7. Rain

**Rain**

I try to hold my tears in as I make it to my room. Everything was going so well with Jordan until it didn’t. It has been the best night of my life until he said that I have been with another before him.
But I haven’t.
A memory that I tried so hard to forget, that Safia blocked for me because I could not think about it—a memory of the Alpha hurting me with his fingers makes its presence in my mind. I can’t think about that. Not now. Not ever. I try to push it down, down, but the raw pain of that moment lingers in my head.
Safia tries to block the memory, to take it away—
Goddess! Jordan was right to be angry! I wasn’t a virgin. The Alpha took it away with his fingers. It’s all my fault. I’ve ruined everything.
Safia tries to reassure me that everything will be alright, but I know it won’t be. I can feel that something bad will happen.
I get inside my room and go to the coffee table. I see the sketches I did while Jordan played with my hair and I tremble at the thought that he won’t want me anymore.
“You have been a bad little doll.”
I freeze. How did I not scent him in my room? I need to get away from here. From him.
If I am fast enough, maybe I can evade him. I turn to see him blocking the door. No! No!
“You think I didn’t know what you have been with Jordan? I can scent him all over you!” the Alpha says in an angry tone.
“I am sorry,” I say and move to stand in front of the table.
My hands tremble so hard as I try to reach for something from the table. I move slowly, scared that he will see what I am doing.
“I will have to punish you, my doll! Kneel!” he orders me.
I try to resist his order, but my knees give in. When he advances towards me, I move back until my back hits the table.
As he unzips his pants, my fingers finally reach what I have been searching for.
“How many times did he fuck you?” the Alpha asks me.
“That’s none of your business!” I say.
“But it is because you are my doll! My doll to do as I want with you!”
“I am not your doll! One day, everyone will know what you are doing to me! How you have been abusing me for years!”
The Alpha chuckles, “You are finally showing your fangs! But I like it more when you cry. Like that time when I slapped your little tits until you were crying and begging me to stop.”
He grabs my hair, “And tonight I am going to make you cry again. Open your mouth!”
I fight his order and try to keep my jaw clenched.
“Open your mouth!” he orders me again.
My mouth opens, and he shoves himself inside my mouth and he moves violently, making me gag. He slaps my face.
I try to think of something else as he uses me.
I think of Jordan and his sweet scent. I think of how happy I have felt when he told me he loved me.
Soon, tears fall down my cheeks.
“What the fuck is going on here?” I hear Jordan yell.
As soon as the Alpha lets go of me, I fall on my hands and start coughing.
“I guess you finally found our little secret! What Rain and I have been doing behind your back,” I hear the Alpha say.
“No! That’s not true!” I say between coughs.
“You disgust me!” Jordan says in an angry tone before I hear a grunt and I see the Alpha falling on his ass close to me.
I finally stop coughing when someone grabs my hair and pulls me hard. My head snaps back. A strong scent of oranges hits my nose, and I know it is Jordan. He also smells spicy and I don’t need Safia to show me how angry he is. I can scent in the air.
“I thought you were special! I have fallen in love with you like a damn fool, and you have been fucking my father! My own father!”
“You got it all wrong! Let me explain!” I beg him, and tears fall down my face.
“Explain? Explain that you are a fucking slut?”
“Look at my phone!” I say.
But Jordan ignores me, pulls my hair so hard forcing me to stand up, “For how long have you been fucking my father?”
The Alpha stands, “No need to get violent with her, son.”
Jordan lets go of me only to punch the Alpha again, “Don’t call me son ever again! I am not your son anymore! How could you do this to mother? To me?”
I try to get away from Jordan, to get to my phone, but he grabs my hair once more. “Where do you think you are going, slut?”
“Jordan! Please! Listen to me! My phone—”
“Shut the fuck up!” Jordan yells. Then, in a broken tone, he says, “How could you, Rain? How could you do this to me? Your soulmate. Goddess! I am so glad I didn’t make the bond permanent with you!”
“Please!” I beg.
“I am done with you! All the love I felt for you turned into hatred and disgust!” Jordan spats his words at me.
“No! Your father! He—” I cry.
“He what? Fucked you while you were laughing behind my back about how stupid I am? Fucked you while I was falling in love with you?” he yells and drags me out of the room.
“Please stop! On the phone, I recorded—”
“Recorded what? Him fucking you?”
Jordan keeps pulling my hair, dragging me after him.
“You are hurting me!” I say.
“Good! Because I want to hurt you! Bad! The same way you hurt me!”
I keep pleading and begging Jordan to listen to me, but he does not listen to me.
Jordan takes me out of the Pack House, drags me all the way to the bonfires, and throws me on the ground. I hear gasps and murmurs coming from pack members, but I ignore them as I try to make Jordan listen to me.
“Jordan. Please!”
“Shut up, you fucking slut!”
Jordan turns his attention to the pack, “I bring before you my soulmate, Rain Blackwater, to be judged!”
More gasps and murmurs are coming from the pack. I try to stand, but Jordan shoves me back on the ground.
“After I discovered she was my soulmate, I found Rain in her room fucking with my father. With the pack’s Alpha!”
‘Slut’ and ‘whore,’ I hear people murmur.
“Please, Jordan! Don’t do this! It is not as you think!” I say, crying.
