An Act of service

Ashina's point of view.

“Don’t tell me you want to do that,” Nala said, for the first time since yesterday.
‘Let’s go back to the moon goddess’ I said, as I held the knife on my throat, while looking for the best spot to cut that would take my life in mere seconds.
Then my hands, if I slit my veins, it would make it less dramatic and also result in my death so I moved the sharp edge to my amen instead.
As I was about to slit my hands I heard an intrusion through the door. My first thoughts was Alpha lobo. My heart skipped as I tossed the knife carelessly. I sprinkled water on my face before running out of the bathroom.
“Alpha!” I said, in a panicking tone, but then I spotted zeeb with a tray on his hands.
A rush of emotions enveloped me, it was the first time seeing him in my room, first time performing at act of service.
“Good— good morning,” I stuttered.
That feeling was back again, the one that made me stare at him like he held my entire name of existence, maybe it was his striking resemblance to my mate but there was always this electric connection.
“Good morning, your food, it’s good for you and your baby” he said in a cold tone as usual, he placed the food on the shelf beside me, without even sparing me a glance, I felt disappointed I wasn’t able to behold his green orbs on such dreadful day.
But before I could utter another word he had turned his back, on me, he placed his hands on his sheath as he walked out of the room.
My eyes wandered back to the food he had brought, it was the first time showing up with a plate of food. He had brought other gifts, but that was a mandatory action for warriors when I healed them.
But this was weird timing for breakfast, or maybe it was a sign too from the goddess that I was to eat my last meal before I killed myself.
Walking over to the plate of assorted diced fruits, I spotted something slightly odd on the plata.
A little piece of paper with a visible hand writing, I picked it hurriedly.
‘Your sister, watch her closely, maybe your questions might be answered’ it boldly stated.
Meera?, she was still in the park, why would zeeb want me to watch meera so closely?.
I reread the piece of information, before concluding I wasn’t wrong, and I had read it clearly, but he didn’t talk to me, he never does and now he sends me information like this? What sort of prank was this?
I stared at the food, using my fingers to search for another piece of information but there was none. Now I was placed in an uncomfortable situation, tied between walking back to the bathroom and probably killing myself, or waiting long enough to know why I should keep a close watch on my sister.
So no one would know anything about this, so I tore it into shreds, then soaked it in the class of water provided alongside the food.
“What do I do now?”
Walking back and forth,I felt a familiar pang in my chest, lobo was at it again.
I rushed to the bed, pulled the duvets over my body as I readied myself for a whole new level of pain, my wolf howled in frustration and utter weakness, it was so early in the morning, which of his concubines would be ready to have sex this early in the morning.

“Damn you” I cursed as I held my chest , it hurt even more, more than it had ever and finally till he climaxed, I felt the most pain afterwards, this was the first time I was made to face this pain alone. Estel was alway here to use tranquillisers on me, but she wasn’t here now.
I had to face it all alone… tears streamed down my eues as I pictured another lady seeing him first in the morning than his fated wife.
I imagined it was estel, if she was the one he would freely pin to the bed or a wall, she was the only female aware of my abuse, what if she only cared for me because she was one of the ladies who caused me this much pain.
‘You would do the same for me’ those were her words earlier, I was never in a position to do the same for her, so how does she know I would do the same.
I felt suffocated in the sheets, as I screamed into my bed, I felt the pain of betrayal, and anger. I could not continue to leave like a useless wolf. I was someone who would soon become a mother, I deserve to be treated with respect at least.
Does lobo know no shame?, if by any chance I finally find out who his mistresses are, and estel happened to be one of them, I would going to kill myself, I won’t let her mock me everyday she saw me go through hell.
“My lady!Oh my goodness I am so sorry "I heard the sound of her voice, panicking as she ran through the door. She quickly injected me with the antidote the doctor had prescribed for me, and soon my raging heart came to an agreeable pace.
“My lady, I am so sorry I didn't mean to stay out that long, I was preparing your lunch” she said, a weak smile flashed on my eyes as my red teary eyes beheld her figure, her hips look wider than mine, her skin smooth and she was slightly older with fuller asset than me.
Now I see why he chose her over me, she was an epitome of lust, he craved to have all this fullness beneath him.
“No need to apologise for fucking the alpha”
“What?!” She retorted almost instantly, like she had heard a lie, but I was no fool, she was the one I should look out for.
“You are sleeping with the alpha just to spite me” I slammed my hands directly on her cheeks, sending her backwards.
“You cease to be my maid from today, you are so cruel”