Chapter 55

CARLA
Joyce stepped out of the way for Jayden to come close. I shut my eyes and opened them again. I never expected to see him here, he must have also seen that girl who is my lookalike. That should be the only reason he now wants to see me, not because he feels sorry for me. I recalled all that happened last night, I was spouting nonsense but I am very much aware of my actions and surrounding.
He must have been the one who took me home also. He sat down beside me trying to hold my hand, I pulled my hand and looked away.
"Carla, I'm sorry. Please hear me out." He pleaded.
"I don't think you need to tell me anything. You don't have to believe me now that you have seen someone who looks like me. Keep believing what you always have and keep your begging to yourself." I replied harshly.
I have mixed feelings. Anger and happiness. I'm angry because he never trusted me enough to believe what I say. He believed what he saw instead. I'm happy because he is here to apologise. I wanted to see him one last time before I go for surgery. I don't know if I will survive or not but at least my life would be lived happily, my death would also be less painful.
"Miss Carla, the..." That is the doctor coming into the ward. He stopped on seeing Jayden in front of me.
"Mr Romans? What are you doing here? Your sister is all alone in her ward." He told Jayden.
"Your sister's here?" I asked him.
He nodded, "Yes. She's having her surgery soon, the doctor advised bringing her to the hospital earlier."
Poor girl. I feel sorry for her than myself. She's much younger than me and still has a long time ahead of her. Her family cares about her a lot, I pray she makes it.
"Oh. I pray she makes it." I said then looked away. The next question he asked made my heart skip a beat.
"What is wrong with her doctor?"
He did not say anything, he looked at me for approval. Since he got none, he refused to say anything to Jayden.
"I am sorry Mr Romans, this is confidential. I would need the patient's permission to say anything." He said.
"Yes, you won't tell him anything unless my friend says so." Joyce emphasized.
Jayden frowned, "Let's see what's more important. Your life or your patient's information? You know what I am capable of doing. I can make you jobless for as long as I want, and also get you in trouble."
"Jayden!" I yelled.
Why is he threatening the doctor when he can threaten me instead? The doctor won't give out the information because I asked him to keep it confidential. Jayden is a pain in the ass. What an annoying idiot.
"Do you need me to get this man out of this ward bestie?" Joyce asked clenching her fists. I smell trouble for Jayden, I declined immediately.
"Not to worry Joyce. I've got this under control." I assured her, she is not convinced. She still wants to do something to Jayden.
Jayden stood up and faced the doctor, "Are you going to talk now or not?" He continued to threaten the poor man. The doctor looked at me again for help, I nodded giving him approval. I know how Jayden can do anything to get what he wants.
That is what he did when I met him right? He threatened me with Joyce's job, and made our landlord increase our rent in a crazy way.
"She has the same condition as your sister Mr Romans." The doctor blurted out.
Joyce gave him a knock on his head.
"You stupid doctor! How dare you?"
I can't help but laugh, Joyce is such a crazy woman. She is overprotective and I love her.
"Carla, I'm going to get this man arrested for being unprofessional. He shouldn't have told the crazy bastard who left you a thing." Joyce lamented ignoring the fact that Jayden is around and can hear her clearly.
"Heart disease? Since when? Why didn't you tell me she is the one?" Jayden asked, his words sounded like his voice is breaking.
"I'm sorry Mr Romans. I never knew you are related to her. She has been diagnosed for long, she only came to continue treatment recently. It was hard getting her to come back, it seems something motivated her to return." He explained to Jayden.
Okay now he is saying the part I didn't ask him to say. I glared at him and made him shut up.
"She's also having surgery the same day as my sister?"
"Yes. She has a high chance of living. You have nothing to worry about Mr Romans."
He checked on my drip and machine, he took some note down. Joyce dragged him our of the room after he was done leaving Jayden and I in the room. He came back to sit beside me, looking at me with pity in his eyes. Or maybe I am reading his expression wrong. I don't want pity from anyone.
"Carla, why didn't you tell me anything? Why have you been hiding this from me?" He asked.
"Why? Do you need to know? I don't need you to look at me the way you are now. I don't want your pity, I don't need you. Leave me alone, go back to Davina since you now moved on with her." I replied harshly.
He tried taking my hand, I did not let him. He sighed sadly, he's not going to get me that easily. Yes I still love him, but I can't just let him back into my life like nothing happened.
"I don't pity you Carla. I am the one who deserve to be pitied. The two women I love are having the same problem at the same time. How can I feel pity for anyone but myself?"
