Chapter 15

[Amelia POV]
I have been sitting in my bed in the pack hospital for an hour now, Owen is sitting beside me, but we have not said a word. I wanted to ask him what happened and why I can’t remember but the fact that I was completely naked a little while ago in front of him has made it hard to look at him at all. He keeps glancing at me, but he seems to be at a loss for words too. I know we can’t go on like this, because I really do need to know what is going on and why Anaya keeps apologizing to me. She has been silent for a while now and I am starting to get worried. Ok it’s now or never!
“Owen…” I say my voice coming out cracked, yep that isn’t awkward!
He looks up at me and smiles slightly with an apologetic look.
“Can you tell me what happened? I can’t seem to remember much about last night.” I say shyly.
He drops his head and looks sad. Samuel had finally returned control to Owen and he seemed to be feeling embarrassed by how his wolf is with me. He apologized several times after control was returned to him, but I have to admit I really like Samuel. He reminds me of a cuddly teddy bear, even though I have yet to see him in full wolf form. I sat waiting for Owen to speak, but he seemed to be hesitant. What had exactly happened that he is so worried to tell me about? Samuel had said that I died, but how and why?
“Owen please tell me. Samuel said that I had died, but how?” I ask again.
“He told the truth Amelia; you did die for a couple of minutes. It was so hard to see you like that! We had thought we had lost you.” He says softly.
“Please Owen, tell me what is going on.” I ask once more.
“Ok. Last night when we got back to the apartment we were…kissing and Samuel took over and asked if he could mark you. You agreed but then you started having a panic attack, and I called Liam and Olivia because I didn’t know what to do. When they came Liam told me that you had been having these attacks for a while and that it would pass. Olivia was holding you but when you finally relaxed it wasn’t you. Anaya had taken control and she was angry.” He says pausing and moving closer to me.
“Anaya took over? Is that why I can’t remember anything?” I ask trying to understand.
“Yes, she had locked you away. She said it was to protect you and that she wanted us to mark you because you need us, and she thought if she did not help you that you would push us away. It seems that when you would have these attacks she would take over and tried to protect you, but then you would block her out. She was hurt and angry, but she seemed to really want to help you. After we convinced her to let you out your body was too weak, and you wouldn’t wake up. So I brought you here, and the doctor says your body was weak from years of abuse and because you had never shifted your injuries never healed properly. The doctor recommended adrenaline to force you to shift, so that your body could begin to heal.” He said
“I shifted?” I ask happily.
“Yeah you did!” He said with a proud smile
“Oh my-What did my wolf look like?” I asked excitedly.
He laughed a little. “It is beautiful! You have all white fur that almost shimmers like a pearl. It is amazing! I have never seen anything like it Amelia! You are very special!” he says reaching toward me and brushing my cheek with his thumb.
I couldn’t help but lean into his touch, the warmth I felt was addicting and relaxing. The moment was soon interrupted by a nock at the door, and I quickly moved away.
“Come in.” I say.
Liam and Olivia slowly enter and let out a sigh of relief seeing me. Olivia rushes toward me and hugs me tightly. I laugh and hug her tightly too, I am so happy to be able to see them. So many thoughts are running through my mind still, but the biggest thought I have is where is Anaya? Why is she not speaking to me now?
I keep trying to speak to her, but she does not respond. I thought I would hate her for what she did, but the truth is I am thankful to her. The truth is, if she had not been there for me during those beatings I would have felt the hurt more. If she had not pushed me to move here, I would not have found Owen. I had thought about moving here once or twice, but she had been the one telling me to leave and get away from my horrible past. She had been the one to give me the strength to keep going when I wanted to hide away or give up. She is the better part of me, I could never hate her.
‘Do you mean that?’ I hear her ask softly.
‘Anaya! Oh my goddess, I am so happy to hear your voice! Please don’t ever stop talking to me!’ I say to her relieved.
‘I am so sorry Mia! I never meant too hurt you or be angry with you! I thought you didn’t want me and that is why you pushed me away for so long. But I realize now that you must have been so scared and confused. I should have not gotten so mad, I am so sorry!’ She gushed.
‘Please it is already forgotten! I could not ever imagine not having you with me, even if we don’t always agree. You saved me! I will always be grateful to you!’ I said with tears escaping my eyes.
Olivia moved back and examined me. “What happened? Are you ok? Did I hurt you?” She asked worried.
“No, no I am fine! Just having a heart to heart with my wolf.” I tell her.
I look at Liam and Owen, their looks of concern soften at my words. I had never felt so loved before, and my heart fluttered at the sight of these three people. I feel like I am where I am supposed to be, in fact I have felt that way since I came here.
We sat and talked for a while and after some time the doctor returned to check on me.
“Hello everyone, I am here to check on the Luna.” He says walking in slowly.
My heart skips a beat when I hear him refer to me as Luna. I don’t think I will ever get used tot hearing that!
