Echoes of the past

Anisha POV
My eyes were wide open for as long as I could remember, sleep-deprived and fully alert, my thoughts already had the best of me, it was useless fighting them, so I stood from the bed, pushing Zeeb aside for a while, I needed air, my chest felt tight, and being witbunt walls made me claustrophobic.
A wave of fresh air teased my attire, causing an overall sensation, for a while I haven't felt this much peace, I had no idea it existed, I always knew problems for so long that being at peace felt like a bad thing to do, or maybe u was wrong, and peace was meant for others to feel and no me.
The moon goddess sent me on an errand, I would have to be dead not to fulfil it, and what it comprised meant my peace and harmony would be at stake, the last time I was at my park I had sworn never to cross the borders anymore.
I rejected him as a mate, which meant we were no longer companions, the only thing that could bring us together was our mate bond and my dire need to protect my family, and my park, as the Luna on both ends, but I had severed all ties with them, they should mean nothing to me, but somehow, I had to save them, it felt so bad doing it, mostly when I didn't want to feel anything anymore.
The moon goddess didn't give me a viable clue as to what I was fighting, I was only told to go back home.
One would gladly lay down their lives than go back to being abused, but this time around it would be different, and that was a promise, i would not be a pushover, I would stare at them in their eyes, I would make them understand that I am the pillar, that I am the source and they would have to listen to me, I wasn't doing it for them, I was doing it because of zeeb.
He was the only one that ever showed me kindness, he was not related by blood, but he was my family, my only family.
I stayed outside a little bit longer than I should have, and had given the insect permission to feast on my skin. I had to go back inside, but the feeling was back again.
My weight sagged on the bed, it was my second attempt to escape this little room, but nothing changed.
“Hey” zeebs baritone voice pierced through my subconscious mind, I turned to face him, a sweet smile stretched on his lips and for a second I felt a sense of control over my feelings, he happened to be a symbol for hope.
“Hi, you are awake, how do you feel?”
“Better, thanks to you”
“With that being said he proceeded to stand and I assisted him.
“You don't have to, let me get you something to eat”
“No, I am fine, I have been sleeping for a while, I think I need to flex my body a little, and see, it's late outside why are you not sleeping”
“I can't” I said without hesitation, this time letting myself sag on the bed, my eyes shut as I tried to calm myself down.
“I had another vision before you left,”
I could hear his sigh from where I stood, the last time I had a vision he went off to Lobo and almost got himself killed, it was hopeless thinking I could send him there again.
“The goddess wants me to save your park”
“Well it's up to you, whatever you choose, I would be here to support you” for a man that was just beaten, he has the audacity, but I didn't question his words, I just let him say whatever he chose.
“I don't want to help your brother, even if my life depends on it, irs none of my business—but not when yours is involved”
“What?!”
A long sigh proceeded my lips as I slowly opened my eyes, “you would die if I do not do this, your life is at stake, and that's why I am thinking about it, you are very much important to meZeeb, very…”

“Well that's strange” he fell back on the bed, his eye settling on mine, I felt his palm caress my cheeks, “ I can't be the reason you would choose to destroy your happiness, there must be a way out, and if its my time then so be it”
“No!”
He pulled my head closer, placing a kiss on my forehead.
“I will be with you through every step, you won't be alone”
Those were the words that filled the void in my heart, a final solace to sleep.
•••
Hours passed with my cradled in the arms of a man that saw me…
It was the best night of my life, a night I didn't want to end but it eventually did, I woke up to the strong scent of flowers and spice mixed all together. It had me smiling, the wind was in my favour, it teased my body, systematically making me relax in his embrace.
“Good morning” I moaned as I stretched a little, he hummed in response, turning to the other side of the bed, it was a beautiful sight a behold, an abundant sight of the male figure, his muscles were toned and big, I had a mindless urge to wrap my hands around it.
“Good Morning beautiful”
He turned to face me, and with a complacent smile he stared at me.
Damn it, at that moment something broke, it was my timidness for sure, wild thoughts played in my mind, I stretched my hands to reach out to him, he didn't resist, I loved it.
“I want to make it a good morning for sure”
“Hmm, how so”
I pulled him closer, till he was back on the bed again, then I strapped myself between him, my legs spread wide apart with his body between them.
“By doing this”
Leaning over, I took his lips in mine, placing a slow kiss on his lips till I felt our tongue intertwine, his fingers located my hair, slightly tugging on it till we were deep in each other.
“Damn it” I moaned as I pulled away.
I felt my wet cunt smear on his underwear.
His hungry eyes complementing mine, the oddness in-between had both of us staring at each other for the longest.
Waiting so a push or a pull, something.
“ I want to tag our relationship,” he said.
A familiar sadness eluded me, draining me of all the arousal.
“Uhm”
“Do you feel safe having this kind of relationship with me, that's all I want to know”
“Yes!” I said in a hurry.
The last time I had a tag attached to something, it ruined my life, Iloved him, I was certain about it, but I didn't want to brand it so suddenly.
“Fine” he pulls me down by my hair, gently kissing me.
For a moment, my insides welled with emotions, my eyes wet with tears as I kissed him, it felt so real.
Lobo had messed my mind so much that I hated the feeling of ever feeling so vulnerable.
Zeeb was going to be at the receiving end of my trauma.
“I am sorry” I tried to pull away but he held me, the tears had welled in my eyes, it dropped on his body.
“Why?”
“It hurts” I whispered before sagging on his body, he didn't question me, he just wrapped his hands around me, occasionally placing a kiss on my head.
“It's all going to be fine”
After a few kisses here and there, we went to make breakfast, had a groundbreaking sex on the counter, and now we were on our horses riding towards our death.
Lobo would be so surprised, so would meera, I wonder how life would be for them one, she must be ruling, j bet it felt nice.
Throughout the ride zeeb and I talked about things totally different from the horror we were about to meet and I loved him for it.
It was the best way for us to clear out mind, be promised to stand with me, and lobo would not hurt him, coming from someone that was almost killed.
But I loved his confidence, it prepared me.
Finally we approached the gates, it was obvious lobo has tightened bus security.
Wise choice.
At the sight of zeev and I the guards pulled out their words, they confronted us.
“Move away, and let us pass,” Zeeb commanded.
“I am sorry beta zeeb but the king has demanded that we keep you away from the park, you are nolonget welcomed”
“Tell him Anisha is here to see him” I said, it was a surprise but they bowed.
“Yes Luna”
Then it came to me again, when Estels husband told me I would forever remain their Luna, it gave me a sense of fulfilment.
Few minutes passed and I saw them rushing out again this time with more soldiers, the bottled me then carried me to the lobos chambers.
That prick…