Chapter 23

CARLA
I ran to the suite and fell on the bed. Not long after, the door opened to reveal him. He closed the door behind him and came close to me. I sat up ready to punch him in the face if he came too close. I think he noticed that and stopped walking.
He's nothing but a damn liar and playboy. While dancing at the party with Jerry, he said things that hurt me. I had to leave to avoid breaking down right there.
Why I got hurt? His words made me remember my childhood and past. Nothing has ever been easy for me. I never chose this life, this is what fate had in store for me.
I have no parents or family to go to. I had to live in a place I regret till this day. I suffered in the hands of two ruthless men who showed me no mercy.
They tortured me day and night. They had no human feelings at all. The only love I've ever gotten is from Joyce, she's the only family I have. That's why I want her to be happy.
So I had to agree to this contract. But now I feel like I want more than a contract. I don't want to admit to anything.
When he left me at the pool, I decided to go back to the suite thinking he might have gone back to the suite. Only to find him kissing that crazy bitch. She's right after all, she's his girlfriend.
Why wouldn't he just tell me? Why not fuck her and let me be? Why does he keep bothering me for God knows what?
"Carla. Can I talk to you?" He asked calmly.
"I do not know if you're hard of hearing or something. I keep telling you that I don't want to talk to you. Can't you see?" I replied bitterly.
It just hurts. For no reason it hurts seeing him with that girl. I can't understand why, but I don't want it. I can't take it.
"She is not my girlfriend."
I scoffed, "How is that any of my business? That's your problem and not mine."
He furrowed his brows.
"Then why are you so mad at me? I thought you're jealous seeing me with her?"
I got up angrily and pushed him.
"That I am a slut doesn't give you any right to treat me like you want! I'd rather keep fucking my other clients without knowing about their lives than keep running into your girlfriend!"
JAY
"Ex girlfriend!" I yelled back.
She stopped, wanting to hear more.
I sighed.
"Davina is my ex girlfriend from highschool. She's the only girlfriend I've ever had. Others are just acquaintances. I never really cared about them the way I cared about her back then. That's in the past, there's nothing between us." I explained.
She still doesn't seem to believe me. She's still having doubts and it's written all over her. I don't have any idea why I am explaining myself to my personal whore.
"You two seem to still be in love. Why not stay together and let me go?" She suggested hatefully.
I palmed my face. Why are women always complicated?
"Why are you being so difficult? I just told you we have nothing together. Why won't you just believe me?" I asked in frustration.
"You know what? This conversation is over. I don't want to talk to you." She went back to the bed and laid on it.
I scoffed, what's the use in explaining to her anyway?
I left the suite and texted Nelly to meet me at a nearby bar. I ordered my favorite while waiting for him. A few moments later, he arrived with a frown.
"What's up with you man? I was beginning to enjoy the party and you pulled me out. You left without a word and now you're looking like a rejected goat." He slandered.
"You're out of your mind Nelly."
He ordered for a drink. Then faced me.
"So are you going to talk to me or do I go back to the party?"
I sighed, "I'm confused Nelly."
"What's going on? Having troubles with your chick... I mean Carla again?"
"Davina won't stop coming after me. Carla saw her kissing me." I told him.
He gasped dramatically.
"What? Davina's back? And aren't you still in love with her? What about Carla? I thought you both just have a contract together? Or is it what I'm thinking?"
I also don't understand what I want. I don't know what to think about. I want Carla for myself. She's all I have been thinking about these last few days.
"I don't feel anything for Davina anymore." I replied.
He raised a brow in inquiry.
"And Carla. Tell me how you feel about her."
"Like my heart's going to explode if I don't see her anymore." And that's the truth.
His eyes widened in shock, mouth agape. Then he suddenly smiled shaking my hands.
"Congratulations buddy!" He exclaimed.
For what? Now he's getting me more confused. Is my situation a good one that he's congratulating me?
"You have finally fallen in love again!"
Huh? Fallen in love? Is it that easy? That's not what I feel right? Nelly has begun with his pranks again. He turns a serious conversation into a joke.
"How's that possible Nelly?"
It's been long since I last fell in love. I don't know how it feels anymore.
"You only want her for yourself, you get jealous seeing her with other guys. You argue with her everytime. You keep thinking about her, you desire her a lot. The list goes on, aren't you feeling all of this?"
Still, does it mean I'm in love with her? And what has arguing with her got to do with falling in love? Your royal king of love advise, you just failed your course.
"I don't know man. I never expected things to turn out this way."
He patted my shoulder.
"Be a man and tell her how you feel before it's too late." He advised.
How am I supposed to do that when I'm not even sure of what I feel? I'd look so stupid. She will probably say she doesn't feel the same way.
Of courses she will say that. She wants no commitment. I have to get rid of these feelings fast before they escalate. I have to stop myself from getting hurt again.
"She won't accept me. Forget it."
He rubbed his chin playfully.
"Hm. Is that so? Am I allowed to have coffee with her tomorrow. To find out some things from her? Or are you gonna smash my head too?"
I shrugged.
"Suit yourself."
•••••
I went back to the suite after having the drink with Nelly, I avoided getting drunk. He went back half drunk, I helped him halfway though.
She was fast asleep on the bed. I don't want to bother her this night. I pulled off my suit and laid beside her, though we're quite far apart.
She turned around in her sleep, facing me. I took time to stare into her face, her beauty mesmerizing me. It's like she gets more beautiful everyday.
What would have made an angel looking person like her what she is now? And to think I'm now in love with her. She's never going to accept no matter what I do.
She hates commitment. Falling in love is being committed. Besides, I won't want to do that shit again. Davina already taught me a good lesson and made me strong for life.
I received a message from an unknown number. I opened it and frowned at the content.
•I am sorry for whatever I did in the past to hurt you. I am changed now. Give me another chance. I won't give up on you•
I know this is from Davina. How did she get my private number anyway? She won't give up? Let's see if I won't make you give up.