Chapter 34 Video Recording

I don't know why I want to teach, I can't take my smile away every time I talk to children which I didn't do before, I feel like Zeren is in my body now. Everything is easy for me now. I don t know how many months have passed and why it seems like the size of everything has changed. I really saw my improvement, I can do all the things that I thought I can't never be done. It's like they say I'm ready to be alone.
Somehow I also became brave. I don't even remember the times when Zeke disappeared and lost communication with the mansion. I'm sure I can answer my uncle clearly when he asks.
"Awful! I'm so full of what grandma prepared, I'm really going to miss her dishes." Khaye nodded at me and then sat in the empty seat here in the room.
"That's why. Maybe my husband will trade me," said Clarrise who looked at me.
"Any tips Annika."
I shook my head and smiled at her "Stay single," I simply replied as they laughed.
Because the class was about to end, we often went home early, so the surroundings were still clear when we arrived at the rice field. I could clearly see the smoke from my mother's cooking again, the old man waved at us holding three knuckles that looked like he was just going to take them.
"Do what needs to be done for tomorrow after dinner so you can rest," it reminds.
I approached here to observe what she was cooking, roasted fish and smelled its sharpness. I used to watch her cook or help her whenever she was just starting out. I quickly picked up the deep container and the banana leaf.
"I insist," I represented.
She just supported me and I slowly put the fish so that it would not be crushed, I caught the soup, it was easy because it would just be poured. I also helped him prepare the table for us to use, she just nailed it because of what I was doing.
"Why?" I asked with a laugh as she fanned herself.
"Are you working so hard today? Did you talk to the young man?" its question still whispering the end I circled.
"I'm just helping you. You're always taking care of me," I replied then rearranged my belongings.
"Thank you for that. You're just like that often, every day with a clear face. I wonder if you talk to that engineer every day," she said again as I nodded.
"Not anymore. That was the last day we talked, the day he left."
"How long has it been? I don't know how you can put up with each other's longing," she whispered deeply looking at the emptiness.
"You're just becoming metaphorical," I laughed as she laughed as well.
"I'm in."
I just changed into pajamas and a thin coat, but instead of going out I stayed inside the house first, I made sure all the windows were open to let the air in, I just sat in my favorite spot in front of the window and grabbed the ballpen and a notebook that I lean on most of the year. There are so many things going into my brain, I wouldn't be surprised if he's one of them.
Day 333
This is probably the right time for me to say that I will make the right decision. I still don t know what the basis and I just felt. I always heard your voice calling me "my love" and kissed my forehead that I always wanted, funny, you always make me idiot like that. You really inspiring me, your words and your action. There's also a reason why those things happened then, I just can't believe I'm swallowing the words I'm hearing from others. What else I deny, that is also my downfall.
A lot of realization for this day, one of those is he won. You won Engr. Ezekiel Roux.
I stopped writing when I heard someone shout my name, calling me. Although I didn't want to be disturbed, I chose to eat first and later continue with what I still have to write. I went with them to eat, in a few days another memo from the chairman will be sent down and there will be the final decision on whether I will stay here because I don't have a replacement yet. We just ate quietly and had a few stories.
Erick will leave first because he will be returning to his previous school, his family and his three children are also in Manila. So right now he's going to pack. He also helped me wash the back of the house, he spoke to his family and children who were all virgins.
"It's nice to come home with a child and a wife to meet you," she whispered.
"You told me that's all," I said to her with a loud laugh.
Your decision is still up to you. It's up to us, don't regret the thing you chose," she said with a wink and then tapped me.
"All right, I'll take care of it, tomorrow I'll drop the memo from your Chairman, you know we'll just be together. Take a break," she said to me.
"You too," I said softly then went back to house.
I turned on the small electric fan and the flashlight focused only on my bed, there was the notebook and a camera containing my photos that I was the only one. I don t know that he meant to leave the thing because he was the one who said the camera was important to him. Instead of looking at it I just put the thing away in a cupboard, but it didn t accidentally fall so I quickly picked up the blanket on the floor and pushed it there. Fortunately, it hit the blanket.
I picked it up again and opened it slightly when his face popped out, wearing a striped shirt and adjusting the camera to face his face. I just cringed because of what he was doing, it looked like he was in the back of the house because he was close to the well. Later he moved away from the camera and sat on the boulder where he often combed my hair.
"When you watch this, it means you're already smirking at me," he began with an extra wide smile and even slapped his chest.
"I took advantage of the time when you weren't here at home so that I could say what I wanted to say, actually I don't have any money, I forgot to withdraw Niks," he said laughing and then bowed.
"You know? It's worth what I earned in Thailand, it's a pity, there are a lot of wishing lanterns there every February, one day I'll take you there, then we'll have children there, when it's possible. It's over right here in this place , here we go on vacation, I will teach our children how to plant, then when they get tired, I will tell them that their mother always hugs me, I alwaysg kissed, like that," he said as you winked at the far end.
I just noticed that I was slowly laying down on my bed while staring at what Zeke was saying which was almost the other way around and he really did it.
"Then here we will have our fourth child, of course the three in Manila and then the one here. We can have three in Manila, three here as well. I'm good, aren't I? And then don't be surprised, I'm the only one the only Zeke in the world. The only man to give birth to you."
It blinked again but the second time I heard his squeal and there was what was a small circle like a ring.
"Do you see it? The day will come when I will wear it on you, then you will agree because you are sure of me, you will agree because you love me too. But of course, I know you are not ready, I will let you first see, maybe later you'll just be forced on me because I'm always bothering you, I don't want to put pressure on you Niks. I don't know what you're doing right now, in case you get here at the end of this video, that means you love me. My husband loves me!"
There was a loud shout in that video which caused me to cover it with a blanket and accompany Zeke's laughter in that video. When it stopped, my heart was pounding, something was shouting that could not be heard.
"I love you Annika, I will never get tired of saying that. Because I love you so much, I'm ready to be your sidekick, remember that Ficarro."
Day 333 I wasn't expecting you. Your words is not just a words, I guess, it's my happiness.