I rolled my eyes, "You should be with your sister. You heard the doctor that she is all alone. I have my friend with me, go back to her. I am tired, I want to rest."
I laid back on the bed without looking at him. I closed my eyes pretending to sleep hoping he would leave.
"I will be back when you're less angry. I know you are doing this because you are mad at me." He said. I felt warm lips on my cheeks, then I heard his footsteps disappearing. I blushed hard after he left, the door opened again, didn't he leave yet?
"Carla, are you sleeping already?" Joyce asked disappointing me.
I turned around, "No. I did this so Jayden would leave."
"Yeah, I saw him leave so I came to check on you. I don't trust that guy one bit. He's so annoying. Tell me, what do you plan to do? Forgive him or will you let him go?" She asked me.
I shrugged, "I don't know Joyce. I miss him though."
"Do whatever makes you happy. I will support you, now eat something before it gets cold." She gave me the food she bought, the aroma is so good. I am famished.
•••••
Joyce left the hospital to see her boss. She wants to ask for permission so she can stay with me at the hospital till I am discharged. I am alone in the ward, she left me with a novel to read. Since I needed something to kill my boredom, I decided to read it. I am not really a fan of reading novels, Joyce is the one who reads them a lot. She is addicted to it, I think she's going to write one day.
The door opened, Jayden came in. I rolled my eyes, he's going to start coming into the ward whenever he feels like. That's not okay, I need privacy too. Besides I'm still mad at him, he is making me nervous also.
"I brought you something to kill time." He said coming towards me with a package. He stretched out the package, I collected it from him hesitantly.
"What's in this?" I asked him.
"Check it yourself." He replied.
Hmm.. Arrogance. He could have just told me. I am not in for any guessing game. It's a small DVD player with a few interesting movies for me to watch. I am impressed with him, but I won't show it.
"I didn't ask you to do this. I told you I want nothing from you. You shouldn't have wasted your money."
"I knew you'd say that. I know you're still mad at me. This is the least I can do to support you, you can throw it away if you don't like it. I'll find something else for you."
Difficult. I kept the package aside, pretending not to want it. I'll open it as soon as he is gone.
"Thanks anyway... How is Samantha doing?"
"She's worried, I had tried my best to comfort her but it's not working. She's scared she may lose her life. Unlike you, she is not calm." He informed me.
She's afraid, I know how she feels. Everyone is afraid at times like this, I am only acting strong in front of everyone. I am weak deep inside.
"Get me a pen and book..." I said in a command tone.
He dipped his hand in his pocket and brought out a short note and a pen. I collected the pen and wrote her a letter of encouragement. I gave the pen and paper back to him.
"Give this to her. She should feel better after reading this. She needs encouragement to keep pushing, she needs it from someone who is just like her." I told him.
"And you? Don't you need encouragement from anyone? Are you that strong enough to be on your own?"
"Sadly, I am strong enough to be alone. I have been alone since birth, my parents left me for heaven. I am not afraid of death, maybe it's better for me to finally meet and be with them."
His expression altered, he got hold of my hand and refused to let go.
"You can't die. Don't ever talk about death Carla! Don't. I will not let you die, I won't let you leave me! I can't lose you or Samantha, I'm going to lose my mind." He affirmed, his eyes are a bit teary. It's as if he is trying to hold back his tears.
"Only God can decide that. I am not in any position to make demands. My life has been full of sin, this is my punishment." I continued, ignoring his plea for me to live.
"Carla please stop saying that. I want you to live, I can't live without you."
I had the urge to laugh, I held myself back. He literally broke up with me and made me suffer for something I didn't do. I pleaded for my innocence but he refused to listen to me. Now he's saying he can't live without me. How is that even possible?
"You have lived fine without me. Don't plan anything with me. You and I are no longer together and..."
He kissed me shutting me up. My eyes are wide open, as I wasn't expecting that acton from him.
"Please don't. I want you back. It has been hell without you, I need you to come back. You have to live Carla, or I'll kill everyone and myself to get to you." He threatens again.
I fumed, "You! You are such a pervert! Argh! So annoying. Don't kiss me again, I'm no longer your girlfriend. I don't want you!"
He chuckled, "Now that's the Carla I know."
He even made it worse, he kissed me again forcefully this time and ran out of the ward.
"Jayden! You're dead when I leave here!" I yelled but he's already gone.
I checked the package he brought for me again. Thanks a lot Jayden, I'm actually not going to be bored anymore. I love this gift.