“Come in doctor. She seems to be doing much better?” Owen says smiling back at me.
Of course that sends me into a blushing fit! Why do his words affect me every time like that? The doctor walked over and began checking my breathing and pulse. We all fall silent and wait for him to speak.
“Well, it seems like the Luna is recovering well! I would like to keep her one more night to be sure she has not other issues, but she should be fine to go home tomorrow.” He says smiling and excusing himself.
I feel relief fill the room, and we all smile and laugh happily at the news. I am fine!
Liam and Olivia stayed with me for a few hours so Owen could go to the pack house and work on some things. I was happy to spend some time with them, but I felt the lose when Owen left. This mate bond was so strange! The more we were together, the hard it was to be away from him. Did he feel the same or was it just me? I had not been in a real relationship before, maybe I am just naturally clingy.
‘He misses us too. A lot!’ Anaya reassured me.
I hope she is right; I don’t want him to get tired of me because I always missed him. I know some guys hate that, or at least that is what I have heard. I never thought I would be the type of girl to be clingy, but I missed him. I always feel warm and safe around him, and now I can’t seem to get warm enough. Olivia asked the nurse to bring me some extra blankets, but it didn’t help much. I did feel better, but I guess having Owen with me must have helped.
Olivia and Liam had to leave after a few hours which meant I would eb alone until Owen came back. I didn’t like being alone because it meant that it was quiet. Quiet means I start to think about things, and when I do a lot of my overthinking. Like every other time, as soon as the room fell silent all the thoughts I had pushed away come flooding back.
If I had not panicked would Owen have marked me? If he did what would that mean? Would we have to live together? Where would we live? Where does Owen live? Did that mean we were like engaged? Do werewolves get married? Like if you have a mate, do you get married or just live together? Am I ready to get married? Mating means I would have to be intimate with Owen right? Am I ready for that?
My head started to hurt from the amount of questions running through my mind.
‘Mia try to stay calm, remember you are still recovering’ Anaya says.
‘You’re right. Sorry. I am just nervous about all this mate stuff! It seems so complicated and unconventional.’ I admit.
‘It seems strange because you were raised by humans. It really isn’t as crazy as it seems. You have found your soulmate, and he will love and cherish you always. Not many humans can say they have found something that special. He wont pressure you to do anything you are not ready for, but you have to realize it will be hard for him to resist. The wolf side runs on instinct. Once a wolf finds their mate, they want to be with them always. That is why most mates live together once they find each other. Being apart is too hard eventually it will have a negative effect. It will be hard for you and him to sleep or go a moment without thinking of each other. I miss our mate constantly and being away from him makes me sad. I have tried to keep those feelings to myself so as not to overwhelm you, but it is hard when he is gone.’ She says with sadness in her voice.
Had Owen been hurting because of me? Had Samuel been longing for us to be with him?
I did not want my mate to hurt because of me.
‘Maybe we should consider moving to the pack house at least, so we are closer to him.’ Anaya says her voice laced with hope.
A few days ago, I would never consider living with a guy after only knowing him for a short time. Of course, I never thought I would meet anyone that I actually liked enough to even consider moving in with him. Since he left a few hours ago I have been restless and missing him, so that means I want to be with him. I don’t think I would be able to sleep anymore if he is so far away for so long. What is happening? This is both sweet and annoying at the same time! It’s like I can’t control my emotions anymore! But Owen had not asked me to live with him yet, maybe he isn’t ready for that either.
‘Trust me he is holding back a lot.’ Anaya says with a smirk.
He is holding back because I seem so nervous all the time, and now is probably too scared to ask. This was all my fault! I scolded myself repeatedly over the next hour for being such a coward. I was brought out of my mental punishing by the sound of a soft knock. I felt a tingling sensation of excitement when the knock came. Owen?
“Come in.” I say cautiously.
“Hey!” He says peaking his head in.
“Hi.” I reply tucking some of my hair behind my ear and blushing for the thousandth time since I met him.
“How are you feeling?” He asks stepping in with his hands behind his back.
“I am ok.” I reply.
What I want to say is I missed him so so much, but I will keep that to myself for now.
“I brought you something.” He says bringing his hand to the front of him showing a cute teddy bear.
I melted at the sight of it. It was an adorable white bear with a embroidered heart on it’s chest, simple but adorable!
“Aw I love it!” I say as he walks over and hands it to me.
“I wanted to get you something better, but this was the cutest one in the gift shop.” He admits slightly sad.
“Oh no, it really is cute! Thank you!” I tell him happily.
He smiles and takes a seat next to me.
“Are you ready to go home tomorrow? I bet you miss being in your own bed.” He says laughing a little.
“Yeah, these beds get uncomfortable. But I am not sure if I want to go home.” I say not looking at him.
He looks up at me confused and slightly panicked.