Forced Sustenance

Ashina's POV
"You are trying to play games on me, right?" He asked, as he slowly released the door from his firm grip.

It fell limply to the walls and he turned his back, locked it and thudded towards me. Each thud his feet made with the ground, each time my heart pounded as I awaited his maltreatment again.

I wondered what I had done wrong this time around. Could he have known about my absence from the pack? Could his wolf have caught a whiff of my scent and explained everything to him even when he didn't ask for it?

Before I could process the thoughts swooning into my head, he rushed at me and wrapped his hands around my throat, pinning me to bed.

I slowly shut my eyes to avoid his burning gaze, also to prevent seeing him from extending his hands to beat me up.

But he quickly slapped me across my chin, furiously speaking, "open your eyes. Why are you moaning? Who's trying to have an intercourse with you?"

"Moan?" I weakly asked as he released his firm grip on my neck, but he shouted me down.

"Shut up!" He yelled and continued to rage, "you think I don't know your clever ways, right? You went ahead to reveal the secret I told you to keep. You want to ruin my image, right?"

"Secret?" I asked, my voice sounding shallow. I knew I had done wrong by claiming to be innocent of the accusation, but at same time, what image did he not want me to ruin? Same man beater, same killer! I was feeling very angry within me but there was no room to express it.

"I swear by the moon goddess, if you say one more stupid word there, I'll rip your bones and have the child birthed by any means possible." He declared.

I stared at him confusedly, but he felt tense and stupid by those looks.

"Lower your gaze," he angrily said and threatened, "if any third-party speaks about this in the open or privately, I'll have your head on a platter."

Having said that, he pushed me back to bed, and stormed out of the room.

Just like an interview when a next person would walk in after the one being attended to had left, Meera walked in, almost immediately Lobo left.

I didn't feel like they had planned this earlier, and at the same time, I didn't feel thrilled by her sudden presence. She wore a weary look and made towards me, ensuring that I was fine. I assumed she had heard how Lobo threatened me but with the way she was acting, it seemed she only cared about my loss - Estel.

My maids were in the other room as well, waiting to carry out any order I would place.

Meera roughly sat beside me, while she ran her fingers through my hair, whispering some motivational quotes that no one asked her for.

I was feeling pissed by her insincere praises, as I slowly moved her hands away from my hair. She wasn't the one to be blamed but I felt like everyone around me was against me. That was sudden feeling and it was unbearable.

"Do you want some food?"

I suddenly heard the most irritating question as I shifted my gaze totally from her. I knew she wouldn't want to see me frown the way I was, right then. Why would she ask such dumb question?

"Please leave," I said, trying to stand up but she held me back.

"You need strength. I'll get you some food," she said and without sparing me one glance, she left the room and locked it from the outside.

Now I didn't know if I was going to be forced to eat - something I least craved for in that situation. I would rather way bill the food to Estel's family.

Before I could say Jack Robinson, she showed up at the doorway. It seemed like she had prepared the food before coming to see me initially. It suddenly seemed like she came the previous time just to seek my consent, planning to force it on me if I wouldn't agree.

Since she knew she wouldn't agree with whatever decision I make, then why not bring the food in the first place?

I quickly sat up in bed as she came towards me after slamming the door shut. She carried a tray full of food and some fruits while I stared hopelessly at it.

"Now please eat up." She said, forcing a small smile to her chin.

I rolled my head yes defiantly at her and laid on the bed to sleep off. But she soon dragged me up, though a bit violent but in a more caring way.

"Thanks for your attention, Meera. But I'm not hungry." I said.

"That's where the problem lies," she said and hiccuped before continuing her words, "we can't talk this out of you don't have any strength within you. Don't you know?" She asked.

"You're the only one that makes me feel special in this pack," I said, feeling butterflies in my stomach but suddenly it rumbled and I felt the need to purge.

She picked up the spoon and directed the food to my mouth but I collected it and threw it at a corner of the rooms acting stubborn.

She turned towards the door and with a wink, Lobo soon joined us. I wondered if she had planned this with him earlier or it was just a coincidence. I knew they were trying to make me eat so I'd have some strength for the pack, but I wasn't in the mood at all.

There was a big smirk on his lips as he walked in. It was as if he was telling me that I should know what next to do, merely by seeing him. But since he wouldn't want anyone else to know that he did assault me, he acted nice and I also played along. I refused to eat and he chuckled softly, even considering feeding me.

Meera blushed and wished the moon goddess would give her someone like him, but right inside of me, I rejected the prayer on her behalf. She didn't know what she was asking for.

He leaned in closer and whispered to my ears. His voice was calm but the tone was authoritative.

"You'll beg me again this night if you don't take that goddamn spoon and rush it down your throat now." He whispered and chuckled as he turned to face Meera.

I quickly rushed the food down my throat and as Meera clapped her hands to applaud me, I felt like purging. I rushed towards the restroom and there I puked.


I vommitted everything that I ate, and feel weak. My eyes blinked rapidly but I held on to the wall for support while trying to gain strength.