CHAPTER 48

Dawn Scarlett





It's already been more or less three minutes and he still has this shocked expression plastered on his face. I thought that the expression he had will still last for a while but then his eyes started twinkling and honestly, I am still quite freaked out every time that I see that kind of reaction not only from him but from Alaistair and even from Raphael. Basically, I am freaked out not because I find it creepy but more of I am freaked out because this is the first time that I have received and seen such expression given towards me because they view me as someone who has great ideas, someone who is amazing or maybe someone who is way out of their league.



But I do not think of myself that highly though. I do not think that I am someone with that amazing idea, I am not that an amazing person and I am not way out of their league - in fact, they are the people who are actually way out of my league. Those twinkling eyes also make me feel that I am really such a rare being, that they are really viewing me as someone who is extraordinary to the point that they are already doubting if such person could really exist in this world - that maybe if it is possible then I could have come from another world.



Well, I did come from another world but of course, they are not going to know that fact. The reason why they are able to look at me with those twinkling eyes, eyes that states that they are greatly amazed at whatever that comes out of my mouth that greatly resonates or explains what they are going to say is because I am able to clearly remember everything that happened in my previous life. Just like what I said a while back regarding the nobility, if I haven't remembered anything from my past life, such as the lectures of my professor in history then I wouldn't have been able to say something like what I said a while ago.



Well, saying it was actually a gamble because although the aristocracy in this world has quite a resemblance from the aristocracy in my previous life there is still a difference that I myself am still not well aware of. So, what I have said is actually either right or wrong, but I did not care if it is right or wrong because the important thing is that I am able to satisfy Trajan's curiosity because Trajan, being the curious guy he will surely not stop until he gets what he actually wants and he will not continue with his lecture if I haven't told him what I am actually thinking about.



"Amazing! You have lost your memories yet you have great insights like that! I guess that is what they call muscle memory right? That at some point even if you have lost your memories you are able to at least recall some of it at some point when a thing triggered it." he said and based on his voice it is obvious that he is really quite excited or happy? Whatever, the thing is that obviously, I made him a lot more curious about me and about my identity. I am sure enough that he will tell what happened today to his brother Aurelius, the emperor.



More or less they will be a lot of curious about who am I indeed before I lost my memories - they will start to think that it is impossible for me to have no noble decent when in fact I am able to produce such ideas that I have mentioned a while back. And I cannot help but feel that it is going to be troublesome for me.



"Wait tell me do you have other insights about being a noblewoman? I'd like to hear it if you do have" Trajan said and his eyes are once again twinkling - they are twinkling so hard, to be honest, it is already as if he is pleading me to tell him something. like my opinions on having the title of nobility. Honestly, I do not know if I am really going to say that I do have an idea already because if I said that I have is interest will surely intensify and it is not good to have someone's interest in you intensify because for me that will mean that he will inform the emperor about it and they will surely have an even more solid motivation to find my descent, like for example where the heck did I actually came from, how the heck did I lost my memories and in general, who is Dawn Scarlett in general? Why are there no records that she was born in this world in the first place?



And that would greatly be hard for me especially if I haven't even mastered my powers just yet which means that I still cannot protect myself from possible dangers. Once again, I do not want to put all the burden on Raphael, Alaistair, or my familiar Yuki about these things and Fourteen of course can no longer interfere. I mean he can interfere if he wants to but too much interference is forbidden, he can only help me be able to adapt to this world and teach me things that I do not know but he cannot prevent Aurelius or anyone from doing something. In short, the gods basically don't care whatever happens the important thing is that I am able to fulfill my duty as their chosen one and that is to help the people solve the calamity.



"No, I actually have no idea. I also do not know why have I said those things a while ago - it just entered my mind for a second" I said and I made sure to keep a straight face because if I didn't then I am sure enough that I am going to be in trouble - he will surely not believe what I have said.



After I said that, his twinkling eyes is still there but then I heard him heave a deep sigh then he said, "Oh that's quite sad. I thought you are able to say something interesting again - but I guess that is also because your memories are sealed but still it is quite impressive that you are able to produce such a juicy idea" that is what he said and I actually can't help but let out a sigh subconsciously because of the fact that he believed the lie that I have said in order to escape spilling more details that will lead me to experience more trouble than I should have.





"Anyways let me take it from here," He said again then he faked a cough and after coughing three times, he started speaking again - more of lecturing me about what it's like to be a noblewoman. "So, the daily life of being a noblewoman actually follows an identical schedule to that of her lord. The lord might be her father, brother, or husband. Since you are to be the empress your life is greatly focused on handling other affairs in the imperial palace that my brother, the Emperor cannot handle anymore. You are basically going to share his burdens and you will also have your own servants in order to help you accomplish your tasks every day. But compared to the emperor, your schedule is much more lenient"



"You also have your own rights - every noblewoman has their rights A noblewoman's job was to take care of a household and to have children and so before noblewomen had no rights, as they were the property of their husbands. A noblewoman was also not allowed to choose their husband and it was the father of that individual who will choose their husbands for them - in short, arrange marriage or let's call it a beneficial marriage. You are also basically not allowed to make important decisions, such decisions are only for the men to manage.



But just like what I have said, that was before. Now it is a different thing because our father, the late emperor made major changes. The first change is that women already have their own rights that they need to treasure and remember. Second, if someone violated their rights they can instantly file a case and ask the emperor himself to investigate and give proper jurisdiction. Well, political marriages still exist but there are already a lot of cases where marriages do happen because the two fell in love with each other, or in that arrange marriage set up the couple was able to sooner or later learn how to love each other. Well, it may sound cliche but that is really the case." He said and I do not think that it is cliche - falling in love with someone you married out of the benefit is not impossible to happen but it rarely happens. Finding a husband that will treat you as a wife and not just a trophy by gaining something out of the marriage is a rare thing to find especially in an aristocratic society. It is actually quite obvious but then again, I am not planning to say out loud my thoughts because I am pretty sure that he will make a fuss out of it again. I'd really rather keep my mouth shut until he finishes his lecture.



"So, before being the fiance of the emperor, as a single noble lady, of course your role was to help your family run the estate and basically the role of being the successor to the duchy because you are the sole child. And so while you are living your life at the academy studying medicine to become a doctor you are also at the same time receiving lessons on how to manage your properties and how are you able to fulfill your duty as the future duchess of the Elysian Kingdom and that includes learning how to wield a sword and practicing magic. This is obviously completely different from the other noble lady who is simply given education, taught about how to manage the finances of the estate, learned how to become good wives in the future, attending balls and tea parties or whatsoever. You have been able to live a life just like a commoner but at the same time, you have also lived a life as the successor of the Machiavelli duchy. " he said again and that made me heave a deep sigh for the nth time subconsciously because although he makes it sound like it is a simple thing, it is actually not. It is amazing that they had everything planned out clean because everything that Trajan said up until now connects and it is also quite scary, to be honest -- seriously how calculative can Aurelius could get?



* To be continued *