Chapter 41 Upset

I could feel him staring at me as he adjusted his necktie, holding onto his waistband and steady kissing my forehead. As much as possible I do not look into his eyes because of the allergy that prevails in me. In other words, I was still embarrassed by that situation even a few weeks ago after something happened to us twice.
"Can you not be upset?" annoyed I asked that he just laughed.
"You're beautiful," he whispered as I stared at him.
I took advantage of his teasing so I immediately fixed his polo. It faced me again and then turned me around so he could freely hug me from behind.
"You can only talk to Meghan here," he whispered then kissed my shoulder.
"Excuse me? There are many Filipinos here, why only Meghan?" I tilted my neck because of its weak bite me up to the ear.
"Someone cursed you at the end. Don't leave the house, hmm... I'll come home later," he whispered again then kissed my lips.
It's just normal for me to act like that, I'm also preventing myself from liking it because every time I'm carried away by my emotions I'm the one who causes something to happen to us. It even makes me laugh every time I wake up especially when something happens to us. How rude.
"Just write here. It's just Meghan, Niks," its serious promise made me just laugh.
It even winked at me before deciding to get in the car. When I left, I went upstairs. I started cleaning the house again because every week someone buys it. I don't know if I'll be happy with what he's selling because we won't be here long either, he often excuses that we can use it when the time comes. But if there's one thing I liked at all, it was the one room where I could write well.
Everything is complete, bookshelf, study table and anything else related to my writing. The room is also nicely located facing the wide yard so the air is straight here in the room.
"Psst!" a call coming from outside.
I barely peeked out the window and he was. She is a brown-skinned woman but has beauty even though she has three children. She still looks like a maiden.
"Where's your spouse?" its question busy retrieving the bundles.
"Work, why?"
"I'll go there, let's talk. It's like my husband, the children were taken somewhere," she said, making me laugh softly.
"All right," I smiled approvingly.
She is the only woman who often talks to me here, her husband is a soldier and she lives here. Most of the people living here are soldiers and actually covered by the government. They are just next to our house so it is not difficult for her to visit us here. I went down immediately and carefully carried the tray, I saw that it was immediately below staring intently at the plants there.
"Hey, you're really busy. I'm just going to chat." She smiled.
"It's okay, maybe the night will catch up with you here," I joked because of her excessive chatter.
"Seriously, you're really the only one here without Engr: Zeke what? How can you handle that?" she asked sitting across from me.
"Just practice," I simply replied that he laughed.
"Aren't you married yet? Do you have any plans to have family?" she asked so I lowered the glass.
"He, every night he plans," I simply said as she widened her eyes.
I don't know what's going into her brain. It was just a story about her family and her American husband who got her pregnant. I don't know if I should be scared especially since something is also happening to Zeke and me.
"Engr: Zeke seems to be careful. Just don't really bloat your stomach, and besides, it looks okay on both sides, isn't that your relationship?" referring to it to Zeke's parents and to my uncle which I agreed to.
"Yeah. They've also wanted to have grandchildren for a long time," I smiled as she widened her eyes.
"Oh! That's it. Why don't you get married right away? After all, you've known each other for a long time, well, it's still okay for you to get married. But as long as you love each other, why not?" its free thinking so I thought even more.
I just smiled because she really had a point. I also can't help but think every time I think of what Zeke used to say, I'm just scared because of what could happen to me when I get pregnant. It's scary to give birth, I might die there. I also couldn't help but worry because of Zeke's actions, every late night I often hear her talking in the other room, I just can't hear what it is but I know it's his voice. I just thought maybe it was just Lucas or about his job. I just don't know that he has a woman he talks to every night, he just touches it.
It's seven o'clock in the evening but he's still gone. So I decided to go into the room first to get myself ready. I wore shorts and a shirt, I'm not very comfortable because I rarely wear this, it's a different matter because I have a man with me here.
"Lol, he already got it," I whispered laughing.
I have nothing to lose, what am I afraid of?
"Annika?" I quickly turned off the cell phone and took a deep breath, then I decided to face the look that had just arrived.
It smiled but frowned at my whole body. "Are you in the mood right now?" its annoying whisper as it approached me.
"Don't now, Zeke. Get dressed, let's eat," I promised lifelessly.
I immediately prepared our food so that we could rest immediately. I don't know what to do with one of my twin, I know that uncle's mind is confused now because of what is happening. I just wanted to keep quiet and not bother Veron, but she was doing it wrong. Why does she have to hide?
"Is there a problem? I-I'm sorry I'm late um—"
"No, it's not. Let's eat," I invited then sat down.
Instead of sitting in front of me it went straight behind me. I felt his hands grip my senses and gently squeezed it.
"Maybe you're going to be in such a bad mood," he whispered continuing what she was doing.
"Veron has a child," I promised without even stopping him.
"It's just gossip, your twin is good so they're making up a story," he said kissing my forehead and sat down in front of me.
"No Zeke. It's true, my sister has two children. I-I don't know how that happened, even the father of the children I don't know who," I said to him who seemed to believe as well.
He was staring at me as if he couldn't believe it and was just forcing meand believe. "O-Okay, go ahead like this. Why didn't she tell you? To your uncle?"
"I don't know. She doesn't have a boyfriend, paan— Zaffiro, yes he's right—"
"Hey, wait, let's eat first. We'll talk about that later when you calm down. Writers, what kind of theory is being formed," he said shaking his head and then winked at me.
"Why is everything about you just bullshit?!"
"N-No, I'm just calming you down, b-because it's the heat of your head," he said nervously as he immediately blocked both hands with me.
"I don't want to hear your voice! If you don't want to sleep here in the living room." I point with the fork which he silences.
I never talked to him again, we continued to eat quietly and he didn't even bother with what he was doing about work. I was silent in the room, staring at the ceiling. I want to call her. Is she asleep yet? I decided to call her, I wanted to say hello to her, even though she was so much at fault for us I wanted to know her condition. My heart pounded when she answered my call, it was a miracle and it seemed like the speed she could answer.
"A-Annika?" it calls that I smile a little.
"Twin," I call in the way we tease.
"How are you? Are you at work?" Their line was quiet, I couldn't hear the voices I wanted to hear.
I turned my eyes when I opened the door, I spat at Zeke who was immediately on top of me so I quickly raised my eyes and pointed to the phone.
"It's okay. Busy looking for sugar daddy, are you? Having coffee?" its joking as if nothing is hiding.
"No. Are you still there?" I asked as Zeke's hand crawled on my chest. "I love you," Zeke whispered so I walked away from it a bit.
"Yes. I'll end the contract. Hmm, are you with anyone?"
"No. There's just bad air around. All right, go to sleep there, take care of yourself," I said meaningfully then hung up the phone.
The weight of her presence, I feel like even if she doesn't say it, she really has a problem. I know her, she's telling me, Zeren and me. How serious was her problem and was she unable to tell?
"Are you okay?" he asked sitting on the bed and without an outer garment.
"Yeah. Let's go to sleep."
"Immediately?" its snout question ripping off my thin dress.
"I'm sleepy, if you don't want to sleep go to Cr and do what you want—"
"Hey!" rebuke it and then laugh out loud.
"Why would I do that if I can do it to you?" it whispered then bit my ear.
"Leave me alone. I'm leaving tomorrow, I'm going for a walk alone," I changed the subject so it stopped at what he was doing.
"I'll come, I'll take you to my favorite place here. Good night, I love you," he whispered to me as he hugged back.