Chapter 51

Ethan's POV
Elder Rowan's words left me stunned and in deep thought because they really touched me to the bottom of my heart. Making me realize the truth behind his magical words. I feel lucky to have been brought together with him by the universe. Meanwhile, I almost forgot and neglected the problem that had been binding me all this time. Because of that problem, I was able to be here facing him. With great difficulty and blood, I was able to get here. Even many victims have been willing to help me to get to this point. This is truly an extraordinary thing for me. The first experience in my entire life that I have just experienced now.
"Don't be like that, it's too much for me. Just by understanding yourself, I can get happiness itself. You don't need to feel like this. Just live your life in the future with a feeling of freedom and humility."
"Okay, I will always remember your message. Your advice really penetrated me deeply. It became a valuable lesson for me in understanding the true meaning of life. I hope that after our meeting, I will be better at living my life. Becoming a werewolf who is truly balanced and stable. Not always prioritizing ego and lust alone."
"Yes, that would be better. Hopefully, you can keep your own promise. Your words will absorb into the behavior that you will do in your daily life."
"Yes, I hope so."
A few moments later after I had really opened my heart. I was shocked because something magical had just come to me.
"That's it."
"What?"
"Look back!"
I immediately looked back by turning my neck forty-five degrees sideways between the side and back. Curious about what Elder Rowan meant.
I frowned, looking at the figure behind me who had just come to this place.
"Who?" I asked briefly and innocently spontaneously.
"Who else if not the figure you're waiting for."
I frowned again, guessing what Elder Rowan meant.
"Smile!"
I really didn't understand when Elder Rowan told me to smile for no reason.
"That's the young Elder."
It immediately made me very happy, and I felt very joyful. Like I had found a very valuable treasure. I felt something that made me live for the second time in this world.
"Come closer here!" The young Elder said to me.
I started to smile after hearing the fact that he was the figure I had been waiting for here all this time.
"Am I not dreaming?"
"Of course not." He smiled at me peacefully. Radiating indescribable positive energy. I felt a powerful wave channeled by this werewolf. His fur was blown by the wind and was so stunning. Beautiful to look at and cool to look at. That's how young he was but he was really old.
"I entrust him, his name is Ethan Blackwood. You must have known your duty and the problem." Elder Rowan said to the young Elder.
It was strange that Elder Rowan knew my full name. But it became natural some time ago, and I began to know him after communicating with him.
I also felt loved by both of them. Feeling like a golden child. Even though we had just met, I felt warmth and great affection from both of them.
The young Elder immediately took his duties and directed me. Guiding me in his way. I also began to follow his instructions. I did not miss a single direction after direction that he showed me. I adopted it as a whole and carried it out with humility and steadfastness in the process.
"Does it have to be forty days and forty nights?" I asked innocently.
"No need." Shaking his head.
He continued "Three days and three nights are enough."
"Okay."
"Are you ready?"
"Yes, I'm ready."
"When will we start?"
"Now!"
Start everything and I focus on doing it.
To get the flower of eternity and restore my feathers that had fallen out. I have to meditate for three days and three nights. I do it so that I can return to my time. In addition, I will get answers to my questions all this time. Knowing the secret of time and immediately returning home with the news. So that everything is clear between the red thread and the white thread. There is no doubt that I will finish this extraordinary journey.
Today is the first day counted. I started to do penance and, of course, with initial conditions that were not burdensome. My position is sitting cross-legged with a body in the form of a wolf. It's really not easy. Where my body position must be upright and must not waver at all. I looked straight ahead along with my straight intentions. The young elder exemplified everything to me. I also began to follow what he demonstrated.
After I understood and started practicing it correctly. Then everything began and I started this ascetic activity. I closed my eyes. I started to feel an unusual subtle energy absorbing into my body. I calmed my mind and didn't think much about other complex things other than my current position. Trying to give myself comfort. Examining myself deeply. Having a deep dialogue with myself. Finding the true meaning of life.
Throwing away doubts and feelings of fear. Dispelling the curiosity and ignorance and dissatisfaction that had been wrapped around me. I started to be free and fly. I felt my body lifting and straddling the ground. Although I don't know how far between me and the ground is. But clearly, I didn't step on the ground. It felt like I was floating in the air. I even felt a light starting to radiate from my forehead, chest and stomach.
Feeling balanced and full of power. Feeling fresh and even feeling reborn. I don't know how long I've been meditating. But I will only stop when the young elder calls me back to open my eyes. Now I'm just waiting for that time to come. But my focus remains on the present. Where I really enjoy the sensations that come suddenly. Even my mind is clean without thinking about anything else.
Especially the problems that have been tangled in me. Now I start to let them go freely and no longer stay in me. This really makes me feel comfortable and the comfort makes me want to linger in a position and condition like this. Amazing, I feel this is the most valuable condition I have ever felt. Where everything feels free and independent. I float in the air in a mortal state. Merging with nature that infiltrates me. The energy is so strong pulling each other. I don't know what happened outside my sight.