Chapter 23

[Owen POV]
As soon as I arrived back at the house I knew something was off with Amelia. Our bond seemed weakened, and I couldn’t sense her wolf any longer. I had worried about her since she had been hospitalized, but I had not noticed any instances where she was having more trouble with her wolf. Had she been keeping it from me? I wouldn’t put it past her, she may not have felt she could talk to me about it. Knowing her she has been suffering alone since then and putting on a brave face for me. I wish she would talk to me if something had happened, but we were still growing closer and maybe she didn’t feel like being a burden to me.
After she told me what happened with her wolf my heart ached for her. Her wolf had hurt her, and I didn’t understand why she continued to hurt Amelia. She was meant to be a part of her, to make her stronger but she treated her like a burden. I had never heard of a human wolf bond like this before. Most werewolves had a harmonious relationship with their wolf, even when they didn’t always agree. I didn’t always get along with Samuel, but he never hurt me or fought against me. Did this have something to do with Amelia being a white wolf? I needed to learn more, she is my mate and I need to h her.
I can see what she has done had already started to affect her. She looks weaker and tired. It must had drained her body to lock her wolf away suddenly. There had to be something that could be done, but that was something we would have to handle later. Tonight, I am to be presented as Alpha and name my Luna to the pack. Rumors have been spreading since I built our home, and I am sure the whole pack knows that I found my mate. I have not wanted anyone to meet her yet, because I didn’t want to overwhelm her, but will she be ok to meet them now?
No matter my duties as Alpha, my duty was to take care and protect Amelia no matter what. I know some Alphas will put their pack before their mate, but I do not believe in that. If my pack were not to accept or even hurt my mate, I would fight to the death to protect her. I am sure my father would be disappointed in me for thinking this way, but I didn’t care. Had he returned yet? He had been away so long, had he heard about Amelia from mom? The day I told him I had some news; he had left suddenly to visit another pack. I hadn’t had much of a chance to tell him anything. He has not spoken to us much since then and I worry something is wrong, but I have been too distracted to think about it.
Did I even get to tell him I found my mate? It was hard for me to recall since my mind has been in a frenzy since Amelia came into my life. I guess it is easy to be distracted when your mate is as beautiful as mine. It has become especially more distracting since last night, and I have not been able to think about anything else all day. It been hard to not touch her before, but now it was killing me. I knew now was not the time because of what she is going through but the closer she is to me the harder it is not to be turned on by her every touch.
Even now she is curled up against me and my whole body feels like fire! I want to kiss her, and well do way more than kiss her but I need to hold back. I need too stop being so horny and focus!
‘Last night was amazing…’ Samuel begins to flash memories of last night through his thoughts and mine.
‘STOP! You are not helping!’ I growl back at him.
That damn wolf, what is he trying to so? I can’t get turned on right now! Oh no, too late! Why did I wear these tight pants?!!! Ok I need to get away and calm down. How do I escape for a minute without upsetting Amelia?
“Uh, I need to use the restroom.” I blurt out.
“Oh sorry!” She says sitting up and looking at me apologetically.
Oh no, don’t look at me like that! Why is everything she does so cute? This is not helping and now I am not sure if it is safe to stand up. I need to distract myself, think of something else. ANYTHING ELSE!
“Owen?” She says softly.
Oh goddess her voice is not helping either!
“Hmm?” I respond becoming more uncomfortable.
“Are you going to the bathroom?” She asks confused.
“Mhm. In a second.” I say in pain, trying to shift my pants to a more comfortable position.
She looks at me again and giving me a once over.
“Are you not feeling well?” She asked worried and reaching her hand to my forehead.
No! Don’t do anything! Ah!
I jump up and take a step back from the couch awkwardly.
“No, no I am fine!” Damn this is not good!
“You look flushed, are you sure you feel ok?” She says standing and moving toward me.
I step back again trying to convince her I am fine, and she watches me carefully. She comes closer and brushes her hand along my lower jaw and neck to see again if I have a fever. I can
‘t take it and I grab her wrist moving it away from me.
“What’s wrong? I was checking to see if you felt warm?” She says innocently.
“Please. You can’t touch me right now.” I plead closing my eyes shut.
“Why?” She asks in a soft shaky voice.
I look at her ad see hurt flash over her face. Oh no, she thinks I am upset with her!
“I’m sorry. It’s just…” I am so embarrassed right now!
“You don’t want me anymore?” She asks and I can see tears forming inn her eyes.
Does she really think that?
“What?! No of course I want you!” I say quickly taking her face in my hands and moving closer so we are close enough to kiss.
“Then why do you not want me to touch you?” She asks with a whisper.
Oh, that’s not helpful at all.
“It’s just that I want you a little TOO much right now.” I say with a frustrated groan and close my eyes again.
“Oh…” She says and when I look at her again she is blushing and looking away. She bites her lip slightly which makes things a bit tighter in my pants area, I need to get away before I grab her!
I start to move away in utter humiliation, but she grabs me and pulls me back to her and kisses me. Fire is building in me instantly and I deepen the kiss not able to stop myself. I need to stop! It takes all my strength to pull away, and she whines when I do. Ah she needs to stop!
“Amelia we nee to slow down or I won’t be able to stop.” I warn her.
“I don’t want to stop.” She says looking deep into my eyes.
She really shouldn’t have said that, because now Samuel is taking over me and grabbing her. She squeals as I pick her up and she wraps her legs around my waist. I need to be closer to her, right now! I carry her to our room and lay her down on the bed climbing on top of her and taking her lips onto mine roughly. My hands slip beneath her shirt and travel across her soft skin. She squirms under my touch and I kiss her deeply, forgetting to breath. I just want her.
“Ready?” I whisper pulling away for a moment.
“Yes.” She says in a hushed tone that only fuels me more.
It’s enough to send me over the edge of no return and I tear her clothes away, not caring if she can never wear them again. I will buy her new clothes, as many new clothes as she need if we can be like this again!