Chapter 28 Out of place

"Teacher? Is this right?" a boy called to me watching the bow.
I arranged to sit under a tree and then inspected his work, the size and thickness of the bamboos he made as a foundation was not the same, he could be injured.
"As long as the bottom is, so should the top, you reduce this one to trim," I said as he immediately ran to do that.
Everyone is very serious about making their own weapons made only of bamboo, a real bow is not possible because it is too dangerous for them. I m done pointing out each and every what they can do with that weapon, the origin of an Archery in the country and what its importance is. It s just fun because their determination to really learn is obvious. They will definitely be able to use it when the day comes.
"Be careful with the coupling, as much as possible, eight inches away from your grips to your face, if you're hesitant to do something, come to me and I'll do it," I reminded them that they ignored because just busy doing.
We didn t use the room because our space was cramped, the area outside the room was more airy and they wouldn t be crowded. After a while their work was collected and graded, there were a few low but I was given a clue to do with their stuff and explain how they did that. We didn't have time because Clarrise was their next teacher. Since my time was vacant I just stayed outside that, where the flying leaves were scattered. I could hear nothing but Khaye s voice that was so enthusiastic in teaching, I only recently found out that she had two children left with her husband. Fortunately, she can handle it.
My body was fainting when I stood up, I felt like I wanted to sleep because something seemed to run behind me, I suddenly got cold that I don't know the reason, the sun is straight because it's summer now. I just don t pay attention to how I feel because tomorrow is no school, I can rest properly. I don t know how many days will be given to our vacation. We ve made the most of the teaching and it looks okay that maybe that s because there s a storm coming. The Bicol region is still next to the Pacific. Although dizzy, I tried to walk properly, they noticed that but I denied what they were thinking. It was late at night when we got home, Grandma Crising had just finished cooking because Grandpa Rogelio was already preparing the table.
"I'll just take care of it," I let him know.
Before I entered, I opened the gas lamp through matches, the light wasn't that strong so I opened two. One I need whenever I write or have records, the other is generally. I washed and then put on pajamas and a thick t-shirt, I needed thick clothes because the blanket was thin on it. I just stacked the things neatly and then went out. Opposite the couple's house we were partying, just facing the rice field and lying on the bamboo table, only the gas stove around us was giving light there and the bright moon.
"Annika and I are next! No complaining," Khaye led the way.
I just laughed because they often quarrel with me, they often tease me and it looks like it will happen again. It's only seven o'clock but we are already eating. This is how life is in the province, I can't believe they sleep at eight or nine o'clock.
Meanwhile, I only fall asleep at dawn. Literally early. Laughter did not reduce what others ate, even when the two adults could not stop laughing because of Khaye's story.
"It's because I've always been suspected of having a boyfriend or being pregnant, so that's why, I made it true when I was in college, and then they got angry, I don't know." Wrinkled recap of it.
I didn't know she had a word. Yeah, nowadays, parents have a different view of their children. They often compare, why can't they understand that their time is different from ours?
"But I didn't neglect my studies, my husband taught me, he even told me that the study and relationship is not an obstacle if you know the limit. I don't regret everything. I don't want to go back in time. I'm still a virgin because it's strangling, everything is forbidden, then they tell me to enjoy being a virgin? Eww they are." It points at the fish and then chews.
It's a good thing I haven't experienced such a thing. To choke on being a living maiden. Good thing that I have an uncle who let us make a decision, to stand on my own, somehow I know what I will do with my life. We resumed eating and in their stories, they were all familiar here, I was the only girl.
"You Annika? When?" throwing it again and they started again.
I looked at them with astonishment but I knew what they were referring to. "When do you plan to get married? You'll be off the calendar oh," Khaye added.
I just shook my head and chuckled again. Never, ever did I think I would have a family in the future. "I don't know yet," I said briefly as they breastfed.
"Isn't anyone flirting? Or is it just hanging out?" they groan.
I shook again and didn't seem to believe it again. I chose to consume what I eat and keep up with the noise of the cutlery.
"It's fun to have a family. When you go home and have someone to meet your children, your husband will hug you, someone will listen to your stories, you will be put to sleep," said Khaye, who got married early.
"True! But of course, that only happens when you go to the right person, the type you can tell he really is. Only you can tell if that man is the one for you," said Clarrise who agreed with Erick and grandpa Rogelio with a quick nod.
I was silent for a moment and forced what they were saying into my brain. "It's nice to love, if you know you both feel the same way."
How would I know if we have the same feelings? Are the words I hear from him enough? The gesture? What if he does the same to others? How do I know he is serious?
Messy.
I do not know the answer.
Not enough, Zeke. Still not enough. I'm sorry.