40. Rain

**Rain**

My heart is beating like crazy as I wait for Caleb's reply. I know he wanted to make me the Luna of the pack, but what if he changed his mind? Will I be good enough to stand next to Caleb and lead the Black Ruby Rogue pack? I don't know anything about being a Luna, but I want to try.
A few seconds pass by, and Caleb still hasn't said anything. From his scent, I know he is shocked.
Finally, he lowers his head, his breath dancing on my lips, "It would be an honor to take you to the Ritual Stones and mark you as my soulmate and the Luna." He gives me a chaste kiss. "But are you sure you want me, Red?"
I cup his cheek, "You care for me, and you are patient with me. Even if it might take a while for me to be intimate with you, you never once pushed me. I don't easily trust someone, Caleb, but you gained my trust. And you are also making me fall in love with you."
"What happens when you will want children, Red?" Caleb asks.
Usually, Omegas are crazy about pups, but I never thought about them. Not until Caleb.
"Do I want to be a mother? Yes! But not right now. Maybe in five years or ten. We can adopt children. We will think about it when the time is right!" I say.
Caleb kisses me. His tongue enters my mouth. I missed his taste. I suck his tongue, and he groans. He puts a hand on my hip while his tongue explores my mouth. We kiss for a long time before stopping.
"Red, I can hardly wait to mark you, but there are things that I haven't told anyone. Not even the therapist. Things I am ashamed of."
"You can trust me," I tell him. "When you are ready to talk, I will be here."
His scent turns sad. "There was this female, Emma–half-panther. She is Sinn's slave. She wasn't like the Omegas, and she never treated me bad. She was fifteen, I think, when Sinn made me rape her." Caleb looks away for a few seconds. "It was her introduction as a sex slave, and I was the first to rape her that night. I didn't know she was a virgin, and, fuck, I hurt her! I rammed into her like a fucking feral animal! I can still hear her screaming! I didn't want to hurt her, and I slowed down, but the damage was already done. Sinn enjoyed her screams so much that he ordered me to fuck her ass next. She begged me not to do it. I told her to keep her eyes on me and not give Sinn what he wanted. She nodded and never made a sound while I raped her for a second time. After I finished and saw the blood on her thighs, I vomited. The Queen wasn't happy that I soiled her precious rug and put her knights to fuck me. After that, she made me attend to her for the rest of the night. While I was inside that fucking leech Queen, all I could think about was what I did to Emma. That I am no better than a vampire!"
I can feel how much Caleb is suffering. "It's not your fault," I say gently.
Caleb shakes his head. "It is. I was seventeen; I could have said no! I could have let Sinn fuck me and torture me until I passed out! Instead, I raped my friend!"
"Did you want to do that to Emma?" I ask.
"Of course not! But I still did it!" His tone is so sad it brakes my heart.
I hug him, taking care not to touch his chest too much. "Listen to me, Caleb. You were forced to do it. That means you were raped too. I don't know what happened to you in that Palace, but from what you've told me, you have been raped and tortured for years. You were forced to do things you didn't want."
Caleb hugs me back and buries his face in my neck. I comb his hair with my fingers.
"She forgave me," he whispers to me. "When I saw Emma again, she told me she doesn't hate me for what happened."
"But you still haven't forgiven yourself," I say.
He shakes his head. "I don't think I can. This is one of the many reasons I hate vampires. Especially that leech Queens and her spawn. They made me rape other slaves."
"I don't know if you are trying to push me away, but I still want you to mark me. As you said, you were forced to do it. That means it was a violation for you too!"
Caleb lifts his head and looks at me. "I wanted to mark you from the moment I realized you are my soulmate, but I needed to tell you this about me. I don't want any secrets between us."
"You are a good male, Caleb. Nothing of what you say will make me change my mind!" I say, and he kisses my cheek.
"I don't see myself as a good person, but I am trying to redeem myself." Caleb looks at me and cups my cheek. "I want to tell you something."
I wait for him to talk, and I pray it is not something bad. "I am in love with you, Red. Would you do me the honor and become my Luna and let me mark you in front of the Goddess?"
He loves me. Safia is jumping around like the crazy she-wolf she is. While I want to tell Caleb I feel the same, I need more time.
I smile. "Yes. I never wanted anything more in my entire life."
Caleb kisses me again.
"Raven wants to talk to you," he tells me.
My heart races inside my chest because I missed Raven so much. I nod.
When I smell his scent, I smile and kiss him.
"I missed you so much, you crazy wolf!" I say.
"Red, you have no idea how happy you made me! Soon, you will wear my mark!"
I run my finger over his neck. "And you mine."
"You should bite me somewhere it is more visible, like my face!" Raven says.
