Chapter 52 Chance?

I just bit my lip so hard when Gale bit my nipple, he's done it a few times but I'm still not used to it. I am innovating. Almost everything that is happening now in my life is refreshing.
The surroundings are quiet and only a curtain that is once blown moves inside the room. I lightly patted the child's buttocks because of his weak cries which also immediately fell silent. When I felt the child fall asleep I slowly lifted him onto his bed. When I put it down I just stared at it even harder. I was just shaken because its eyes were wide open looking only in one direction. I thought I was asleep. Because he was just quiet I was able to organize myself. I need a break, according to the doctor as well. Good thing Gale didn't cry.
My body still aches slightly but my heart aches more. This is far from what I thought would happen. This is far from the plan he made. To name his firstborn, to sleep on his chest, to laugh... He couldn't, so I could do nothing but do those things.
I immediately stopped my tears from dripping, nor could I stop them from dripping because it wasn't that easy. My eyes caught his son just quietly inside the crib, looking in the direction of the window where even though he could not see the place, he could feel the air calmly coming at him.
"I can't take you, I'll be back. I'll take you home."
If I came maybe, we would be together now. But is it right? Was it right that I did not go with him? He would not have rushed home, he would not have been confused by the calls he receives from me. It would not have been like this. I would not have been alone.
"What did I do wrong, to make you leave me? I-It's not the plan you tell me every night, it's not like this," I muttered while looking at his photo.
"Y-You're going to marry me. You said you're going to marry me," I asked weakly enough to sweep that away.
I couldn't even get up from my seat, just staring at a child photographing everything from his father. Lips, nose, eyes.
I slowly looked at the door when I heard a faint knock. That happened again but this time it got stronger.
"Annika?" I immediately rubbed my cheek and adjusted my appearance.
"It's there, Ma," I said softly.
I slowly stood up and then approached the door. When I opened it, Mama opened up to me. Her face was still dull but not like yesterday. I can tell she manages to smile even though I know it's not that easy.
"Have you rested yet?" this gentle question caressed my cheek.
"Quite."
"I'll take care of Gale first, is he crying?" she asked as she finally entered the room.
I just shook my head as she smiled. She slowly lifted Gale up, causing it to stop biting his finger.
"I'll take care of her first. You can visit Zeke, you also have guests downstairs. But you have to rest first, Annika," he gently told me.
"I'm fine. I've rested as well. I'll just follow you downstairs," I forced a smile.
She carefully hugged Gale who was just quietly watching around. When the door closed, I noticed in the large window the arrival of various vehicles. I was wearing only pajamas and a shirt before deciding to leave the room. The hallway in the mansion was quiet, no one was passing by, I was just walking towards a place where for a long time he had been asleep.
I chose to stay out of that room, I couldn't afford to enter. I can't see him up close. He just seems to be sleeping, the typical look of Zeke every time he sleeps. But the only difference is that I can barely recognize its face in the extreme severity of the gain. I hope he's not just Zeke anymore. I hope they just made a mistake. I hope he's still with me. I thought everyone was very perfect.
"W-We will leave the world outside... C-Come with me and hold me tight," I sang weakly as he often sang whenever I couldn't sleep.
There was no stopping when my tears flowed and it hurt me relentlessly. I want to turn back time, I want to start when I am ready to trust him. If I had just given him a chance then, it wouldn't have been like this.
I closed my eyes and pressed his cell phone to my ear and tried to fix it, I tried to cope with the last words he said the day he had the accident.
["Gale! Wait for papa, I'm on my way. I can't call your mama because it's definitely hard for her to move, I trust your Uncle Lucas. Don't hurt your Mama, just wait for me— shit! It's crazy. Tsk! They don't know how to drive ... Never mind Gale, there's just a big truck pulling up, but it's okay, I'm close there, wait— "
I was sobbing when I heard the loud bang of something. Slowly the cell phone I was holding slipped down my cheek as I watched a man say those words.
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"You're beautiful."
"I don't want to explain why I love you, you might not be able to sleep with that."
"Then don't forget how much I love you."
"Next time, our future child will lie in the middle."
"I'm leaving. Good night. I love you."
"Let's end this relationship, Annika. I want to start my new life with you. The new chapter."
"Will you be my wife, Annika?"
"Really? Are you pregnant?"
"After I work here, I'll take care of you and our baby, I'll take you home. I'll just fix up our eldest son's room in the house, then we'll buy his things together, then— why are you laughing, I'm serious, Niks."
"It will take you a while to give birth."
"But really, I'll name him. Gale Ficarro Roux."
"I'm not leaving your side. Come on, I'll sing to you until you fall asleep."
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I close my eyes tightly when I hear Zeke's voices. Everywhere I looked he was the face I saw, the innocent face that would cause me such pain. I just kept crying when I remembered what Grandma Crising said to me then.
("Because there is love as far as the line is concerned, there is a limit, it seems, no matter how much you love each other if you don't want ton of the world, you lose, your heart loses that there is no sin but to love ... If you feel the same way, don't go around, a person's life is short, not everyone is lucky to be with for a long time the people they dreamed of being with until their last breath.")
"I-Is there still a chance? Zeke?"
He broke it.