Taste of sadness

Anisha POV

As I laid on my bed, my thoughts played with my emotions.


I recalled the vision again, Lobo beating Meera up, she didn’t deserve to taste the cruelty that I endured from him, I thought about going back, but I should be dead, that was what I wanted lobo to think, that I could no longer endure his maltreatment and I went to the mountains to kill myself, and the other wolves had my body, or I made a flesh feast for the vultures in the witherness


But somehow, my heart ached for my junior sister, she was too small, we might have our differences,and zeeb might be feeling awkward towards her, but I trained her, she was born in my own arms, I watched her grow from an infant to a woman ready for marriage, so I could not leave her for that cruel bastard.




For a while, I haven’t had any visions too, so whatever this was, I knew it was bad, it was what the goddess wanted to tell me, maybe she wanted me to save my sister, and give her the purpose, Meera was born ordinary, to the disappointment of my parents, but I confided in them, to help my sister by telling her my visions, if I leave her all alone now, she would definitely feel useless.



My heart clenched as my thoughts buzzed in my mind, I had to go back, one way or the other, there was no way out, and Estels son, and her daughters, I swore to protect them and they were now without my shade, they would be stigmatised and I was certain of that too, I had so many responsibilities I could not just leave, I was a queen, a leader, I need to rule !!



Standing from the floor, I readjusted my clothes, tied my hair in a tight bun, and was ready to go out for a ride when I noticed zeeb riding towards the direction of the house, my house skipped a beat, I let my hair loose then laid back on the seat till he came back inside.



Anytime he came back from the park there was always this look of defeat in his eyes, I never questioned him, but he ended up telling me eventually, but there was something today that had him sighing every now and then, he barely talked to me, he just tied his horse then laid on the floor.



“The skies are beautiful don’t you think?” I said as I laid beside him my hands behind my head, I watched the skies with him.




“It’s fine, it reminds me of you,”


My belly knots in excitement, my cheeks burnt with redness, it was so sudden, I didn't know how to react to it, I wasn’t used to flattering words.


“Thanks,” I muttered. This time around I craned my neck towards his direction as I said “thanks” with all my heart, almost at the verge of tears, this mad had given me peace beyond my imagination.


He passed a weak smile, then continued watching the skies.


For another one minute we stared in silence, then I broke it.


“I want to tell you something, I need your advice”


“What’s it?”


“I see visions,”


“Well, what if I knew, and I didn’t tell you” his calmness made me smile, he never stopped amusing me.


“How did you know?”


“Because I have seen wolves blessed with vision and your sister isn’t one of them,”


My smile died once more as he mentioned Meera, he just didn’t like her, he would have been a good mate to her, a perfect man sculptured by the goddess in her divinity and he just hated her.


“It’s also about Meera,”


“What about her?”



“Lobo would kill her, I want to save her and show her I am alive, I want to make sure she’s safe”


“She doesn’t care, trust me” he blurted out. My heart clenched with sadness.


“My sister is in danger, and I must save her”


“You need to be fine, she doesn’t need saving and the earlier you know the better”


I could not talk about his careless words anymore. I stood to my feet, “stop it zeeb!She's not a bad person, I know you don’t like her but it’s not good to slander her name!”


He didn’t move, he just laid there looking at the sky like I haven’t said anything, “Zeeb!”



“I don’t like her and I won’t pretend I do, and that’s because you care about a selfish wolf who would slay you for fun!” I kicked him.


“How dare you!”


“I am just being honest, she doesn’t care”



“I would go back and save her and there’s nothing you can do!”


“Well you must be out of your mind” he bursted out in laughter, I felt like a fool that instantly made me shove him, but he held my hands on his chest, his hands wrapped around my waist as he paired his eyes at me, our warm breath bathing against each other.


My inside boiled with anger and something more sinister, my eyes occasionally strolling to his lips, I had a deadly hunger to feel them, how thick it might be, a taste could bring the end of my existence but my wolf dared to linger around.


“Meera is the new Luna, not you” he said those words that shattered my heart and almost brought my knees to the floor.



I shoved him again but he let me go this time, “what do you mean!, you are lying, take your words back!”


“No,” he said.


Meera could not marry lobo, they were friends, he was only kind to her, it is barely a week, he could not move on that quickly, my parents won’t let it, they might have casted me away but it was definitely because they feared him, they would not give Meera to him, no no no.



“I have been telling you Anisha, your sister isn’t who you think she is, she is pregnant for lobo, and months gone already, he made her his queen today, and he wants me gone too, so believe it or not, you don't have a home in the park anymore”


“No!” I shoved him.