lose me either." I couldn't keep my eyes wet again.
I barely stopped walking when I saw a tree he often climbed whenever his mother scolded him. I smiled wryly when I saw the image of Zeke perched in a tree and looking into the distance. My tears eventually flowed as it looked at me and then smiled, but that gradually disappeared along with the faint speech of what my son had.
"I'm sorry. Mama will just cry okay? I will cry for the meantime, and I promise that I will be okay."
A Beautiful Mess.