Chapter 18

Ethan's POV
Honestly, I feel hurt by the way Isabella met Lucas behind my back in secret. I feel like I have difficulty saying things now. Besides the anger that I want to express immediately. I feel very annoyed with Isabella and Lucas right now. Is it possible that they want to betray me behind my back? I really feel disappointed with my wife. I don't know what I should tell her so that she understands my feelings. But now I'm having difficulty controlling my own anger.
I don't know why I have the courage to look for Lucas. I have to make him understand that now Isabella is completely mine. She is my wife who cannot be touched by him. Even just being alone with her I am not willing at all.
"Okay Kenzo, thank you for giving me important information regarding my wife and Lucas."
"Yes Alpha, it is my duty to help you."
I patted his shoulder.
"Kenzo, you can continue your activities."
"Okay Alpha, I'll take my leave then."
Kenzo left me alone here. I was still in the Shadow Fang Pack area. I accidentally saw Lucas at the end. For some reason, I felt very annoyed with him. I immediately approached him and attacked him with my own hands without hesitation.
"Feel this!" I launched my blue energy at him.
He almost got hit by my energy. But suddenly he started to dodge and was sensitive to attacks.
"Ethan?" His face looked shocked.
"Hiyaaaaaaaa." I attacked him again.
Again and again, he was able to dodge my attacks. I felt like I couldn't control my emotions. I immediately forgot my anger towards Lucas. He was the one who provoked all this chaos to happen. I really didn't want my wife to be taken by him. Besides, I knew Isabella before him.
"Wait, Ethan! What's wrong with you suddenly attacking me?" He was even more surprised by my sudden attitude like this.
"Enough! You don't need to be so dramatic!" I felt very annoyed and wanted to finish him off immediately.
I attacked him again and launched a series of attacks at him. He began to be overwhelmed and almost fell. Even blood came out of his mouth. Lucas really didn't fight back against his brother. Lucas really surrendered to my attacks. I felt sorry for him for a moment, but again and again, I remembered the betrayal he deliberately did to his own brother. "Aaaaaaaa..."
I saw and witnessed with my own eyes that Lucas vomited blood again. Because my energy was directed at his chest but he didn't fight me at all. I clenched my fists with the anger that I held inside. Feeling that this emotion was not over yet. I almost killed him with my own hands. But suddenly memories of my teenage years with Lucas came to my mind. I began to remember him as my brother. I immediately stopped this big attack and began to disappear from his sight.
He still looked helpless and in pain. But I ignored it because I was afraid of being carried away by my own feelings. I was really in a dilemma between choosing to keep my wife or give in to my own brother. This was really a tough test for me. But inside me, there is a fire of jealousy that automatically burns just like that. It is unpredictable and difficult to control. I really feel controlled by the lust of anger that burns my soul.
A moment after I left him alone in pain. On the way, I began to remember and imagine his pitiful face. He held his own chest with his right hand. While groaning and on the right and left sides of his mouth, there was blood flowing from inside his mouth, dripping to the ground. I have truly become a savage. My wolf soul came out and struggled when my honor was hurt. I really became a different person from usual. For a moment I felt sorry for hurting my brother. I even attacked him without the slightest pity, and he was very cunning. Because I attacked him when he was off guard.
"Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaa...." I screamed loudly as I stopped in front of a cliff.
"Auuuuuuu...." Echoed while hitting both of my chests with my own hands. Feeling annoyed with myself and had difficulty controlling myself.
My hands swept my face, both palms covering my face. I felt regret and then fell down in sorrow. I knelt in front of the cliff looking forward steeply. Then opened my hands and turned my face to the sky. Unnoticed, the tears of an alpha flowed and dripped onto the ground. I was a coward and a slave to love. I was completely controlled by anger because of blind jealousy.
I wiped my cheeks which were flowing with my own tears. Feeling stupid if an alpha cried like this. But when I was alone I really showed my weak side. I was just someone who needed a hug and a look. I needed direction, but I felt embarrassed to ask for help, advice, and opinions from anyone. I was nothing more than a bastard and a coward who was covered in my rank.
The tears that were hard to hold back continued to flood my cheeks. Even though I had wiped and brushed them away many times. But I'm just a wolf who has flaws and feelings just like everyone else. I who look tough are not always great. I'm also the same as those who often freely express themselves. The overflowing tears immediately reduced my anger. I started to feel calm and seemed ready to go home if I had to meet Isabella.
Although there was still a feeling of annoyance. But hopefully, I can control myself easily when I'm in front of her. I always hope that there will be no quarrel between me and my wife. I don't want to look silly by showing my selfish side in front of my wife. Isabella shouldn't find me weak like this. I really hold on to my feelings tightly. For a moment on the way home, I warned myself to stay in a state of almost stable feelings. When I got home I saw Isabella waiting for me.
"Have you just finished?" She asked softly even though I saw other feelings on her face. She seemed to feel guilty and uncomfortable but tried to cover herself up from the feelings she felt.
"Yes." I don't know why I wanted to do it. I couldn't hide the fact that I wasn't feeling well.
"What's wrong with you?"
"No." That was my short answer to her.
She looked at me with a very strange look. Maybe it was not like usual. She had just seen this side of me. Otherwise, she only saw the positive side of me. So it's no wonder that she was surprised by this change in my attitude. I understood that and felt it. I felt what Isabella was feeling right now.