I try to stay serious, but after a few seconds, I start laughing. Even Safia is confused about what Raven said.
"Why on the face?" I ask. Raven sits on the bed and helps me sit across his lap. "You are still recuperating! You should lay down!"
"Technically, I am still in bed," Raven says. I shake my head while I smile.
"I want you to bite my face because I want everyone to see your mark on my skin when they look at me, my Fire Luna!"
I kiss him and bite his bottom lip. Raven growls and puts his hand under the bathrobe. I spread my legs to give him better access to my clit when I feel his fingers at my entrance. For a moment, I don't know how to react. But when Raven tries to push a finger inside me, I panic.
"No!" I say and push his hand as fast as I can. "Don't touch me!"
I stand as fast as I can and go to the window. Werewolves are outside–werewolves who are supposed to accept me as their Luna. But how can they want someone so broken as me as the Luna of this pack?
I hear Raven moving around the room and walking towards me. He stops close to me.
"I am sorry," I say. "My mind is my enemy."
"Red," Raven says in a sad tone. "I am so sorry. I should have never touched you like that before asking or letting you know what I planned to do."
I turn to look at him. Safia lets me know he is sad.
"You are not mad?" I ask in a low tone.
"I am mad with myself for forgetting you have been sexually abused for a long time. Caleb and I still have nightmares of what happened to us, even if six years have passed since Tatiana saved us. It's been only months for you."
I go to him and wrap my hands around his waist. "I think fingers are a big trigger for me. He harmed a lot with his hands."
Raven hugs me back. "Thank you for letting me know. If you have any other triggers, let me know. Or Caleb."
I nod. "Let's go back to bed before I call Tatiana," I say. He chuckles.
We lay in bed, and moments later, Caleb returns.
"Red, are you alright?" he asks in a concerned tone.
"Just a little shaken, but I will be fine," I say. "And before you say anything else, I am not mad at Raven."
He nods. "It won't happen again."
We spend the rest of the day in the clinic. Reyes comes to check on Caleb several times. He also looks at my wrists, but they are healing fast, and scars are already forming.
It is morning when we are allowed to leave.
Caleb takes me to my room so I can change. Once I shower, I dry my hair and put it in a high ponytail. I put on a pair of jeans, a t-shirt, and a hoodie. I put my hands on my waist and look around my room. I don't have many things–mostly clothes, shoes, hair and body products, and some books Viki let me borrow, and I still have to finish reading.
Half an hour later, with my luggage bag in my right hand, I open the door and step outside my room. I don't look behind as I go to Caleb's room.
When I enter, he is still in the shower. As I start unpacking, I start humming. I take the books in my hands and look at the bed.
"Caleb? Do you prefer the left or the right side?" I ask in a loud tone.
The water stops running. "Red?"
"Right side or left side?" I ask again. "Of the bed, I mean."
Caleb comes out of the shower wearing only a towel around his hips–it has some green leaves on it. Safia imagines the towel dropping, and I fan myself with one of the books.
Caleb looks at my luggage, and I keep staring at that damn towel.
"I think my favorite season is Fall!" I say.
"That was random," Caleb says. "You were asking?"
"You know what happens during the Fall?" I ask and look at him.
Caleb goes to the wardrobe and starts looking inside it. "No. What happens during the Fall?"
"Leaves are falling!" I say. Caleb turns around and looks at me. I am breathing hard. "I want to see you." My voice is barely a whisper, but I know he heard me.
Caleb says nothing as he removes the towel and lets me see him. I look at his cock, and damn! Is that supposed to go inside me? An image of a hamster trying to eat a banana come to my mind, and I try not to laugh.
"Why are you smiling?" Caleb asks.
"I don't think that eggplant will fit inside me!" I say.
"Did you just say eggplant?" he asks.
"Big eggplant! The biggest I have ever seen!" I keep fanning myself with the book.
Caleb laughs. "Life with you will be amazing!"
I arch an eyebrow. "Of course, it will be! Because I will make you burn, wolfman!"
"I already burn for you, Red!" Caleb says. He comes over and puts his palms around my face. "Each time I am with you, my blood runs fast, and my heart feels like a pump. And my soul is on fire for you!"
My heart feels like melting for him.
"Caleb," I say his name. "I want to try to have sex with you."
He kisses my forehead. "Raven and I have been preparing a surprise for you. Would you go on a second date with me?"
I smile. "Yes!"
He strokes my skin with his thumbs. "Before I make you mine, we need to talk about your triggers. I don't want to do something that you don't want or like."
I nod.
Someone knocks on the door. "Caleb? Can you come to the office? There's a female with a child asking for you."
It is Conon's voice.
"I will be there in a few minutes."
"Caleb," Conon talks again. "The child, it's also a female. She has a Crown of Water on the top of her right hand."

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