“For how long have you been fucking him?” Jordan asks me.
“I haven’t!” I say.
“Can I say something?” I hear the voice of Ruth.
“You can,” Jordan says.
“Three or four years ago, accidentally I have seen the Alpha and Rain together.”
“Why didn’t you say something about it?” Jordan asks in a very angry tone.
“Because Rain told me that if I say something, she will kill me as she had killed her parents. My beloved aunt and uncle,” Ruth says and sniffs.
“That’s not true! She is lying!” I try to defend myself but the pack now murmurs ‘murderer.’
Suddenly I hear the voice of the Alpha, “What do you think you doing, Jordan? You can hold a judgment meeting without me, the Alpha!”
“After all you have done, do you still think you are the Alpha?” Jordan asks. “I am taking over the pack as Alpha Regent!”
Alpha Ben tries to protest, but the pack approves. I feel the pack’s loyalty shifts from Alpha Ben to Jordan, the moment the pack accepts Jordan as Alpha Regent.
“This is not over,” Alpha Ben says and leaves.
“How do you find Rain Blackwater, my soulmate?” Jordan asks the pack.
“Guilty! We will never accept her as our Luna! She is cursed! And also cheated on her soulmate! We don’t want her in the pack! We should have never let her stay in the pack after she killed her parents!” the pack speaks.
“No! Jordan! Please!”
“Rain Blackwater, I, Jordan Reed, reject you as my soulmate!”
I feel my soul being ripped apart from me. It hurts so badly I can’t even think or breathe. Safia howls in pain inside my head. I feel how much it hurts her to have lost Titan. I can’t do anything to comfort her.
“From now on, you are no longer a part of the Crescent Moon Pack,” Jordan continues, and I feel how the bond with the pack disappears.
I still try to breathe when Jordan squats before me. On his right hand, three claws grow and he slashed my right shoulder—the shoulder where his mark should have been if he would have claimed me.
“Everyone will know that you cheated on your soulmate,” Jordan says and spats me in the face.
Then he stands and turns his back to me.
“Get her out of my fucking territory!” Jordan says and leaves.
I want to scream after him, but the pack surrounds me and they hit me with their fists and feet until everything turns black.
When I wake up, it is already day, and I am in a part of the forest I have never been before. I try to move, to get a leaf out of my face, but my whole body screams in protest, so I just lay there. Waiting for my body to die. Because inside, I am already dead. It’s my body that needs to catch up with my dead soul.
I wait while the day turns into night and then day once more. I close my eyes, but every time I do, all I see is my soulmate. Jordan kissing me, laughing with me, Jordan hating me, hurting me, rejecting me. And I cry until I have no more tears left. And my soul keeps crying and Safia doesn’t stop howling inside my head.
When night comes once more, sleep finally comes and I greet it gladly.
*And as I sleep, I find myself in the stone room with the throne. The woman with golden hair sits on it. She stands and comes to me.*
*“Am I dead?” I ask because I want to be dead.*
*“You are not dead, Rain. You are still alive.”*
*“I just want to die. My soulmate. He—” I start to cry.*
*“He hurt you and rejected you,” she says and I sob and sob while she pulls me in for a hug.*
*"Fire and Ice. Ice and Fire. Two elements that are not compatible. Two elements that should not love each other. But it is only when Ice burns for* *Fire and Fire melts for Ice that they will become Alpha and Luna Supreme. For it is their combined power that can seal the portal that connects* *the two worlds. They will fight the Demon King and send him back to his realm,” she says, while she strokes my hair.*
*“What does it mean?” I ask when I stop crying.*
*“It means that your task is about to begin. You have to be strong, Rain.”*
*“I am not strong. I have never been strong,” I say.*
*“You are wrong, Rain. You are very strong because you have always had a fire inside of you.”*
*“That fire has died the moment my soulmate rejected me.”*
*“When the time is right, it will burn again,” the woman said softly.*
*The woman pulls back and looks at me. Moments later, she kisses my forehead. Where her lips touch my skin, I feel a burning sensation. The pain fades away quickly.*
*“What was that?” I ask and touch my forehead.*
*“To bring you good luck!” she said. “Now it is time to wake up.”*
*“But—!”*
*“We will see each other soon, Rain!”*
When I wake up it is day again. I feel the presence of werewolves—werewolves I haven’t met before because I don’t recognize their scents.
“Is she still alive?” a male asks.
“Barely. She is badly hurt,” other male answers.
“Who could have done this to her? She is just a pup. Look how small she is! How old can she be? Fourteen? Fifteen?” a female asks.
“Isn’t it obvious? Crescent Moon Pack did this to her,” says a male with a voice full of hatred. It makes me shiver with fear.
Someone gets close to me and touches my cheek. A hiss of pain escapes my lips.
The male that said Crescent Moon Pack with anger says to me, in a soft tone, “It’s alright, little Omega. You are safe now! No one will ever hurt you again."
He covers my body with something and picks me up, and I don’t even have the energy to protest, to tell them to leave me alone to die. I smell his scent—sandalwood and coconut.
“Caleb, look at her right shoulder,” the female says.
The male named Caleb growls, and I whimper.
“You are scaring her!” the female said.
“Let’s take her to the pack!” Caleb says.
I want to say that I want to be left alone, but my eyes close and the world fades away.