Chapter 48

“Amelia, I know that all of this seems overwhelming right now. I would not expect you to simply believe this to be true after the vision you had seen. You had seen a whole other life in that vision. That is enough to disorient anyone. I wish I could protect you from all the things that the future holds, you are part of me, but with this information you can be ready. You know what will happen, and now you will know what to do.” Elena says gently stroking my back in reassurance.

“I know this may sound silly but isn’t knowing the future dangerous. Changing things will have a domino effect wont it? Wouldn’t any choice I make now taint the future? What if I make the wrong choice, it could affect so many others besides myself.” I could not help but wonder if this would damage someone else’s life only so I could save my own.

“It is true that every choice you make once you leave us will affect those around you and may not seal the future into a single time thread, but it is necessary. Every choice you make sends a ripple to the people around you, even if you did not know what the future holds. Even knowing the future means it has changed. It is a complex web that changes constantly with every choice someone makes. Amelia, this is different, it is necessary, and it is a risk. We are not taking this lightly, and the decision to bring you here was difficult, but there is not much time. You will meet Owen soon, and that’s when everything began, so we need to get you back soon.” Amira says apologetically.

“Can you tell me something?” I ask quickly before they tried to send me away.

They nodded in agreement and waited for me to speak again.

“What are my abilities? When I used them, I didn’t seem to understand them or how to control them or even what they were. It seemed like an energy pulse, but I am not sure. The not knowing is what kind of drives me crazy.” I admit shyly.

“I understand little one. In truth, every white wolf displayed a variety of abilities. No white wolf had the same ability. When I merged the white wolf energy with you, I did not alter it in any way, which means you may display several or only one specific ability. I can not say for sure what ability will emerge when you do, so that will be the one thing you have to discover for yourself. You will be far more powerful than any other wolf in the world, but you will need to learn for yourself how you will use that power. We can only tell you what we see, but you will have to decide in the end what path to take. We have faith in you. Are you ready to return?” Elena asks me with a soft smile.

“I guess so.” I couldn’t think of another reason to stay.

They couldn’t tell me what my power would be, and in the vision that had been one of my biggest struggles. I would have to face that challenge when it came.

“This ay feel a little strange and when you wake you may feel slightly disoriented but that should pass quickly.” Amira warns.

I nod my understanding. The three fates rise from their seats and moved closer to me reaching their hands out to me. My blood ran cold as the color of their eyes shifted into a deep dark color that looked like the dark depths of space. I could not look away and as they drew closer it felt like the darkness enveloped me and I shivered from the chill that washed over me. I felt like I was falling into nothingness and when I gasped for a breath, I was in my apartment again.

I turned my head slowly to try to center myself again to reality. Amira had been right; my body was tingling, and it was like my mind was still not in control of my body. My limbs felt numb and unmoving. It felt almost like sleep paralysis, my mind was awake, but my body wasn’t. It took several minutes before I felt sharp pinching pains in my hands and feet, like thee nerves were waking all at once. This was definitely not the best way I have ever woken up, but it made what happened to me seem even more a real possibility.

‘Amelia, are you ok?’ Anaya asked.

‘I don’t know to be honest. This all is just a lot. I mean why me? I know they told me why, but I am literally a nobody. I didn’t even have a wolf until the moon goddess gave me you.’ I admit.

‘Amelia I know its easy for you to slip into self-doubt and trust me when I say no one does that better than you, but that won’t help you.’ Anaya said nicely, well nice for her.

‘You would think knowing I am some kind of superhero would help with my confidence, but it isn’t that simple. Even knowing that in the future I will be a powerful wolf doesn’t make me feel at ease, I am terrified.’ I knew it sounded silly having such little faith in myself, but I just have never known another way to think of myself.
I had only just moved into my first ever apartment, starting my first real job. My life was just beginning and now it was up to me to be a savior for an entire race knowing that once before I had failed to do so.

‘You can’t have everything figured out right away Amelia, it is going to take time to know the right choice to make. Give yourself time to accept what you were told, and then go from there.’ Anya advised.

‘Anaya…can you hear them?’ I ask her after a short silence between us.

‘Who?’ She asks.

‘The other white wolves. Elena said their energy is inside me, their essence, are their memories there as well? Do they speak to you?” I wasn’t sure what I hoped it meant if she could speak to them.

‘I can sense them, and I can feel their energy within me,’ Anaya tried to explain. ‘It feels like being surrounded by warmth.’

She seemed to be struggling with how to explain. ‘How come I do not feel them?’

‘You are have not emerged into your full self yet, once you have you will be able to feel them as I do. Once you have emerged it will unlock everything that is laying dormant within you right now.’ I sighed to myself.

The tingling I had been feeling had dissipated and my body felt warm again. My arms trembled slightly as I tried to sit myself up more on the couch where I had been lying for however long my consciousness had been separated from my body. I searched the area around me for my phone. How long had I been gone?
I noticed my phone on the floor not far from the couch. My legs gave out slightly on my first attempt to stand, but I made it over to where my phone had been dropped. The screen flickered on in response to my tight grip. Only a few minutes had passed? It had felt like I was gone for hours, and yet the time was telling me that it had been less than 5 minutes. So much of this day was making my head spin.

“Amelia?” The sound of harpers voice shocked me to attention. “Amelia? You ok in there?”

I stumbled to the door, and quickly reached out to steady myself against the wall for a moment. Once I had steadied my breathing and made sure I looked normal and not like my consciousness had just recently been returned to my body, I opened the door.

“Harper, I’m so sorry I was just changing!” I tell her with an apologetic smile.

“Oh, no problem. You seemed a little off, so I just wanted to check on you. Will you be ok working today? Because if you need another day to settle that is fine, I can understand if all this newness is a little overwhelming.” She said with a sympathetic tilt of her head and soft smile.

“No! I am fine to start today!” I say quickly earning a slightly surprised look from my boss.

“Ok, then see you in a few. We open about an hour.” She says turning and walking down the stairs back to the café.

I closed the door and leaned against it letting out a deep breath.

The sudden visit from my boss had woken me completely and my body seemed almost completely normal again, so I walked over to where I had arranged my clothes and picked out what I planned to wear on my first day. I held the clothes against myself and walked into the bathroom to see myself in the mirror. The second I see the clothes I feel a shiver run up my spine. This is what I woe on my first day in my vision, and the flashes from that memory run past my eyes. I gasp from the sudden recollection and drop the clothes at my feet.

It was the strangest episode of déjà vu that I had ever experienced, and I felt sudden panic. Could something as simple as thee clothes I wear affect the future? No, that doesn’t make sense.

I waked away from the clothes I had dropped and searched for something else to wear.